Night comes in 
                                                    from all sides
                                            Can't escape because
                                                    it follows me.
                                            Can't run because
                                                    it holds me back.
                                            Can't breathe because
                                                    it smothers me.
                                            Night is choking me,
                                                    slowly dragging me down.
                                            To a depth that I
                                                    will never acknowledge.

I'm still alive though you don't feel
There's nothing left for you to steal
I've already given all
Have no time for you to stall
There's nothing for you in my heart
No endings for a brand new start
The only thing I have is hate
Nursed for you now I can't wait

You seem to always win, but where do I fit in?

Leave me and the past behind
I might try but never find
An easy way to calm myself
Just stick me back up on the shelf
Anger seems to rule my life
I just live on pain and strife
You've never known how I live
Now I've nothing left to give

You seem to always win, but where do I fit in?

You night never see my way
In your world is where you'll stay
You will never fully pay
Never hearing what I say
I jump headfirst into the fray
Hiding from the light of day
Reaching for the silver ray
Never hearing your okay

Never hearing your okay

You seem to always win, but where do I fit in?

Sometimes hopelessness isn't just a feeling
Sometimes it explodes and becomes you
What do you do when it smothers your breath
How do you react when it controls you
Wound up tense pinball spring
Rules over all no other curse
Mini reactor set on doomsday level
No one to help you, no one who cares.

I'm only here when life kisses you off
A ray of light in your black cloud world
Follow me, lead you, help you along
Transverse the astrohighway

Sucked down, no feeling, purity spoiled
Spiralled blackhole, deeper and deeper
That small empty place never filled
Within your soul, within your mind
Give up, surrender, let yourself go
Accept the fact that you'll never win
Unless a chance is given, take it
Pull yourself up from the depth

I'm only here when life kisses you off
A ray of light in your black cloud world
Follow me, lead you, help you along
Transverse the astrohighway.

Slowly the child closes her eyes
Wandering through the silent skies
Pleading for help without a sound
Knowing her life will never be found.

But once more she finds her way
Facing bravely the morning of each day
Wind kissing through her hair
Smiling softly with her innocent stare

Running away with no certain direction
Knowing he was wrong, no use for correction
It might be too late for him to learn
He's far past the point of no return

But once more he finds his way
Facing bravely the morning of each day
Wind flowing through his hair
Smiling softly with his innocent stare

Believe what you will
Faith doesn't matter
Listen to your heart
Reality couldn't be sadder

Advances will be gained, disruptions taken back
All alone, knowing what you lack
Turn around and face that from which you ran
Open your eyes and see what you can

And once more you find your way
Facing bravely the morning of each day
Wind caressing through your hair
Smiling softly with your innocent stare

Life cries tears of acid rain
Death bleeds wounds of horrid pain
Innocent as one, unloved as another
Hurt will crush you, make you smother
Lightning strikes electricity
Thunder roars explosively
Pain, hurt, and anger rolled into one
Should be feeling these, yet feeling none

Waiting for the execution of innocence
Waiting for the rain of storms

Tornadoes shriek by destroying
Lives, futures, the annoying
Quakes rumble, shake in fear
Shove away, stay close and near
Caring for nothing, nothing at all
Trying to fly, surprised with your fall
Don't know smiles, clueless to frown
Cannot swim, yet amazed when you drown

Waiting for the execution of innocence
Waiting for the rain of storms

Begins as rain, ends as hail
Kill a mind, go to jail
Face your destiny face your fear
Teased if you cry, shed a tear

Opened eyes, heard bells chime
Never again, no next time

Waiting for the execution of innocence
Waiting for the rain of storms

I watch the stars through my window glass
I know you'll always be there for me
You've always wanted to reach the sky
It took so long and I hope you see

I recall all the times that you were there
We were the best of friends, maybe more
But now I'm alone, without you
And now I beg you, don't close the door

I remember all those nights, walking next to you
I miss you deeply so, I'll never forget you
And all those nights awake, all by myself
Remembering you, I'll never forget you

I watch the stars through the pouring rain
Shining so brightly, they hurt my eyes
I don't know if you're there or not
But still I search through the nighttime skies

I rememeber all those nights, walking next to you
I miss you deeply so, I'll never forget you
And all those nights alone, all by myself
Remembering you, I'll never forget you

Time ticks down for everyone
No one believes it until the end
Comes as no surprise to some
Shockful suspense for others
Tick tock tick tock
The final countdown has begun
Silent monster creeping from the dark
The clock hangs in time

