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"Chaos demands to be recognized and experienced before letting itself be converted into a new order."
:-Þ~~~Hermann Hesse

Hi my name is Larry (ShocktheMonkey) in Yahoo & ICQ. I am a single Father of three wonderful children two boys both grown married, and one daughter still in college. I have one granddaughter by the oldest boy and his wife. I work as a Lineman for the local Elec. company for 29 yrs now. I see things a lot different now being sober for over 10 yrs the saying above kind of explains my life not that I was a bad person or a mean drunk but anyone who has gone through this understands you are living in a illusion of who and what you are. To my kids I Love you I can't go back and fix the pass so we must live for the future. I do want to apology to my family this is not to justify what I did but to just let you know I was wrong, and to anyone else (ditto). I hope we also can learn form past mistakes I know I have. And to my family and friends thanks for always being there I know it was not easy. To the friends I lost along the way well I can't be who you want me to be anymore I have found out it is ok to be me.

"There is no shortcut to life. To the end of our days, life is a lesson imperfectly learned." :-Þ~~~Harrison E. Salisbury.

"Imperfect oh hell yes, but the trade off is inner peace."

I wasn't exactly brought up in one of those Norman Rockwell paintings you used to see on the cover of the Saturday Evening Post!!!

Links to sites on Recovery!

Alcholics Anonymous (AA)

National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA)

The National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism

National Clearinghouse for Alcohol and Drug Information

Close to Home Online

The National Center on Addiction and Substance Abuse at Columbia University

Worldwide Web Rational Recovery Center

Rational Recovery believes in the use of reason and rational self-interest to solve alcohol-and drug-related problems.

Women for Sobriety

Women for Sobriety is a nonprofit organization dedicated to helping women overcome addictions. It was founded because of the frequently male-oriented atmosphere within A.A. and other recovery/self-helps groups. Its penpal program offers assistance and support to those women who cannot attend group meeting in person.

Recovery Network

Recovery Network Features statistics about addiction and its consequences, information about 12-step and other recovery groups, a news service that surveys more than 1,400 publications daily, and a 24-hour hot line you can call to find help with substance-abuse problems. You can also listen to "Recovery Radio" (a daily radio show) and participate in Recovery Chats.

Moderation Management

This is a self-help group for people who believe that, through acceptance of personal responsibility for their drinking, some individuals can learn to drink appropiately. Moderation management promotes early recognition of alcohol-related consequences and the achievement of reduction in drinking. But there is a recognition that not everyon can learn to drink moderately and that such individuals should instead choose abstinence.

Recovery within a Cultural Context!

Spirit of Freedom Ministries

Maintained by an Evangelistic Christian organization in Metairie, Louisiana, the site offers a tollfree phone line for individuals and families seeking help for addictions.

Christians in Recovery

Contains information and referrals for Christians who have a desire to recover not only from chemical dependency but also from family dysfunction, eating disorders, and sexual addiction.

Jews in Recovery from Alcoholism and Drug Abuse

This site is tailored toward Jews and Jewish families whose lives have been affected by alcohol and drug addiction and for those professionals who help them.

Recovery Medicine Wheel

This site is designed for the Native American community and incorporates its unique values and concepts.

What is Codependency!

This site is from Teddy's Home Page I think everyone should check this one out It's great, also check out her Character Defects page.

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