On The Bound

All my life is on me now, hail the pages turning

And the future’s on the bound, hell don’t know my fury

You’re all I need, you’re all I need, you’re all I need

You’re all I need, you’re all I need, you’re all I need

You’re all I need - and maybe some faith would

Do me good

I don’t know what I’m doing, don’t know should I

Change my mind, I can’t decide, there’s too many

Variations to consider

No thing I do don’t do no thing but bring me

More to do,

It’s true, I do imbue my blue unto myself,

I make it bitter

Baby, lay your head on my lap one more time

Tell me you belong to me

Baby say that it’s all gonna be alright

I believe that it isn’t.

To Your Love

Here’s another speech you wish I’d swallow

Another cue for you to fold your ears

Another train of thought too hard to follow

Chugging along to the song that belongs to the shifting of gears

Please forgive me for my distance

The pain is evident in my existence

Please forgive for my distance

The shame is manifest in my resistance

To your love, to your love, to your love

I would’ve warned you, but really, what’s the point?

Caution could but rarely ever helps

Don’t be down when my demeanor tends to disappoint

It’s hard enough even trying to be civil to myself

Please forgive me for my distance

The pain is evident in my existence

Please forgive for my distance

The shame is manifest in my resistance

To your love, to your love, to your love

My derring-do allows me to dance the rigadoon

Around you

But by the time I’m close to you, I lose

My desideratum and now you, so

Now you have it, so baby tell me what’s the word?

Am I your gal, or should I get out of town?

I just need to be reassured

Do you just deal it out, or can you deal with

What I lay down?

Please forgive me, for my distance

The pain is evident in my existence

Please forgive me for my distance

The shame is manifest in my resistance

To your love, to your love, to your love

Limp

You wanna make me sick;

You wanna lick my wounds,

Don’t you, baby?

You want the badge of honour when you save my hide

But you’re the one in the way

Of the day of doom, baby

If you need my shame to reclaim your pride

And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists

I never did anything to you, man

But no matter what I try

You’ll beat me with your bitter lies

So call me crazy, hold me down

Make me cry; get off now, baby-

It won’t be long till you’ll be

Lying limp in your own hand

You feed the beast I have within me

You wave the red flag, baby you make it run run run

Standing on the sidelines, waving and grinning

You fondle my trigger, then you blame my gun

And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists

I never did anything to you, man

But no matter what I try

You’ll beat me with your bitter lies

So call me crazy, hold me down

Make me cry; get off now, baby-

It won’t be long till you’ll be

Lying limp in your own hand

Love Ridden

Love ridden, I’ve looked at you

With the focus I gave to my birthday candles

I’ve wished on the lidded blue flames

Under your brow

And baby, I wished for you

Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed

And I wanna crawl in with you

But I cry instead

I want your warm, but it will only make

Me colder when it's over

So I can’t tonight, baby

No, not ‘baby’ anymore - if I need you

I’ll just use your simple name

Only kisses on the cheek from now on

And in a little while, we’ll only have to wave

My hand won’t hold you down no more

The path is clear to follow through

I stood too long in the way of the door

And now I’m giving up on you

No, not ‘baby’ anymore - if I need you

I’ll just use your simple name

Only kisses on the cheek from now on

And in a little while, we’ll only have to wave

No, not ‘baby’ anymore - if I need you

I’ll just use your simple name

Only kisses on the cheek from now on

And in a little while, we’ll only have to wave

Paper Bag

I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star

To pray on, or wish on, or something like that

I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy

Whose reality I knew, was a hopeless to be had

But then the dove of hope began its downward slope

And I believed for a moment that my chances

Were approaching to be grabbed

But as it came down near, so did a weary tear

-I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag

- Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills

Cuz I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up

I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold

- Unge hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb

Looking for a little hope

Baby said he couldn’t stay, wouldn’t put his lips to mine,

And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope

I said, ‘Honey, I don’t feel so good, don’t feel justified

Come on put a little love here in my void,’ - he said

‘It’s all in your head,’ and I said, ‘So’s everything’ -

But he didn’t get it - I thought he was a man

But he was just a little boy

- Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills

Cuz I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up

I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold

- Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

- Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills

Cuz I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up

I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold

- Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

A Mistake

I’m gonna make a mistake-

I’m gonna do it on purpose

I’m gonna waste my time

Cuz I’m full as a tick

And I’m scratching at the surface

And what I find is mine

And when the day is done, and I look back

And the fact is I had fun, fumbling around

All the advice I shunned, and I ran

Where they told me not to run, but I sure

Had fun, so

I’m gonna fuck it up again

I’m gonna do another detour

Unpave my path

And if you wanna make sense

Whatcha looking at me for

I’m no good at math

And when I find my way back,

The fact is I just may stay, or I may not

I’ve acquired quite a taste

For a well-made mistake

I wanna mistake why can’t I make a mistake?

