"Hey Ike." I said. He came to our door at 7. Johanna and I had been cooped in our rooms for the day once again. Only this time they actually told us where they were going. They had gone to the stadium for the day to do interviews and film part of a video. It was hitting me on that day what had happened to us. We were now officially part of Hanson's lives. How long that was going to last was not up to us, but we lived the dream as it happened to us. I was confused as hell still, but at least I didn't want to go home anymore. I felt horrible for what I was doing to Ike. I knew I should tell him that I liked Taylor, but what if Taylor and I didn't start anything, then I wouldn’t have either of them. I was being a selfish bitch and that was the worst part. I had remembered another thing during that boring day. Walker had seen me with Taylor, and Diana had seen me with Ike. I just hoped they didn't talk about stuff like that. Zac obviously had some sort of crush on Johanna, but he was also fucking with her brain, even if she couldn't see it.
We walked into Ike and Zac's room. They had music playing and Zac was out on the balcony.
"I wish we had a balcony" Johanna said.
I went out to see why he was leaning over the railing. He smiled at me just before he spit a huge loogey. There was a crowd of fans’ sitting out by the door, unaware that Zac Hanson was spitting on them.
"You know that is very illegal right?" I said to him.
"Well I can just add this on to the list of crimes I've been a part of in the past few days" He was referring to Johanna, and I did not appreciate that too much. He held out a pair of binoculars. "Compliments of the hotel" he grinned. "Ooooh, she's hot. Look at her..." He said passing the binoculars to me.
"Sorry, but I'm afraid she's probably not my type" I said. He shrugged his shoulders and took a sip of his pop before peering into the binoculars again. I don't know what he was trying to pull, but it was not good. What happened to the old Zac I could talk to. I looked back into the room just in time to see Isaac let Taylor in. My heart skipped a beat. Johanna was playing around with the CD player. Thank God she wasn't out here. Zac tapped me on the shoulder and I watched as he spit over the railing again. "Is this what you do for fun?" I asked him.
He smiled. "Yep." he said.
"Well you keep having your fun, I'm going back into the room" He nodded at me and spit once again.
"Are there still fans out there?" Ike asked. I nodded at him. He shook his head "I hope they're not planning on spending the night, it's cold out there."
"Hey you guy's wanna play a game? We play it sometimes when there’s nothing to do on the bus" Taylor suggested. We agreed to play and he began ripping paper into small pieces out of a notebook.
"Oh this game" Ike said smiling. "Hey Zac, we're gonna play the paper game, do you wanna play?" Zac grabbed his pop and came into the room. He didn't even look at Johanna, even though she was smiling at him.
"So how do we play?" Johanna asked giving up on trying to get a glance from Zac.
"Well, everyone writes down a question, any question and then we put them in a pile and scramble them up, then you pick up a piece of paper, read the question out loud, and then you have to answer it." Ike said. Taylor passed us each a pen and put the ripped paper in a pile.
"Who thought up this game?" I asked. It was funny to picture them sitting around playing this.
"Our mom." Taylor informed us. We sat in a small circle on the floor and began to play.
"Man you guy's must get really bored on the bus." Johanna said. They looked insulted.
"Hey, give it a chance, it can get pretty interesting. You can also write dares down and the person has to do it, unless they can guess who wrote it. But you HAVE to answer the question" Ike said, obviously very proud of this game their mom had made up for them. When the paper was scrambled Ike told us to pick up a piece. So we did.
"Well, who goes first?" I asked.
"You can." Taylor grinned. I opened up my paper and I was confronted with messy hand writing.
"I dare you to spit on the fans... gee, um Zac, did you maybe write this?" I said.
"Man, you're good at the game already" He said slapping his knee. I smiled.
"Now what?" I said.
"Now you choose who you want to go next." Ike told me.
"Okay, Ike, you go" He grinned at me.
"It says... do you prefer drinks with or without ice cubes... well that's lame." He said. I smiled, even though I was the one who wrote it. "Without. Okay, Johanna, go"
"Do you have a crush on anyone and who... do I have to answer this, I wrote it." She said.
"It's not like we don't know the answer." Zac said. She glared at him
"Okay, so we all know the answer. Zac... you go."
He opened his sheet of paper and said loudly "Do you ever..." his voice dropped in volume "masturbate. Whoever wrote this is sick." Taylor grinned sheepishly. "NO! And even if I did I wouldn't tell any of you."
"Yep, Zac masturbates" Taylor smirked.
