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**~Bomb~** |
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Scared |
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Not knowing what happened |
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Panic rushing in the clouds of dust |
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Horror as people trip over debris and are trampled on |
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Crying of a lost child |
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Screams of a hysterical mob |
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Forming an unheard outcry |
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Dirt under your finger nails as you claw at the walls |
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Blood forming a sticky puddle |
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Seeping out from under a collapsed wall |
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Moans from within the pile |
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Tears streaking your face muddy |
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Choking on the bad air |
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Pushed up against broken limbs |
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Slipping in a pile of vomit |
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Seeing what may or may not be your friend |
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Listening to sirens that cant save you |
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Praying to a god that is out to lunch |
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Pain - you finally look down at yourself |
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Seeing soiled reeking clothes |
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Watching your life pour through your hands |
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Smelling burnt meat |
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Falling to your knees |
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Realizing there is no hope |
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Swallowing the fear that wont leave |
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Knowing you will never see the sky again |
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Huddling in a crusty ball on the floor |
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Wishing that you werent alone |
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Dying - leaving the chaos behind |
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**~If~** |
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If the world werent right side up |
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Would we still be falling down |
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If the world was square and flat |
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Would it still be spinning round |
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If the sea was dark as night |
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Would we call it 'blind' not 'sea' |
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If humans were not meant to fly |
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How do we explain the bee |
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If tall was short and short was tall |
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Where would average come in play |
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If the day's as long as night |
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Why not 'night' instead of 'day' |
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If the mirror was inside out |
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Would that make the outside in |
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If Genesis is Orgins |
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Is it orgins of the Sin |
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If if were but a but |
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Is it still a question made |
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If love is for forever |
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Does it never start to fade |
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If trying wasnt easy |
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But winning in its place |
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If weddings are not funerals |
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Why are both still decked in lace |
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If you cant insult an enemy |
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But only a good friend |
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If hello were made goodbye |
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We'd never find |
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The End. |
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**~Genesis~** |
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"Evening passed and morning came - |
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that was the first Day" -Genesis |
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Word by word account of God |
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Is it true or is it fraud |
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Not to know just what is true |
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Did He create all things a new |
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Were we present at the start |
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Or did we come from in His heart |
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In an order nicely planned - |
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Light & Dark, sky, water, land |
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And on this land He made a seed |
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And from this seed all we would need |
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Creatures came into the sea |
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And after them, we came to be |
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But is it right in every way? |
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Where does symbolism come in play? |
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In a garden did we grow |
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Or from the apes, how will we know |
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So we are left with dreadful doubt |
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Of what we cannot figuire out |
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Science versus Religious Thought |
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Denying all the Preacher taught |
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Evening passed and morning came |
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Day's the giving holy name |
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But with all of our scientific sight |
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The techno term we know is Night. |
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**~It's In the Bag~** |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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Ominously said without a glance my way |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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Cold voce proclaims darkening my day |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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I start to shake and then begin to pray |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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He says to me - and thats where it will stay |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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His velvet voice caresses with a sigh |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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I'm begging God - Let it be a lie |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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His eyes are dark as i begin to cry |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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Echoes softly as i wish to die |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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And i thought - there is no doubt of that |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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My eyes dart round - halting when he sat |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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He gently spoke and gave my cheek a pat |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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And of course - I knew where it was at |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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He orders me and i couldn't hide |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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And naturally the bag was at my side |
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"Its in the Bag" |
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He picked it up - His motto newly cried |
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"It's In The BAG!!!" |
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I held my breath and i looked inside. . . |
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**~Death's Kiss~** |
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Sweet kiss of death |
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So forbidden and cold |
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Brought by the Dark Stranger in the night |
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Giving Complete ecstacy to the innocent |