I’m always doing what I think I should

Almost always doing everybody good

Why-

Do I wanna do right, of course but

Do I really wanna feel I’m forced to

Answer you, hell no

I’ve acquired quite a taste

For a well-made mistake, I wanna

Make a mistake, why can’t I make a mistake

I’m always doing what I think I should

Almost always doing everybody good

Why-

Fast As You Can

I let the beast in too soon, I don’t know how to live

Without my hand on his throat; I fight him always & still

O darling, it's so sweet, you think you know how crazy

- How crazy I am

You say you don’t spook easy, you won’t go, but I know

And I pray that you will

- Fast as you can, baby run-free yourself of me

Fast as you can

I may be soft in your palm but I’ll soon grow

Hungry for a fight, and I will not let you win

My pretty mouth will frame the phrases that will

Disprove your faith in man

So if you catch me trying to find my way into your

Heart from under your skin

- Fast as you can, baby scratch me out, free yourself

Fast as you can

Fast as you can, baby scratch me out, free yourself

Fast as you can

Sometimes my mind don’t shake and shift

But most of the time, it does

And I get to the place where I’m begging for a lift

Or I’ll drown in the wonders and the was

And I’ll be your girl, if you say it’s a gift

And you give me some more of your drugs

Yeah, I’ll be your pet, if you just tell me it’s a gift

Cuz I’m tired of whys, choking on whys,

Just need a little because, because

I let the beast in and then;

I even tried forgiving him, but it’s too soon

So I’ll fight again, again, again, again, again.

And for a little while more, I'll soar the

Uneven wind, complain and blame

The sterile land

But if you’re getting any bright ideas, quiet dear

I’m blooming within

Fast as you can, baby wait watch me, I’ll be out

Fast as I can, maybe late but at least about

Fast as you can leave me, let this thing

Run its route

Fast as you can (repeat 4 times)

The Way Things Are

I wouldn’t know what to do with another chance

If you gave it to me

I couldn’t take the embrace of a real romance

It’d race right through me

I’m much better off the way things are

Much much better off, better by far, by far

I wouldn’t know what to say to a gentle voice

It’d roll right past me

And if you chalk it up you’ll see I don’t really have a choice

So don’t even ask me

I’m much better off, the way things are

Much much better off, better by far

So keep on calling me names, keep on, keep on

And I’ll keep kicking the crap till it’s gone

If you keep on killing, you could get me to settle

And as soon as I settle, I bet I’ll be

Able to move on

How can I fight, when we’re on the same side

How can I fight beside you

So keep on calling me names, keep on, keep on

And I’ll keep kicking the crap till it’s gone

If you keep on killing, you could get me to settle

And as soon as I settle, I bet I’ll be

Able to move on

So keep on calling me names, keep on, keep on

And I’ll keep kicking the crap till it’s gone

If you keep on killing, you could get me to settle

And as soon as I settle, I bet I’ll be

Able to move on

Get Gone

How many times do I have to say

To get away-get gone

Flip your shit past another lasses

Humble dwelling

You got your game, made your shot, and you got away

With a lot, but I’m not turned-on

So put away that meat you’re selling

Cuz I do know what’s good for me-

And I’ve done what I could for you

But you’re not benefiting, and yet I’m sitting

Singing again, sing, sing again

How can I deal with this, if he won’t get with this

M'I gonna heal from this; he won’t admit to it

Nothing to figure out; I gotta get him out

It’s time the truth was out that he don’t give a

Shit about me

How many times can it escalate

Till it elevates to a place I can’t breathe?

And I must decide, if you must deride

That I’m much obliged to up and go

I’ll idealize, then realize that it’s no

Sacrifice, because the price is paid, and

There’s nothing left to grieve

Fuckin go-

Cuz I've done what I could for you, and I do know what’s

Good for me and I’m not benefiting, instead

I’m sitting singing again, singing again, singing again,

Sing, sing, sing again

How can I deal with this, if he won’t get with this

M'I gonna heal from this; he won’t admit to it

Nothing to figure out; I gotta get him out

It’s time the truth was out that he don’t give a

Shit about me

I Know

So be it, I’m your crowbar

If that’s what I am so far

Until you get out of this mess

And I will pretend

That I don’t know of your sins

Until you are ready to confess

But all the time, all the time

I’ll know, I’ll know

And you can use my skin

To bury secrets in

And I will settle you down

And at my own suggestion,

I will ask no questions

While I do my thing in the background

But all the time, all the time

I’ll know, I’ll know

Baby-I can’t help you out, while she’s still around

So for the time being, I’m being patient

And amidst this bitterness

If you’ll just consider this-even if it don’t make sense

All the time-give it time

And when the crowd becomes your burden

And you’ve early closed your curtains,

I’ll wait by the backstage door

While you try to find the lines to speak your mind

And pry it open, hoping for an encore

And if it gets too late, for me to wait

For you to find you love me, and tell me so

It’s ok, don’t need to say it.