"Okay wise guy, you go." Zac said.
"ooooh." Taylor said sarcastically. "Who is the last person you kissed," He narrowed his eyes to read small writing at the bottom. "And Zac your hand doesn't count"
"So I see everyone in here is a wise guy huh?" Zac said insulted.
"But you make it so easy." Taylor grinned.
"Well answer!" Ike said.
"Ummm" He looked at me like he was thinking really hard.
"Ha ha, you have to think about it!" Ike joked.
"No I don't actually, it wasn't very long ago. The last girl I kissed was..." My heart was picking up in pace. I didn't want Ike to find out like this. "Zoë, I kissed her this morning." Taylor said. Ike rolled his eyes.
"Okay, new round" Isaac said with a bit too much enthusiasm. Johanna offered to go first.
"Do you sing in the shower? Yes... I do. Okay, Christa, you go."
"What color of underwear are you wearing and show us... Oh God" I shook my head. What an appropriate day to wear fruit of the loomes. I couldn't have sported some nice black ones or something. I pulled the top of my pants down and pulled up my panties. "The are gray with black around the top. SEE..." Isaac, Taylor and Zac nodded slowly. I snapped my underwear back under my pants and they looked up. "Taylor, go." I said.
"Have you ever received a sexy letter from someone?.... ah yeah, I think all three of us have gotten a few of those" They nodded and smiled at each other.
"Why does that not surprise me" Johanna said. They grinned.
"Um, Zac, go ahead."
"Who is the last person you had a sex dream about and when? Well it's just sex sex sex isn't it! No, I don't feel like answering."
"Frig Zac, you always do this when you don't want to answer a question. Just do it." Ike whined.
"You can't make me." He said crossing his arms playfully.
"I can if you want me too." Taylor said.
"Oh like I'm afraid of you, you're like a pole next to me."
"Anyone’s a pole next to you Zac" He argued.
"He is NOT fat" Johanna expressed. Taylor shot a look at Johanna.
"I wasn't implying that... he's a strong guy that's all" Taylor said innocently.
"I know, how about Zac answers the question so we can drop the subject" Ike said sounding like someone from Pokka dot door.
Zac shut his eyes and took a deep breath. He pointed at Johanna. "2 days ago. I had one 2 days ago about Johanna." He opened one eye to see if anyone was laughing. No one was.
"God by the way you were avoiding it I thought it was like Chelsea Clinton." Taylor grinned. "Ah man, this means Ike got mine..."
Ike opened his piece of paper and chuckled. "Dare, If you are a girl flash us, and if you are a guy... moon I guess but remind me to close my eyes. Taylor you wrote this just so you could see my butt right!"
Taylor grinned "Yes Ike, that was exactly what I wanted, damn you figured me out."
Isaac stood up carelessly, turned around, and pulled his pants down revealing his ass to us. Taylor and Zac had their hands pressed hard over their eyes. When finished bobbing his but up and down a few times Ike did his pants back up and plopped down on the floor again.
"Is it gone?" Zac asked.
"Nope," Ike joked.
"Ike I doubt your ass is that pretty to look at, you can put it away now" Taylor said. Ike laughed.
"It's gone you dorks" He said. They uncovered their eyes and we started the next batch.
"Where would you like to make love for the first time?" Taylor read. "Um, on a bed"
"Come on, use your imagination" Ike said.
"Why? I want my first time to be on a bed. What's wrong with that?"
"Nothing I guess. I would have said like in the middle of the woods on a blanket or something, but that's just me" Ike deemed.
"Yeah, that is just you, who wants to worry about getting bit on the ass by mosquitoes the first time?" Taylor grinned. Ike shook his head.
"Okay, Zac..."
"What..."
"Read stupid"
"Oh ah.." he unfolded his paper. "What is your weirdest fantasy?... It's to roll around in Jell-O with no cloths on and then to run around naked in the streets yelling 'I'm the Jell-O man, I'm the Jell-O man'..." He grinned at his joke that was getting a few laughs out of us girls. "Christa, you go" He said.
"If you are a girl flash us, if you are a guy, give this to a girl." Taylor was grinning. "Gee Taylor, a bit eager to see some boobs or something"
"Hey, we all have our needs" He giggled.
I straightened my back and lifted up my shirt to reveal my bust enhancing black bra. Thanking God I had at least had something nice to show. "Now if that's not good enough I'm afraid you're going to have to find that porn channel cause I'm not lifting up my bra" I said. The door knocked and I whipped my shirt down faster then a blink of an eye. Ike jumped up and turned the music down as Taylor headed to the door.
