Disclaimer: I don't own anything in my stories but the main plot. This is a what if story, It takes place during the summer. (Of course if Angel hadn't died.) But he did NOT recieve his soul in my story. And they didn't try the curse twice.

Buffy had encountered five vampires in only three hours of patrol. She kept telling herself that she wasn't tired but her eyes would betray her and start to drift shut. She finally decided to call it a night and report back to Giles and tell him of all the activity.

She was half way to the library when she felt one of them. She straightened up and didn't let her exhaust show.

"Show yourself," She said, putting up a strong front. Nothing answered her call and she looked around her causously.

"Now is not the time to play games." She said trying to focus on the darkness. After a moment of silence a voice spoke up quietly.

"Oh, I'm very serious. I'm not into childish games." Said the voice flattly.

She knew the voice even though it was almost a whisper, how could she forget it. "Ok your not into games...then what do you call this?" She retorted to the direction of his voice.

"This is step two of a strategically assymbled plan." Angel said stepping from the shadows.

"So hows the plan so far?" Buffy asked with mock intrest.

"Oh, just swimmingly." He said with his know-it-all smirk. "It's really great, your gonna love it." He finished as he walked towards her.

"Really? I don't supose your gonna tell it to me?" She said as she pulled out a stake.

"Buffy you know me better than that." He said with a disapointed face.

"So what was step one of your brilliant plan?" She mused.

He stopped walking and made a gesture towards her. "Just look at you." He said flatly. "Your exhausted, do you think five vampires just decided to die tonight? No. They died because 'I' told them to. That ,dear Buffy, was step one." He said in a condescending voice.

"Whatever your planning, I won't let it happen." She said in firm tone.

"Your in no condition to say so." He said standing with his arms behind his back and an amused look on his face.

"So you think." She said as she lunged forwards and delievered a harsh kick to his jaw bone.

He staggered back and blocked her next punch and flipped her over his head. She landed with a crash as she slammed into a dumpster.

"Baby, you and me can make a great team." He said as he stood over her.

She hadn't realized how tired she was until now. She couldn't move or her ribs would scream in pain. She had broken at least two ribs and maybe fractured more.

"Well whats step three?" Buffy gasped at him.

"I figured I'd wing it, plans are too overrated." He said kneeling down to her side. He pulled her to her feet and pinned her arms at her side as he neared her neck.

"Tell me, who's house do you want to be delivered to?" He said with a smile.

"No," She said as she struggled. But the more she struggled the more her ribs hurt.

"Just relax, you'll thank me." He said as he put on his game face. He sank his fangs into her neck and she cringed as she felt her blood going from her body. It was an odd feeling that made her feel light headed. Soon she felt her whole body tingle at the lack of blood then everything stopped.

No pain, no feeling, no light. He pulled away with a grin and let go of her with one hand and reached into his trench coat. He pulled out a knife and sliced his tounge then put it away. Then he bent down and kissed her letting the blood flow from his lips to hers. It had been a long time since this encounter had occured and he didn't realize how much he missed it. But then after a minute he stopped and finished draining her. Slowly her heart beat stopped and her breathing was non-existant. After he was done he took her to the closest place where one of her friends were, the library. He layed her down in front of the door way in the hall. He knocked three times and stepped back to the shadows to watch. To his surprise and delight it was Xander who opened the door.

"Hey Buff you don't need to knock..." His goofy smile disappeared and was replaced with a ghost white face of terror. Slowly his face crumpled with his body and tears streamed down his face. "Giles!" He screamed as he rocked her body as he cried.

Angel looked on satisfied as he saw Giles and Willow come out and react much the same. After about ten minutes he left with a large grin on his face. He waited and watched from outside as they took her to the hospital. He followed and watched everyones reactions through the window.

He coudn't help but laugh as they all cried and hugged eachother.' Human emotions is what makes them weak.' He thought as he walked into the hospital and lurked in the shadows.

"Exuse me sir can I help you?" A nurse asked him from behind. He smiled and turned to face her. "I am a bit hungry." He said as he shoulved her into a room and fed.

He emerged and went to the morg where Buffy's body was. He slipped in and uncovered it, then picked her up and went to the window and left silently.

*****

As all of Buffy's friends and her mother sat in the waiting room a nurse rushed in and picked up the phone on her desk and dialed quickly.

"Security to basement level we have a body snatcher and a nurse thats been murdered...Yes...I tried that she's dead...thank you." She said as she hung up the phone and ran to the morg as did some others.

"Body snatcher...Angel." Willow said as she ran to the morg pushing open the double doors with the words 'Hospital Personal Only' on them. She saw the open window and one of the tables surrounded by nurses. She saw the plate at the end of the table and realized it was Buffy that was missing.