They hear the feral cry
Forbidden hate 'neath the endless sky
Nighttime life gives silent rise
And dedicates the truth and lies
To the life with love in his heart
Giving way for a brand new start
Follow the river with your mind
I know you'll look but never find

Running fearlessly
Challenge the darkness recklessly
You know nothing how I live
Turning away all I give
Forget the life you leave in the past
Forgetting all you've learned so fast
Reaching blindly for a helping hand
Collapsing slowly like your castle of sand

Oh, the innocence always followed by apathy
Oh, the ignorance that's accepted so silently

Disarming all your thoughts
Freeing within those empty lots
Space for backup in your mind 
All you believe in shoved behind
Questioning how deep the river goes
Pondering how far the river flows
Accept what who knows is right
Drop defences, don't you fight

Oh, the innocence always followed by apathy
Oh, the ignorance that's accepted so silently

They hear the feral cry
Forbidden hate 'neath the endless sky
Nighttime life gives silent rise
And dedicates the truth and lies
To the life with love in his heart
Giving way for a brand new start
Follow the river with your mind
I know you'll look but never find

Oh, the innocence always followed by apathy
Oh, the ignorance that's accepted so silently

Oh, the innocence always followed, followed,  by apathy
Oh, the ignorance that's accepted so silently

Silently

I see your feelings in both your eyes
Easily read, I know what you think
First was love, true and strong
Then came confusion, it's always the same
It's not your fault and it never was
It's just the way I am, please understand
I may be able to read your emotions
Yet I'm unable to read my own

I don't know why I push away
Cold, starless night where there was day
I know I love you, but it doesn't show
I wish that I could let you know

The world means nothing when you're near
I love all that there is about you
But I'm used to all the rejections
It's happened so many times before

Let down- is your mind
Shadowed- are your eyes
Lowered- your arms to your sides
I see no more as you walk away

I don't know why I push away
Cold, starless night where there was day
I know I love you, but it doesn't show
I wish that I could let you know

I think I feel that I don't deserve you
You're too good for me in every way
Paranoia is my best companion
Talking too softly for me to hear

I don't know why I push away
Cold, starless night where there was day
I know I love you, but it doesn't show
I wish that I could let you know

Please help me if you can
Don't let me run to where I ran
Force the shadows, triumph in my heart
Clear my head for a brand new start...

Dreams of time, to follow
Far into the depths that your mind will
Take me.
Years pass, or not,
Yet you
Stand still.
You think up so much.
I make up too much.
Hold my hand, we'll walk over the edge
Together.
As one, as the other, not by ourselves.
Imagination.
Explanation.
Revelation.
Annihilation.
Flow with the thoughts, the colours, the
Powers.
You control my life, I control your heart.
Be deep and remember our
Dreams.
Our dreams of time.

I have seen many things.
There are many things that have seen me.
I have seen a world without hope.
Without trust, without belief.
Worse, I have seen a world without
Music.
A time with no song, no rhythm.
In a few words,
No happiness.
All the people were dry husks.
No life to them, no emotions.
Wandering like forgotten angels through the silent skies.
Not knowing where they were, where they had been,
Or where they were going.
Clueless to their surroundings,
No answers to questions they hadn't asked.
They were darkly neutral.
But I have also seen a wonderful place
Full of laughter and happiness and
Music.
Sounds chime in your ears like
Ghosts with a purpose.
Singing
Ringing
Throughout the air.
I have seen a place without 
Music.
I do not want to see it again.

I know your mind, your eyes, your breath.
You've never wanted to love before.
Who had the right to change your mind?
You've screwed me over once too much.

You don't know my fire. The ways I react
when I learn your desire. Not that I care.
You're too much of a liar. You can kiss my ass.
I'm sick and tired of waiting for you. On you.

To be honest, I really don't care about you. What you are
is not my business. What I do is none of yours.
Flip you off, flip it up, flip me upside down.
Sarcasm gets the best of me sometimes. Lucky you.

You should
Never let your
Eagerness
Take over
Rationality.
I learned to
Obey this after
Your sharp 
Denial.
Like theatrical masks,
Both 
Of your moods were revealed
To me.
A shrug of
Indifference
Greeted my 
Shockflesh exterior. My mind
Has become a
Blizzard, after your 
Inferno evaporated it
All.
You don't see me
For me,
Although I see you
For you.
Complete devotion
Ends in
Utter rejection.
The torch still 
Burns, though you 
Are confident it has
Gone away.
But it will
Never
Go out.
I will love you
Forever and a day.
Forever is a long time.
Forever.