"It's dad, hide the paper. I saw him shove a piece into his pocket, and then throw another one into the bathroom. He had two... ? Walker stepped in and looked at us sitting on the floor with Zac.
"Come on guy's, you have a concert to do tomorrow and it is almost 10 o'clock. Do I need to remind you that we are leaving at 9?"
"No dad, you've reminded us enough thank-you" Taylor said.
"Taylor I would appreciate it if you would loose the lip. I've had just as much as I could take of that." Taylor turned around and mocked his dad's expression as he picked up his coat. Johanna and I got up embarrassed. Zac jumped into his bed and turned on the TV. "TV off Zachary" Mr. Hanson said.
"Yes sir, sir man sir" Zac said flipping the TV off and throwing the changer on the floor. Taylor was already gone. Ike and Zac roamed around the room getting ready for bed. Johanna and I walked passed Walker and he stepped out and shut the door.
"Good-night Mr. Hanson" We both said to him.
"Good-night girls. I'll see you bright and early." He wasn't so bad as far as dads go, I thought anyway. As we walked passed Taylor’s door it swung open. Johanna and I stepped back and he held out a folded piece of paper to me grinning. I took it and he shut his door. I frowned at Johanna and we speed walked back to our room. As soon as the door was closed I quickly unfolded the piece of paper. Johanna was standing in front of me giddy with anticipation. It said 'I dare you to meet me at my room at midnight'. I looked up to Johanna with wide eyes. I threw my hand with the paper in it up in the air and waved it around.
"Um, what the fuck!" I exclaimed.
"You lucky little bitch, you're going to get it on tonight." She said looking at my hand.
"Well I doubt that very much, but still, what the fuck!" Johanna took my arm and pulled it down. She grinned at me.
"I hate you" She whispered staring right into my eyes.
"Well I don't hate me. And neither does Taylor. YAY! Taylor doesn't hate me." Johanna and I began to prance around the room like a bunch of 10-year-olds on shrooms. We flopped down on Johanna's bed and looked at the ceiling. "I think my heart is going to pop right out of my chest soon." I said.
"Well wouldn't that leave a horrible mess" She joked. I shoved her with my elbow.
"What do you think is going to happen tonight Johanna?" I asked.
"I already told you, you're going to get it on"
"No, I don't think Taylor is like that." I said. Johanna flipped onto her side and looked at me.
"Christa, he kissed you three times last night. I'm sure he's very aware that you are leaving tomorrow after the next day and he probably wants to get some before you do. I highly doubt he's DARING you to meet him so you can look at the stars together."
"Maybe he wants to talk. Besides, who says I'm gonna give out." She frowned at me. "Yeah, I know... shut-up."
She rolled on her back again. "Zac had a sex dream about me" She smiled.
I didn't want to burst her bubble, so I didn't tell her the balcony incident, instead I said, "Don't you think he was acting a bit strange again today?"
"No, why do you?"
"Well just compared to last night and stuff, he wasn't like being all like smooth and everything."
"Oh well, I don't care. Maybe he doesn't like being like that in-front of his brothers." She said. I left it at that.
Two hours seemed to take forever. "Christa that's like the 5th time you've brushed your teeth." Johanna said to me in the mirror.
"So" I said with a mouth full of toothpaste. I spit and rinsed my mouth out. I looked at her. "Just in case I want to take every precaution... just in case" I said slopping my third coat of deodorant on. I checked my face in the mirror one more time and shut out the bathroom light. Johanna and I made our way to the door. I asked Johanna for the time.
"It is five minutes after I told you what time it was five minutes ago." She said. "It is midnight, go."
"No, I don't want to look eager. I will wait for 3 more minutes." I said pacing in the small space.
"God Christa, take a breather, I have never seen you so.... so frantic"
"Well I AM frantic, wouldn't you be?? What if he fell asleep, then what?"
"I don't think he would do that. Just go already. He's been waiting this whole time too."
I clutched the door handle and turned my head, "Wish me luck." I said.
She leaned over and kissed my cheek. "Good luck sweetie. Don't do anything I wouldn't do"
"Oh like that leaves me with any options." I grinned. She slapped me on the back.
"Shut-up and go you retard."
