This Fire

Tiger

where do i put this fire
this bright red feeling
this tiger lily down my mouth
he wants to grow to twenty feet tall

CHORUS:

i've left bethlehem
i feel free
i've left the girl i was supposed to be and
someday i'll be born

i'm so tired of being shy
i'm not that girl anymore
i'm not that straight A anymore
now i want to sit with my legs wide open and
laugh so loud that the whole damn restaurant
will turn and look at me and say 
look at the tiger jumping out of her mouth

chorus

no more sex-starved teachers 
trying to touch my ass
i can finally be a teenager at age twenty-six
go to hell lions, tigers, and bears
i'm not afraid of you anymore
and my fear broke apart like fifty balloons
and i'm thrown around the room like party confetti now

chorus

someday i'll be born
someday someday someday i'll be born
someday someday someday i'll be born
high and noon (13 times)




Where Have All The Cowboys Gone 
oh you get me ready in your 56 chevy
why don't we go sit down in the shade
take shelter on my front porch
he dandy lion sun scorching,
like a glass of cold lemonade
i will do laundry if you pay all the bills

CHORUS:

where is my john wayne
where is my prairie song
where is my happy ending
where have all the cowboys gone

why don't you stay the evening
kick back and watch the TV
and I'll fix a little something to eat
oh I know your back hurts from working on the tractor
how do you take your coffee my sweet
i will raise the children if you pay all the bills

chorus

i am wearing my new dress tonight
but you don't, but you don't even notice me
say our goodbyes (3 times)

we finally sell the chevy
when we had another baby
and you took the job in tennessee
you made friends at the farm
and you joined them at the bar
almost every single day of the week

chorus

i will wash the dishes while you go have a beer
where is my marlboro man
where is his shiny gun
where is my lonely ranger
where have all the cowboys gone
yippee aw, yippee yea (3 times)




Throwing Stones 
so call me a bitch in heat and
i'll call you a liar
and we'll throw stones until we're dead

there you go again you cut me off from talking
you bask in the glory
the center of the circle
all the friends think you're a comedian 
so kind and generous 
but i am suffering

away from here
i wanna be
away from here
away from here
away from every little thing
every little thing
i used to love your every little, every little thing

now you call me a bitch in heat and 
i call you a liar
and we'll throw stones until we're dead

you're the puppeteer and i'm the puppet
you manipulate me with your (real) catholic shit
everytime i try to talk it through 
you turn it around and make us out to be
david and goliath

away from here
i wanna be
away from here
away from here
away from every little thing
every little thing
i used to love your every little every little thing

now you call me a bitch in heat and 
i'll call you a liar
and we'll throw stones until we're dead

your arms beneath me
your lying inside me
i used to love your every little every little thing
your eyes blue stars
your hand in my purse
and now i hate your every little everything all day

oh mama 
i didn't know life was this hard
oh mama
my innocence has been tarred

my inner vision, dulled and darkened
i keep myself away to you
i fuck my sorrow humblely
and throw my crown upon the ground

it's you i hope for 
and us i pray for
and me that i believed was wrong
but now my anger is my best friend
be careful i may bite your head off

liar

so call me a bitch in heat and 
i'll you a liar
and we'll throw stones until we're dead

so call me a bitch in heat and 
i'll you a mother fucker
and we'll throw stones until we're dead





Carmen
carmen, i don't know i don't know i don't know if i can go back
carmen i'll never be never be never be the same again
carmen (6 times)

the way you set the table
the way you lean to tell me something soft
the way i can see into you
the way you tell me i talk too much about myself
it's true i talk too much about myself
but right now, right now all i wanna talk about is you now

carmen, i don't know, i don't know, i don't know if i can go back
carmen i'll never be, never be, never be the same again
carmen (6 times)

i love the way you think
is it biological or all the acid
you've eaten
just take me into your body
i wanna be drunk i wanna be high 
i wanna be drunk i wanna be high on you

carmen, i don't know, i don't know, i don't know if i can go back
carmen i'll never be, never be, never be the same again
carmen (6 times)

i don't know i don't know i don't know 
i don't know i don't know i don't know
if i can go go go go go go go go back home

i don't know i don't know i don't know 
i don't know i don't know i don't know
if i can be (happily sane) again

Mississippi
i know i'm big and proud all over
not just on the stage
my secret self has many sides
that laugh and crush and sting
i'm red and thick like fire
i like it from behind
(round to back)
red to white
i'm pure inside and silent

CHORUS:
i'm alive
gotta piece of my heart
on the sole of your shoe
i've got a little bit of thunder
trapped inside of a cloud
the dog in you 
spit me out into the mississippi

i know who can love my many selves
the wife the bitch the rapunzel
the one who cries
and calls for you 
the one who is always alone

chorus

oh mississippi
come and wash my pain away
oh mississippi
come and take my pain away
i feel i'm drowning 
i feel i'm drowning
i feel i'm 
i feel i'm 
dying

chorus (3 times)




Nietzsche's Eyes
how many times did 
i have to hear you say to me
self obsessed artist
center of your universe
well i believed your every word
and i believed you were my god

