Flustered
I know it's just me, shrugging it off,
putting an enigmatic smile back on to curtain what's inside
Darkness falls over me, I can't help it.
The river of tears grows with each drop
Flooded with unshed tears, the desire and hope to prod on

Worried about failure, those looking on with taunting
disappointed eyes. haha..maybe not that extreme..:) *grin*
Spinning around, dizzy, with confusion. The thoughts
tease me, whispering luring words.

I wish sometimes I could defeat the power over me,
limiting my views, and ease my turmoil.
The door to which lies ways of opportunities. My
fingers almost grazing them.
Somehow my words rivet back to me, mocking the echoed,
lost voice.
Can't stand those penetrating questions, digging at
my mind. Crying out frustrations. Why am I being so
difficult?

I close my eyes and relinquish the thoughts of sorrow
and happiness, and welcome the comforting, familiar
feeling of sleep, and slowly slip into dreamland.