I stood in front of room 1107. My hand was shaking so much I could barely lift it to knock on the door, even though I had told it to stop shaking for 2 hours. I looked down either side of me in the hall and knocked quietly. I waited for 5 seconds, 10 seconds. Nothing. I knocked again, a bit louder. Still nothing. 'He did go to bed' I thought. My heart was beating so fast I could almost hear it faintly in the quiet hallway. 'One more time, and then I'm out of here.' I picked up my hand and knocked once more. 15 seconds, still nothing. I turned towards my room and took two steps. The door unlatched and swung open.
You were only gonna knock three times, what if I had have been asleep." Taylor said grinning.
"I was beginning to think you were" I replied.
"No, I was watching you through the peephole. "He turned into the room. "Carl, we're going now." He said.
"Okay, have fun." Carl said from inside. The lights were out and the TV was flickering.
"Wait." Taylor went into his room and came back out with a Jacket. He passed it to me. "You're gonna need this." He said. He obviously had some sort of plan devised. Taylor shut his door and took my hand. He leaded me down the hall to the elevator. My tongue was tied. I didn't know what to say to him because I didn't know what he was doing. I just kept my mouth shut, and held onto his hand. He took me down to the underground parking lot and lead me outside to the buses. It was very dark with just a dim light coming from a distant street light. Taylor took out a set of keys from his coat pocket and unlocked the bus. He pushed the door open and and stepped in.
"Are you coming" He said looking down to me. He held his hand out and I took it again. I climbed up the big step and he reached around me and closed the door. "My heart is beating so fast" He said as he wrapped his arms around me. I moved closer to him and rested my head on his chest. We stood like that for a moment. Just taking it in. Or at least that's what I was doing. I don't think either of us knew what was happening. It was pure lust and chance. He took a deep breath and I looked up at him. He moved his head close to mine and gave me a deep kiss. I heard the keys fall to the floor as our kiss became more passionate. His knees gave way and he started moving slowly to the ground. Soon I was lying uncomfortably on top of him. He put his hands on my back and I quickly took off his jacket that I was wearing. Our kisses became quicker and more intense. I moved my hand up his shirt to feel his soft chest that was moving up and down in a nervous motion. He turned me onto my side and put his hand up the back of my shirt. I felt him fidgeting with my bra buckle and soon it unlatched and became loose on my back. He quickly moved his hand around to the front. My hands were moving everywhere. From the back of his neck down to the side of his pants. I decided if we were going to do this I was going to take it as far as I could. I put my leg over his and moved closer. I felt him tense up for a moment and then relax again. He moved his hand down to the top of my pants and I helped him undo them. We stopped kissing for a second so we could get them down. He kept looking from my pants that were slowly moving to my knees to my face.
"Is this okay?" He whispered quietly. I took his hand and put it in position and he exhaled quickly. I moved up so his head was resting against my chest and soon I felt him going in. 'This is fucking Taylor Hanson. Taylor Hanson is fingering me, and he is REALLY good.' I thought in my head. I couldn't help my-self when I was put in these situations, I milked it for all it was worth, and this time there was no way I was going to stop. I wouldn’t go so far as to having sex with him that night, but the passion and desire was so strong that I was literally in heaven. My back began to arch and he pressed his other hand hard against it, pushing with the rhythm. I reached my peak, biting my lip so hard that I was afraid it was going to start bleeding. I heard him sigh quietly with pleasure as his hand gave up and he pulled out. I pulled my pants back up and moved back down to face him.
"You just had one of those things didn't you?" He asked quietly, his breaths still coming in leaps. I nodded slowly and kissed him softly. I put my hand on his shoulder and pushed him on his back. I crawled back on top of him and we proceeded into some very heated dry sex. He was holding on to me so tight that I could barely move at times. I had never seen a guy react so much to dry sex. (for those who don't know dry sex is doing the movements without going in ;) He went. I could feel it building up inside him and soon he froze and then fell back. I collapsed on him and kissed his neck as he breathed deeply. He was rubbing my back. I sat up and straddled him, lifting up his shirt and kissing his chest. I moved slowly down to his stomach and soon his pant line. I undid his top button and then slid my hand over his pants to his inner thigh. I moved it up and soon I felt his hand on mine. He pulled it away and I looked up at him. He tilted his head down, still holding onto my hand.
"I think we should uh, stop here." I suddenly felt very embarrassed. I sat up again straddling his knees now. I reached to my back and did my bra up and then laid down next to him as he did his button back up. I put my arm over his chest and placed my head on his shoulder. Luckily he wrapped his arm around me. "I'm sorry" he whispered.
"Don't be" I said. He kissed the top of my head.