CHORUS:
nietzsche's eyes
nietzsche's kind
failed in (flight) to us
and all my love

grandmother
mother
and now i see it in myself
i take on the water
until the dam threatens to break
i became a little doll
my voice became too small

chorus

i'm shaken
i'm shaken
i'm getting down this fantasy
and i'm shaken
i'm shaken
i'm getting down this 
getting down this
you were not my superman
i didn't know
just how i felt
all my love
i'm shaken
i'm 
i'm getting down this
you were not my superman

i wasn't honest
i tried to philosphize
only too late did
i see i wore nietzsche's eyes
now that i step back to see
i haven't been me
and all my love

chorus

i'm shaken
i'm shaken
i'm getting down this fantasy
and i'm shaken
i'm shaken
i'm getting down this 
getting down this (9 times)





Road to Dead
dead dead dead dead walking down to the road to dead (9 times)

welcome to the church of me
where they stand in a line (???)
of water from my eyes
and a song for comfort
you say it's jesus christ
well, i feel like him
i feel one, two, three
nails through me and
four through the heart

CHORUS:
you walk the road to resurrection
and i walk the road to dead
and i'm giving you my devoution
but i walk the road to dead

i held you
and wrapped you in the heat of my hand
and prayed for us
now i want you back
as you walk away from my love
you need need
strength is threatening
i filled you will faith
and that filled me with pain
what the hell am i doing

falling in love with pain again and again and again and again

chorus (2 times)

dead dead dead dead walking down to the road to dead ( 8 times )







Me
i am not the person who is singing
i am the silent one inside
i am not the one who laughs at people's jokes
i just pacify their egos
i am not my house or my car or my songs
they are only just stops along my way
i am like the winter
i'm a dark cold female
with a golden ring of wisdom in my cave

CHORUS:
and it is me who is my enemy
me who beats me up
me who makes the monsters
me who strips my confidence

i am carrying my voice
i am carrying my heart 
i am carrying my rhythmn
i am carrying my prayers
but you can't kill my spirit
it's soaring and it's strong
like a mountain 
i go on and on
but when my wings are folded
the brightly colored moth
blends into the dirt into the ground

chorus

and it's me who's too weak
and it's me who's too shy
to ask for the thing i love
and it's me who's too weak
and it's me who's too shy
to ask for the thing i love
that i love (6 times)

i am walking on the bridge
i am over the water
and i'm scared as hell
but i know there's something better
yes i know there's something 
yes i know, i know, yes i know

that i love (5 times overlapping chorus)

but it's me
and it's me
but it's me (4 times)






Feelin' Love
love, love

you make me feel like a sticky pistil
leaning into a stamen
you make me feel like a mr. sunshine
himself
you make me feel like splendor in the grass
while we're rollin'
damn skippy baby
you make me feel like the amazon's runnin' between
the thighs

CHORUS:
you make me feel loved, loved, loved, loved, loved
loved, loved, loved, loved, loved
you make me feel loved, loved, loved, loved, loved
loved, loved, loved, loved

you make me feel like a candy apple
red and horny
you make me feel like i wanna be a dumb blonde
in a centerfold, the girl next door
and i would open the door and 
i'd be all wet
with my tits soaking through this tiny (felt) t-shirt
that i'm wearing
and you would open the door and tie
me up to the bed

chorus

loved, but i don't know who i am
am i barry white
am i hot inside
what would i place with your hot conscious
oh baby babe babe babe
i will be your death, the moonlight
take your time

you make me feel (3 times)
you make me feel loved



Hush Hush Hush
long white arms
losing their strength and form
sixty year man on twenty year old skin
skeleton, your eyes have lost their warmth
look to your father for some support

CHORUS:
hush hush hush
says your daddy's touch
sleep sleep sleep
says the hundredth sheep
peace peace peace
may you go in peace

cruel joke you waited so long to show
the one that you wanted wasn't a girl
all your life you kept it hidden inside
now when you step 
you stumble 
you die

chorus

oh maybe next time
you'll be henry the VIII
wake up tomorrow, alexander the great
open your eyes in a new life again
oh maybe next time
you'll be given a chance

hush hush hush
hush hush hush
hush hush hush
hush hush hush
hush...






I Don't Want to Wait
 
so open up your morning light
and say a little prayer for I
you know that if we are to stay alive
and see the peace in every I

she had two babies
one was six months one was three
in the war of '44
every telephone ring
every heartbeat stinging
when she thought it was God calling her
oh would her son grow to know his father

CHORUS:
i don't want to wait
for our lives to be over
i want to know right know
what will it be
i don't want to wait
for our lives to be over
will it be yes or will it be
sorry

he showed up all wet
on the rainy front step
wearing shrapnel in his skin
and the war he saw
lives inside him still
it's so hard to be gentle and warm
the years passed by and now
he has granddaughters

chorus

oh so you look at me
from across the room
you're wearing your anguish again
believe me, i know the feeling 
it sucks you into the jaws of anger
oh, so dig a little more deeply into my life
all we have is the very moment
and i don't want to do what
his father and his father and his father did
i want to be here now

so open up your morning light
and say a little prayer for I
you know that if we are to stay alive
and see the peace in every I

chorus (2 times)

so open up your morning light
and say a little prayer for I
you know that if we are to stay alive
and see the love in every I