13 Years
Words and Music by A.D. Nation



i woke up sweating in the sun
sprawled across my big brother's grave
shaking and drunk with sleep
i crawled to my feet, and walked up into the shade
of a younf elm tree, that must have been planted
since the last we came
Vicki, my mom and me
to clean the dirt from the plaque that says his name

walking to my girlfriend's car
it came back down on me
i guess i fell to my knees,
to keep from falling face first into the dream
the vision that had me twisting out under the afternoon sky
i didn't know it then,
but it was thirteen years to the day he died

he held his hand to me
like brothers we walked through the colorless world
of my alcohol dream
i talked for hours trying to break through the silence
that he held to me
then he started away he turned and said,
keep it up, so you can die like me

ever since my brother O.D.'d
i have drifted all over from town to town to town
every place i go it is always the same
i keep doing junk
i keep going down
may mama got religion
my sisters gave up
and i just gave up too
i just died inside
i don't wanna die like george
i don't wanna die like george
everyone sees the one image they need
everybody's pointing their fingers at me

i woke up driving after another blackout from another bad drug
i just can't shake this hell
that i made for myself
and for every other life i touch
i see my sister's son walk the like i walk
and he's only sixteen
if he don't learn from my mistakes
he's going to waste away
he's going to die like me


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