About a two weeks ago... I jokingly asked Shane(Joey`) to write a novel for me seeing he is such a wonderful writer... and to my amazment he did and it turned out to be one of the most depressing but beautiful piece of writing I have ever read. I absolutly love it and the story really makes you think of what we take for granted in life and how easily it can be taken away. Hope you like it as much as I do!
As I closed my front gate behind me I heard the screech of tyres. The sound echoed through the early morning quiet. IT seemed to last for an eternity. Mere seconds seemes to last for hours. At last the sound stopped only to be replaced by the sickening crunching togfether of metal.I knew at once that there had been an accident. I turned around and ran back through the gate towards the area where the sounds had originated. I was praying to myself my parents were not involvd. I had just been seeing them off. They were going on holidyas along with my little brother. Both work and study had ensured that I was not able to go along this time. I had stood in my pyjamas and watched thme off then closed the gate behind them.
I was reliving this moment as the cars finally came into view. I stopped in my tacks. My parent's mazda was in a crumpled heap. A ute had run a give way sign and smashed into the side of them. The cars were a wrech. I started screaming. It was an animal like howl coming from deep with in me. I ran the rest of the distance to bring me to the cars. As I got nearer I noticed people were coming sleepily from out of their houses. Still, like me, dressed in either pyjamas or dressing gowns. Dew convered the nearby lawns and I could see mist coming from my mouth every deep breath I let out. I screamed out to nobody in particular to call for an ambulance. Somebody responded, I'm not sure who or what they said, but they all heard me. The other thing I noticed as I drew closer to the cars was a deep colour that could of been a deep red or black. Was it blood or oil? I wondered to myself. I was in a panic now, the cars were entwined like a sickening sculpture. They appeared as one. I pushed the puddle from my mind, but shuddered as to what it might have been. I finally got to them, and drew opened the passenger doos. The smell of petrol was overpowering. The sight that I saw was worse. I gagges. Nobody could look like that and still be alive. I pulled back from the car sickened. A red haze convered my eyes. Tears and sweat dripped down my face. My eyes were stinging both from the sight and the sweat. I closed them but I could not black out the horrid image that remained burned into my mind. I blinked a few times to clear my eyes and tried to calm myself. I knew first aid and I knew what to do in this situation. But no matter how much training you have had,nothing can prepare you for your first accident. Let alone it being your parents and brother. I heard a siren in the distance and hoped that it was the ambulance, at least somebody had heard me.
People were milling around me now, I didn't see them but I could hear them. Shicked gasps and murmurs escaped a few mouths. Somebody grabbed me and pulled me away from the wreckage, and as I shut my eyes I saw a few more people trying to get my parents and brother out of the car to help them. I think I passed out.
I opened my eyes some time later not knowing or caring how much time had passed. the sound of sirens was closer now, and it was only then I realised the ambulance was here, and helping my family. I sat up and tried to go to them, but somebody held me back and spoke to me. I do not recall what they said, but i relented, and looked over to the cars. As I turned my head, the door to the ute opened, and a man goroggily stepped out. He was clearly shaken and having truoble walking. He stumbled out and tried to gain his balance. The accident must have shaken him up. He walked drunkenly towards us. This time there was no restraining me. The red haze came back over my eyes. I was angry now. This was the man who had hurt my parents. In an absolute rage I ran to him and threw myself at him, knocking him to the ground and started thumping him. I could not see a thing tears once again stung my eyes, but I hit and hit him. I felt rough hands grab at me and people telling me to clam down. I struggled to get myself free of their grasp, but they were too strong. SO I relented and their grip upon me eased, and as I felt it loosen, I ran at the man again. I was stopped well short of reaching him, but before I was stopped I saw him beaten and battered from both me and the accident. As I was pulled back I studied the face that I was to ahte for the rest of my life. It was etched into my memory just like the sight of my bloodied family was. The last thing I saw as I lapsed into unconsciousness was his bruised face.
I awoke with a gasp. The dream had continued to plague my dreams ever since the accident. I was bathed in a cold sweat. I lay staring at the ceiling for a moment, waiting for my eyes to adjust to the darkness. My waking hours since the accident had been like a dream. My sleep was continually broken up by nightmares of the horrid morning that had changed my life. they had died that day. All three of them. Though it lasted longer for my brother, who was not declared dead until nine o'clock that evening. The accident put him into a coma from which he never awoke. I kept imagining the pain he was in. Even in his sleep it had to be awful. His poor little body was battered and mutilated. He did not at all resemble the boy I had grown up with and loved. I shuddered againat the memory.
They say that the impact had killed mum and dad instantly, so they did not suffer. Which i suppose was some small consolation. The Ute had run a give way sign and crashed into them at approximately 60 kilometres an hour. They say it was a miracle he lived and that Darren was able to live as long as he did. the driver was drunk. He had been coming home from a night out with his mates after their footy grand final. I didn't care. Drunk or soberhe had taken away from me the only thing in my life taht truly mattered. I wanted him dead. No. I wanted him to suffer. Suffer like I was, to be put thorugh the pain and anguish that was my life. I had thought about it as well. Killing him. It would have been esay, and in my eyes justified. But no matter the reason behind what I wanted I was no killer. I thought about paying somebody else to do it. Surely there was reason enough for me to warrant hiring somebody, and I had the money. However I did not want that playing on my conscience, so I quickly put such thoughts frm my head.
I got up from bed and tried to puch thoughts from my mind. I switched on the light and slowly walked through my empty house. It was empty and dark. How I felt inside. I slowly walked thorugh the house looking at my fathers paintings, each one bringing back memories of what was gone from my life forever. It was too quiet now. Even for this time of night, there was no sound of soft breathing as I pass my parents old room. I shudder from both the cold and the memory that still haunts me. I get to the bathroom abd splash water in the mirror. Thinking once again how empty my life had become. I had thought about suicide. I wanted to join them, be with them wherever it was they were. But I could no more kill myself that I could kill the man that had caused me uch pain. I was so alone.
My family had tried to be supportive.Coming around all the time styaing with me and comforting me. I pushed them all away. Not intentionally. They just didn't understand, they did not know what I was going through. I guess I alienated them in the end, but I needed to be on my own, despite what they thought otherwise. SO in the end they had left. My friends had been no better, the one time I needed them more than my family, and they had not been there for me. None of them knew what to say to me anymore, or if to say anything. I guess I found out their true worth all too late. So i blocked them out of my life too. I was totally on my own.
I have wealth beyond my wildest dreams. there had been compensation, insurance and all this other money people had donated to me after hearing my story on the news. NO money was not a problem at all. What good is money though whne you have nobody to enjoy it with. I would have swapped it all for one more day with my family. To tell them all how much I loved and cared for them. To see darren smile one more time. To chat with mum just once more. To apologise to dad for all the needless fights. There was so much I wanted to say to them. But most of all I wanted to hug them all, just once more. But it would never be. They were gone, and there was nothing I could do about it.
I switched off the bathroom light and made my way slowly back to my bed. Thinking how precious life is. Thinking how quickly it can can allbe taken away, or disappear. I was wallowing in self pity, but I thought it totally warrented. Depression and anguish had become a way of life for me. As I slowly walked to my room I thought all of this. WOndering why god had done this to me? WHy he had robbed me of everything? WHy had I been given all this money, but had my parents taken from me. What good was it whne they were gone. I wondered mostly about life and death. What they both mean. I pondered all of this. And all I could come up with was that life was meaningless. It was nothing more than the path we travel to death. What is life anyway? Simply the prolonging of the inevitable...death.