On the Edge

by Melinda S. Dawney

SPOILER WARNING: Story intended to immediately follow 'What's My Line?'.
RATING: PG
CONTENT WARNING: Story deals with thoughts of suicide. SUMMARY: An interlude. This is my first attempt at... (GASP!)... a Buffy/Angel piece. ;) Those of you who are familiar with my work will understand the humor intened here. Buffy is the most difficult character (for me) to write so I hope this is meaningful.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Buffy & Co. Joss Whedon and the WB do. No copyright infringement intended.

Note: Text enclosed in < > represents thoughts or feelings.

Part One

Buffy wanted to fly...

The Sunnydale Tower was the highest building in Sunnydale. From her perch atop its roof she could see all of the Hellmouth sprawling before her in its suburban glory.

She crept closer to the edge. One small step and she’d be flying forever.

This was it... one of those moments in between hunting and studying and training when she had a free personal and utterly private moment to wallow in herself. .

Buffy extended her arms gracefully above her head, the way one begins a swan dive. She balanced on her toes, teetering on the edge of the building, on the edge of her life.

Now more than ever, her life seemed empty and depressing. Before she’d carried only the seeming hopelessness of her task, the unbearable weight of her duty, and her totally non-happening love life.

“Hi.” The soft greeting behind her set her arms flailing. Buffy would have plunged right off the edge if his hand hadn’t fastened securely on her shoulder and pulled her back.

Buffy spun on Angel sputtering. “THAT IS SO NOT FUNNY!” She slapped her hands down on his chest and shoved him back in order to make room for herself on the now crowded ledge. “How many times have I told you NOT to sneak up on me?!” she demanded.

“Sorry,” Angel grimaced, looking apologetic. “I thought that I made plenty of noise this time.”

“What did you maybe make... ONE footfall?!” Buffy demanded sarcastically, coming across as much more hostile and cutting than she wanted to. She felt defensive about having been caught off-guard in such a vulnerable position.

Angel gave her that vulnerable, scolded puppy-dog look that melted her heart and made her feel like the biggest witch since the Wicked Westerly One. He turned, starting to leave.

“Wait!” Buffy lunged after him, grabbing his arm. “I’m sorry. It’s not you, it’s me. I’m feeling kinda... moody.”

His eyes fastened on her bandaged wrist. Her self-inflicted injury... When he glanced up guilt and remorse clouded his eyes. They never discussed this; one or the other always changed the subject first.

“You’ve been moody a lot lately,” Angel observed, putting physical and emotional distance between them. Buffy ground her teeth together in annoyance at his retreat. He stepped past her to peer over the edge. “Ever since...” he trailed off, leaving the rest unsaid. Buffy exhaled, calming herself.

“Look, Angel, you need to stop feeling bad about what happened.” Buffy laid a hand on his shoulder, managing to overcome some of her own angst in order to offer him compassion. “It was my decision,” she added with finality.

Angel kept staring down. However, his shoulder relaxed slightly under her hand. “It’s a long way down isn’t it?” he asked. Buffy’s throat tightened.

She nodded, afraid to speak. Angel glanced back at her. “I thought about it a lot. At first,” he added.

“What stopped you?” Buffy asked, despite herself.

“Don’t know,” he flashed her his cryptic man smile. The one she loved to hate. “Too stubborn, I guess.”

“I can see that,” Buffy teased, considering him thoughtfully.

“So, are you going?” he asked softly. His expression was complex and indecipherable. Buffy stared at him, wondering how such a obscure question could be so pointed.

“Will you follow?” she demanded, in an attempt to throw him. She didn’t really expect an answer.

“I’d follow you into sunlight,” he stated clearly, meeting her gaze levelly. Buffy felt her heart skip a beat. “If you asked.” She stared at him in disbelief.

Suddenly, she smiled. Her moments in between didn’t seen so lonely anymore.

Buffy extended her hand. “Walk me home?” She pleaded with an ingenue’s pout.

He smiled and took her hand, saying nothing in reply.

The End