As the darkness sets in, you open your eyes.
For the life that's inside to be released to the night.
The inferno builds up to the blue northern skies.
My love is expanding to an undeniable height.

I'm very unsure of the feelings I hold.
I didn't know that it's supposed to hurt inside.
All this rain in my eyes is unfeeling and cold.
When I first saw you, the sane part of me died.

And what it felt like, it felt like the sun breaking through the clouds.
You fill a void within me that I never knew I had.

Now I know that this isn't a lie
And I know just how deep love can be.
If you breathe my name, I'll answer with a sigh.
I remember when you first said it and what it did to me. 

And what it felt like, it felt like the sun breaking through the clouds.
You fill a void within me that I never knew I had.

Don't give all our time away.
You know I want you to stay
With me.

And what it felt like, it felt like the sun breaking through the clouds.
You fill a void within me that I never knew I had.

I cannot be put to blame for my thoughts.
I am unable to control my feelings and emotions.
I feel what I see and I see what I am.

I am not pleased with my reflections.
Can you blame me?
I turn away from my reflections.
Can I blame you?

Don't attempt to dissuade me.
I cannot help in thinking that I frighten myself.
Dark thoughts within that I am so helpless.

I do not like being shown who I am.
I especially do not like being shown who I should be.
That just depresses me further, angers me more.

Perfection is hard work and extreme dedication.
I am extremely dedicated to what I do.
Somehow, it's not enough.

Though to others, I am not so bad.
They say that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Behold.

I've never liked being alone
But you've left me once again.
I miss your arms holding me close
I dream of your eyes in sorrow, I'll follow, I'll follow.

If I whispered, could you hear it?
If I held you, could you feel it?
If I loved you, could you see it?
When I want you, will you need it?

Empty arms is what I possess.
Painful longing for your caress.
All that you do is loved by me.
I'm the Sun, you are my galaxy.

I miss your words tied to me.
I imagine what could have been.
I'll never stop my love for you.
I see your eyes in tomorrow, I'll follow, I'll follow.

If I whispered, could you hear it?
If I held you, could you feel it?
If I loved you, could you see it?
When I want you, will you need it?

Empty arms is what I possess.
Painful longing for your caress.
All that you do is loved by me.
I'm the Sun, you are my galaxy.
 
My whole universe.

I cannot control my inner turmoil.
You build it up, build it up, unrealentingly powerful.
When I release is when you retreat.
And I 
Take the blame.
Like every other time
Before that and after that.
I am so infuriated, so frustrated, that I
Shake. I
Cry. I
Scream. I
Throw things. I
Relish every damn minute of it.
You force me to react this way.
You force me to enjoy it.
You will keep on until I hit out in defence.
Then, you tell on me.
Surprise, surprise.
On purpose.
Why?
Why?
Why do you hate me so much?
Then they listen to you.
And I 
Take the blame.
Like every other time.
Why?
Why?
Why do you hate me so much?
Why do you all hate me?
Why do you hate?

You know, it's the funniest thing. 
I'e only met you once,
But that was merely in passing.
Yet I feel I know you.
That short moment 
Will be remembered by me
Forever.
Yet you probably forgot me
Two seconds after you walked away.
Isn't that sad?
I can't say that I love you
Because I don't even know you personally.
And I can't say that I want to marry you,
Because I don't love you.
But I appreciate you, 
And I respect you
Indefinately.
Does that make sense?
And I'll probably never see you again in person. 
Isn't that sad?
Of course, I'll see you on TV
Or hear you on the radio.
But it's not the same.
You really are good looking.
(You probably get told that alot.)
You really are excellent at what you do.
(You probably get told that alot, too.)
But the thing is, 
I really mean it.
The saddest thing is, 
You forgot me.
I want to be remembered.

Glitter and gold
Silent shinings
A bittersweet affair

Glitz and glamour
Evening triumphs
A night to remember

Forgetful moments
Angry accusations
A bittersweet end

Lights in your mind
Rainbows in your words
Music in your eyes

Colourful spectacle
Lusterless emotions
Bittersweet sounds

Silent masks, your words viewed by my eyes.
Timeswept conversations held in space.
An empty flow of emotion covering reality.
Easy talking, a river of thoughts, dreams, laughs.
Yet all the prose in the world is nothing to your blind and unseeing eyes.
You are beautiful, you are magical, but best of all,
You are you.
"Sweet dreams," a careless goodbye.
You deserve more than you think, 
You are more than you think.
I have seen, with my eyes.
I wish you could see with my eyes, as well.

