Facade

Empty eyes have lost their shine,
In a pale face, which I call mine.
Hollow hearts,
Shattered dreams,
Don't reflect in what they see.
All is lost in a world of tears.
A smile is placed to hide the fears.


Plastik

Ignorant society,
Feeding on all the lies.
Distorted minds,
Enjoying all that's falsified.
The fakeness had become our pride.
In the world that we control,
The ruining of our souls.
Destruction of ourselves,
Applauds technology.
For what we make,
Will only break,
The realness of reality.


Brain dead

Loss of any interest
Always confused
Hiding out in other worlds
Just to stay amused
Don't know anything
Mind is slipping away
What is said makes no sense
A life is wasted
Makes no difference
Why does it have to happen?
No one knows
Why are things the way they are?
Fall asleep 
And everything's okay
If it dies
It's meant to be that way


Frozen

Lost and alone
She stares to the floor
Her tears disguise her face.
Her heart is full of emptiness
Her mind is out of place.

Sad and scared
She shivers in the cold
Her tears have turned to ice drops
Frozen into place
A permanent scar
She stares into the sky
Wishing on a star.

Poor and unwanted
Is how she feels inside
Her walls fallen from around her
She's lost her place to hide
Look into her eyes
A sea of pain and sorrow
Never knowing 
If she'll live to see….
Tomorrow.


Fallen star

Lost in the darkness
Dreams turn to nightmares
Frightened  little girls
Are forced to grow up
Made to conform 
To the rules of society
Cry, cry, crying
Why, oh, why me??
They say
What will become of my fate?

These open sores will never, ever heal
Give me the pain 
And I will take you & destroy you
You know nothing
I know what you are
And you can't scare me
I am the star that falls 
Down from the sky to burn your face


Cope

I won't let you get to me
You beautiful boy
A simple smile 
And I go weak
Just one glance
And I've fallen
But I won't be hurt again
I won't let you get to me
You devil in disguise
An angel to my eyes
My heart is broken
And you're pulling out the pieces
One by one
Hang them around your room
With each tear 
I curse your name
With each thought 
I cut your face
I won't let you get to me
Your voice enchants me
Caught within a spell
Knowing that I'll never have 
What I desperately try to hold
I will capture you
In a silent stare
And keep you forever near
I won't reach out
I'll forget
I'll try not to care
I won't let you see
And I know you know
You have already gotten to me
Mind, body, & soul
I'm yours
I want to be


Hateful

I hate you for hating me
Your judgement has no reason to be
I'm so tired of this insanity
My thoughts are so strong
My body goes weak
I've given up
My hopes turn to lies
I've turned into something
I pretend to despise
I hate me for hating myself
I know that shouldn't be


My solitude

in my solitude
in my dreams held deep within
the feelings that i'm fighting for
are destroyed by self loathing
you have no right
no fucking right
blue eyes turned grey
as all hope fades away
digging myself an early grave
buried beneath the road you pave


Rotten Tears

Why am I so damned sensitive
Why can't you all be kind?
I'm trying to live
Just to get by
And you just tear me down
Why do you take advantage 
of my pleading heart of gold?
It's as if I was homeless
Left to freeze within the cold
I try, and I try
Try to please you
In the process
You take all you can 
Leaving me starving 
For hope
For a smile
For a touch
For a dream
You've left me a zombie with no self-esteem
Stop feeding me lies
Stop collecting my tears



Brilliance

Happier without you
I forgot I'm supposed to cry
Over you
Is that what you want
Well it's not what I need
Maybe I'm better without you

You ruled my thoughts and dreams
Until there was nothing left of me
Every single star that would fall
Fell down on me
Into the grayest haze
You would carry me
Pulling me by my feet
Dragging me underneath

How I do shine
Watch me glow without the dark
I am on my way
To a better day
Watch this smile creep up on me
I think I'm happy


Ugly Girl

Rotted teeth 
From the lies she's spoken
Let them slip from her bloody lips
So sharp
They're going to cut you open
Don't ever live your life like this

They all want to be like her
But she's an ugly girl
Ugly girl
Obsessed, enamoured, admire her
But she's an ugly girl
Ugly girl 
Inside

From these lips she's chosen
Her heart that is frozen
She covers it with that fake smile
And when the eyes are on her
She's someone else
And makes you want her
And makes you cry


The Secret Beach

Sitting on the sand
On the beach within my mind
Pure happiness
As the waves kiss my toes
Moonlit ocean
Silvery sand
Solitary blue of the darkened sky
This reality, only true to few
A magic place 
Where peace can be found
A land of dreams
Brought to life
Cannot exist forever
The real world pulls
With its icy grasp
Fallen to the sadness
And frozen 
By your words


Thread your sorrow

Take the needle and thread
To make a necklace of tears
Wear your sorrow
As if it was the latest fashion statement
How is is that you care
When there's nothing left to care for
Do you see something beyond sight
Unaccessible to my perception
If you do
can you let me in on the secret
I'm sick of being myself
And too disgusted with others 
To want to be someone else
I cannot feel
For I don't want to break
But there's nowhere for me to go
And there's no place for me to be
So what should I do
Disappear within this misery

listless

everyone else's burdens
weigh upon me as if they were my own.
they tear and disintegrate
steal, then destroy
how shall i take 
this sour medicine
in one big gulp
or bit by bit
sipping my life away
on other people's problems
pain so strong
the urge to wretch
quakes through my limbs
every single part of my being
shaking and screaming
for the need of release
scarring and aching
at each cut inflicted to my wrist
i've now lost everything
i've ever had
lost all the love
lost all the hate
now all that's left is nothing
a blank, neverending void
and what i was
and what i am
will never measure up
to what i'll never be
i'm selfish, I can't help you
I'm selfless, I can't help myself