"I um," he paused before he continued. "I don't want to be one of those guys that's all" He confessed. Those words meant more to me then anything any guy had ever said.
"Thank-you Taylor" I looked up at him. "But you're already not one of those guys" He grinned down at me.
"Well I feel like one. This is so unromantic, taking you to a bus" He shook his head at himself.
"Whoever said I liked romantic stuff, flowers just die anyway." I grinned. He pulled me up to his mouth and we kissed once again.
"You're different Christa, but I like different."
I smiled at him. "You're different too. I don't think very many guys would have stopped a girl right before she was about to give him head." His eyes widened.
"Ah damn" He said hitting the ground playfully with his fist. "Oh well, next time" He hugged me close. 'Next time.' At least there was going to be a next time.
We stood at his door as he looked for his keys. The whole way up to his room he kept looking at me and smiling. It was so cute. He found his key card and I took his jacket off and passed it to him. He took it and smiled again. At least I could tell he was satisfied.
"Good-night Christa" He said leaning down and kissing my forehead.
"Good-night, see you tomorrow."
"I can't wait." He swept his key through and the door opened. Carl stood in front of us shirtless.
"Where have you been young man, I've been worried sick. Do I need to remind you that you have a concert to play tomorrow." Carl said in a perfect imitation of Mr. Hanson.
"Shut-up Carl" Taylor grinned. Carl scratched his bare stomach and stretched with a long yawn. He then leaned up against the doorframe and pretended to sleep. Taylor smiled at his friend and then looked at me. He took me by the cheek and kissed me goodnight.
"I saw that" Carl said peering out of one eye. I shook my head at him and smiled.
"Good-night guy's" the replied and I headed down the hall as they returned to their room and shut the door. I floated past the doors. The feeling of his hands was still entrancing me. When I turned the corner I almost tripped over my own feet as I was confronted by Zac heading back from my room. He walked passed me and smiled. I stood in shock.
"Good-night" he said over his shoulder. I looked at him,
"For both of us by the looks of things." He stuck his tongue out and raised his eyebrows at me and proceeded back to his room. I rushed to my room and found Johanna coming out of the bathroom. I shut our door and pointed at it. "Why the hell did Zac just leave our room" I said.
"Come on, you need a cigarette." She took me by the arm and passed me my pack of smokes and my lighter. We stepped out into the cold air.
"Okay say something before I have to hit you." I said as I lit my cigarette.
"You first, did you get it on?"
"Oh we got it on. Shit Johanna he was so amazing. He was like 10 times better than any of those stud guy’s who think they are sex kings."
"Well how far did you go?"
"I don't know, like second I guess."
She smiled. "Same here." I almost choked on my cigarette.
"What?!"
"He he... " She giggled. "He came in and told me that Ike fell asleep and he wouldn't let him watch TV. So we were like half laying and half sitting in my bed and he started trying to get the clicker from me, and soon he was like right on top of me and then we started kissing and this led to that and, well, we got it on."
"That's all you're gonna tell me," I said.
She giggled again. "No... well we didn't go that far, cause both of us are pretty, well uh, new at it, but I gave him a hand job and he felt me up and stuff. But ooh ooh, after we were like just lying there and he looked at me and he looked all nervous and stuff, and then he says, 'I don't know what this is' and I was like, uh okay. But then he goes 'I like you Johanna', so I told him I liked him too and he said I know, and then he kissed me on the neck, and then he was like 'after this week I want to see you again, I don't know how we are going to, but I want to' and that made me so happy that I started kissing him again and then we kissed for like half an hour and then he had to go so we kissed for another few minutes at the door and then he left and I went pee and you came back and then we came out to the balcony and I told you about it."
I smiled at her and gave her a hug.
My mind was racing as I lay in my huge hotel bed. Taylor hadn't mentioned what was going to happen after the week. All he had said to me was that he liked how they planned this tour because it gave them time to relax in-between shows and see the cities. Whether that was a hint or not, I didn't know. And what about Isaac. The poor guy obviously liked me quite a bit. Amber had told me that day not to get too worried for him because 'as much as he thinks it means to him now, he'll get over it.' Everyone was rooting for Taylor and I to get together, and I didn’t really know why. All I knew for sure was that these few days were going by way too quickly for my liking, and I was falling in love with Taylor in a new and much better way. My mind started to shut down and I fell into a restless sleep filled with depressing and unsatisfying dreams about saying good-bye to Taylor and never seeing him again.