In my mind, I fly
Higher and higher until I reach the ground.
Am I awake?
I don't think so.
Am I unconscious?
I'm not sure.
I think I'm somewhere in between.
Where all my deepest, darkest thoughts become reality,
If only for a short time.
The stars are my friends
As I swim in the sands.
Leaves part to show me paths unknown.
I go where I want.
Nothing can stop me.
Nothing
Except
My mind, in which I am already lost.
The leaves close in front of me.
The sands cover my head as the stars turn their backs.
Oh, well.
I will just be in another time, another place.
Why?
Because I want it to be so.
I may be asleep,
But I am so very, very awake.

I know your feelings like I know you.
I care very much about you.
"Yeah, right," you think.
But I'm not lying.
What was it like in the eyes of others?
Did you suffer much?
I feel your pain.
Truly, I love you
For everything that you are.
I want you to feel 
Close to me,
Close to my mind.
Eye to eye, sigh to sigh.
I want you to be
Close to me,
Close to my heart.
When you think that no one cares
Or that no one loves you,
Remember, please,
I will always care,
And I will love you,
Always.

Mystery man behind the counter.
Beautiful eyes, hair, and face.
I don't even know your name,
Nor do you know mine.
I see you once in a while.
I enjoy seeing you.
I study the clothes you wear,
And the jewellery that adorns your body
And I admire it all.
I wish I could talk to you,
But I can't.
I'm shy.
I wish I could ask you your name.
But I can't.
I'm shy.
So for now,
We'll keep this silent relationship,
You and I.
Maybe I will talk with you one day.
But for now I won't.
I'm much too shy.
I wish I wasn't.

How can I be what you want me to be
When you won't even tell me what you want.
How does it feel when I tell you what to do?
I can't take this relationship any longer.

And let me fall again
Without you in my way.
I don't want to drag you down 
For the second time.

Too far, too distant, too unlike.
The unspoken words are the ones that scream the loudest.
You might be here and I might be there,
But...
You're unforgettable to me.

You rip the flowers from my hair
The smile form my lips
The laughter from my eyes.
Nothing was ever enough
To impress or inspire you.
You forge a labyrinth of lies
Which are sent, flailing, in my direction.
Such a 
Selfish little girl
You say I've become.
There is a brick wall between
My heart and your own.

You put it there.

I will kick it down
And I will kick you down
And I will turn my back
Towards you
And just walk
Away.

Ah, I here the voices once more.
Beware,
Beware,
They scream my pain.
How I wish to hear whispers
Instead.
Love lost,
Forgotten,
Beaten down,
Burnt to the ground,
Begin to think everything
Is nothing and
Never
Was anything.
But alas, I cry,
Alas.
I rise up out of the ashes
To bask in the humming warmth of
Triumph.

Rain
Is unimaginable.
Its colours breathe words
Into my awed stare.
Listen
Listen
Listen
They whisper the secrets
Of love
Of hate
Of truth.
The neverending story
That is spoken to myself
Alone
Transfixes me to the 
Place where I stand.
Listen
Listen
They speak to us all.
Nothing is held back.
Arms open,
Utter abandonment of your body,
Embrace what you hear.
But first,
You have to
Listen
To truly
Understand.

Suspense
Has never been greater.
I see you, 
Beautiful boy,
Surrounded by loved ones
Yet so alone
In your thoughts.
Your tumultuous thoughts.
Sighs and whispers
Reverberate silently
As breath is held.
Concentrate,
Concentrate,
The time has come.
A quick glance,
Then a long stare,
Which soon becomes drowned
In the butterfly tears that
Flow down your face.
Or is it my face?
It is one
And it is all.
Joy and happiness
Have never been complete
Until this day which I
Was lucky enough to see.
I love you,
How I love you,
As I watch you
And your glimmering mate
Become one
And the same
Forever.

You are not true to yourself,
You are not true to me.
The sky might open its lining,
Refreshing the land of the living,
But you
Cannot be refreshed.
The elements even avoid you.
While the snow speaks gentle chiming
Into my ears,
It turns a raging, shrieking maelstrom
All around you.
Never touching you, 
No,
Never touching.
You might slip
But you'll always come into 
Contact
With the cold, hard,
Reluctant
Concrete.
And let me drift,
Away, I fly,
To a magical time without
You.
I fall
Deeper
Darker
Freer
Than you could ever hope to imagine.
The fires leave you unscathed.
The ocean waves farewell.
You will be alone,
Because I am gone.