Techni-Color Smiles
"There's just a magic that happens with certain people. If I could tell you what it was, maybe it wouldn't be magic anymore."
~ Tori Amos

Were it not for my most amazing friends, I would most likely be dead right now. I have not always had friends. When I was younger, trust was an alien, incomprehensible thing to me, as it sometimes still is. I had no one to trust. No one who cared enough about me to treat me the way I deserved to be treated, not only as Amanda, but as a human being. It is only in the past couple of years that I have begun to realize that I can no longer surround myself with negative people. That I deserve more. As a result, I have let some beautiful people in. And they have been my light at the end of the tunnel.


Karen
It was meant to be my darling. Plain and simple. I am in awe at how our lives are so congruent. There is a connection I feel with you that I feel with few others, and I cherish it with all of my heart. Your strength and beauty as a human being amaze and humble me. I'm so pleased we fixed things. I missed you.

Kristy
We are a Shakespearian Tragedy aren't we? You have come from so much pain. Perhaps some day you will stop pretending it never happened. I wish you healing and strength. It's a shame I gave you my heart, because now I can't get it back.

Kelly
Oh my darling. Seems like Tori has brought me so many new friends. But there is a connection I feel with you. Something I try really hard to put my finger on but can't quite manage to do. You are a strong, beautiful, amazing woman. I feel honored to call you my friend.

Alice
Valley Girls kick ass!! I hold on to belief that someday the both of us will be whole women. We both can fly, we just need to find the courage to jump off the edge. Someday I know we will.

Quail
Girl. Words can't describe it. I know you feel it too. Something wonderfully miraculous that flows between us. Someday we will stand face to face. You are so wonderful, and talented, and my god do I love you.

Missy
Another one I can't even begin to explain. Your strength is awe inspiring love. You make me want to win. You make me want to never give up. Never.

Mindi
We are warriors, beautiful. Plain and simple. And we will fucking win. I promise you that. I only wish that you could see your strength.

Nicole
Ahhh. Coley. My common sense. You saw it coming didn't you? I only wish I had. It's funny how quickly and irreversably things can change. But I am learning now how inevitable change is. I am learning to flow with it. You have helped with that lesson.

Heather
The one person who always fought for me. No matter what. And the one who betrayed me beyond words. You have given me some of THE most amazing memories, and I will cherish them always. Maybe someday we will both find forgiveness. And maybe not. Regardless, I do miss you sometimes. I used to not be able to remember how to breathe without you. I have learned finally...

Toi Lynn
I don't even know where to begin. You have seen me grow. You were the very first person I trusted. You taught me it was okay to be exactly who I was. If you ever doubt yourself in your career, please know that you made a difference to at least one person. And perhaps things should have happened differently, but I cherish the fact that they didn't. I hold tight to the fact that they didn't. And yes, things needed to change. But I have learned to never have regrets. And I regret nothing about the time I got with you. Not a fucking thing.