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Striking swiftly |
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Causing pain |
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Leaving nothing but a shell to bury |
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In the cold ground |
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On which it now lays |
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**~Adieu~** |
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I really dont care enough to say |
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I love you in any single way |
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We've been together for so long |
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That all we used to have is gone |
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No matter why this has to be |
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Please accept this graciously |
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Together forever is what we were |
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Though now to me, you're just a blur |
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Forgive me please and dont forget |
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How we felt when we first met |
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So i must say this with a sigh |
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MY final word to you is -bye |
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**~The Palaver~** |
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It's just too much for me to bear |
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The way i cannot make amends |
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For all that's wrongfully assumed |
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The problems evil rends |
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Are not to me or of me |
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Unconciously directed towards me |
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Destruction of my sanity |
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And of my very soul. |
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I plainly do not understand |
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I cant accept this daunting fate |
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'Will Not' is my beseeching cry |
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My tears sound with their rightful mate, |
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MY sorrow, as it does relieve me |
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Of the very pain shed for me |
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To contemplate insanity |
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To fester in my mind. |
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My moods arent simply a relieving |
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Of my feelings deep inside |
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Outer layers of inner anger |
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Resurface only to rehide |
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I am biased deep within me |
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To all those that do surround me |
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Living life quite mundanely |
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Not expressing what is true. |
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With my every conversation |
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There's no doubt of what i say |
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Small joys that one finds in trouble |
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Causing me to mend my ways |
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So continue on discussing with me |
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Talk of distant lands about me |
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IT pulls me as does gravity |
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To the center of this realm. |
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No matter what my heart or sorrow |
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I'll dream my dreams until tomarrow |
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Until i find the only portal |
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Loves lost secrets yet to barrow |
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Fulfillment not yet finding me |
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Though that hardly bothers me |
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Yet i still day dream silently |
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Of having the last word. |
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**~Dying for Quiet Rain~** |
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As the colour streaked grey against the windows i stared at the scars that screamed from my writst 'Not Deep Enough' - that's what they said over and over again. To get away, fleeing to the window to watch the pouring kiss as it dampened my face and licked the ground which was spiraling before me. 'Dive into that kiss,' each drop whispered. 'Swim in me' Begged the ground. And the sky was open to me as i perched delicatly on the ledge of love- 'Let me fly' i wished, spreading my bleeding arms to the soul of the world and i let go - Drowning in the kiss as i crawled through misty tears and hope. Finally silencing the shrieking words as i was swallowed by the deep greyness and was nomore. |
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*if i need to dream to hold you near |
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Grant to me Eternal sleep* |
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**~Valium~** |
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i swallowed a pill, a tiny pill, it was the colour blue |
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and since it's shade was factory made i gave in and had two. |
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And, yes, this treat did not taste sweat, but i enjoyed the water |
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That pressed my thirst down in my throat, as i had another. |
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Now at four, i thought, one more, but slipped another three |
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And at this time my vision blurred so i could barely see. |
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When tiny sips leaked through my lips, i found more on my tongue. |
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As to how those tablets got there, recollection? i have none. |
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I knew it was a large amount but at this point i lost my count |
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So i just took another few, thinking, what harm could it do? |
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I felt my body start to sag as my shoulders met the floor |
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But when i tried to take a pill i found out that there were no more. |
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My water bled a spreading stain as it crawled across the ground |
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And when i tried to sip it up, there was no liquid to be found. |
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I felt myself begin to fade, my soul surrend'ring to the night |
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My drugged blindess dissapating in the haze of dreamy light. |
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I fall into your open arrms, quite warm and comforting do i find |
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My dreamy Love, i've come to you, and left the dead real world behind. |
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**~When Sorry's Not Enough~** |
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i think i died the other day |
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i just curled up and blew away |
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i cant forget the words ive said |
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they scream and shriek within my head |
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i beg with you to take me back |
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and forgive my hate attack |
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i was cruel and filled with strife |
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Slicing you with my wordy knife |
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without you i am stuck in hell |
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and since you''ve left im just a shell |
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you were each and every breath |
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that sustained my life and cheated death |
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the life that pulsed with in my soul |
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then you broke free and left this hole |
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My heart is gone it went with you |
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each bloody tear went with it too |
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This desperate ache that burns in me |
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Built up fast and then tore free |
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Without you i was dead inside |
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So why allow that truth to hide |
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So yes i died the other day |
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i just curled up and flew away |
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