The nurses saw her and ushered her out of the room and she told the others about what had happened. The others were astonished at what she told them, then Giles told them to go to the library to make some sort of plan. A nurse walked out to break the news and found that they were gone and turned back in confusion.

*****

Angel was back at he Spikes and Drusilla's new place. Drusilla and Spike came back to Sunnydale to find Angel. Drusilla convinced Spike to do so, and he finally agreed.

"So no one saw you leave?" Spike said as he and Angel were having a heated conversation.

"You think too much Spike, the people who saw me are dead, ok?" He said as he sat down and looked at Spike. "If you don't like it then go, your the one who came crawling back to me." He said with an amused look on his face.

"I did not crawl back, this was my home before it was yours!" Spike growled at him. "Besides the sun doesn't set for another hour, I can't leave." He said as he sat down opposite of Angel.

"Well she'll wake tonight, and you'll see what a powerful ally that I've made us." Angel said while he jabbed his hand gently with a letter opener.

"What about me?" Drusilla purred from the doorway.

"Dru you were fun but I think you should stick with Spike here. I've moved on." He said as he left the room to wait for Buffy to rise.

Two hours later Angel was sitting next to Buffy as she lay limp on the bed. Her eyelids began to twitch and she started to wake. Her fists were clenched as she battled the demon inside her. Her eyes opened and then they rolled in the back of her head and she continued until finally the demon won and she fell silent. Her eyes opened and she took in her surroundings and slowly registered everything in her mind.

"Well tell me how does it feel to be one of us?" He said as he took her hand and helped her to her feet.

"Angel?" She said as she looked around puzzled for a moment. Then she smiled and closed her eyes. "I can feel the night, lets go for a walk." She whispered into his ear.

"Alright, where do you wanna go?" He said as he passed Spike on thier way out.

"Its not where I wanna go, but what I wanna do." She said as they emerged into the night.

"And whats that my love?" He asked in suspense.

"I wanna find some old friends and have a party. Spike's invited if he wants to share." She said as she ran her hand through her hair.

"Spike's no fun, besides you've got me." He said pulling her closer.

As they passed the Bronze Buffy saw some girls from school and growled at them making them jump back as they saw her show her fangs then go back to normal. She then laughed and continued walking.

About a mile from the school Angel all of the sudden collapsed to his knees and Buffy fell with him, holding him and asking whats wrong.

When he stopped she looked down at him and saw there was so ething different about him. Then she realized that his soul was back.

"Buffy?" He asked as he stood up next to her.

She put on her game face and he froze. After about a minute realization set in and he remembered all that had happened and tears filled his eyes.

"Buffy come with me, I can help you..."

"You want me to be weak like I was." She said interrupting him.

"Buffy please don't do anything you'll regret." He said sternly.

"Giles will pay for doing this to you." She said quietly. "Angel just go with me and forget about everything else. Just ignore the feeling" She said pulling him with her.

"No, I can't and you know it. I can't believe I did this to you." He said as he backed away.

"Fine but you can't stop me." She said as she ran to the school. Angel followed and got there just as she opened the doors to the library. She walked in and saw Willow, Giles, and Oz looking up information on the stupid computer again.

"You changed him." She said with anger ripping through her voice.

"Buffy forgive us." Giles said as he pulled out a book and Xander, and Cordelia came up from behind and threw a net over her.

She knew what they were going to do and screamed in protest as she tried to break free. They lit candles and inscences and Willow began reading out of the book Giles held.

Buffy screamed as she felt herself begin to change. Then Willow stopped and fell to the floor. Spike was behind her with a bloddy knife in his hand.

"Spike get me out of here!" She called out as she kicked Xander through the net.

Angel had been watching them do the spell and then saw Spike. In a blind rage he tackled Spike and they began to struggle for control of the knife. Soon more vampires entered the room including Drusilla. While they were all busy with fighting Drusilla went over to Buffy. She cut the nets and she and Buffy got up.

"Thank you dear." Buffy said to Drusilla. "Would you like a drink?" She said grabbing Willow off of the floor.

Drusilla smiled and took Willow. "I like you much better this way." Drusilla said as she fed.

"So do I." Buffy said as she went to retrieve Spike. As Drusilla was feeding Oz had walked up behind her and hit her over the head with a chair. She turned and rolled her eyes as she began to fight Oz. Buffy stopped as Angel threw Spike and he slid to her feet.

"Leave him alone." She said helping him to his feet.

Angel looked at her as she took Spikes hand and a great jealousy built within him.

Slowly the vampires left and everyone was injured in some way as they checked to see if everyone was ok. Everyone was counted for except Willow and Oz. Then they saw him walk up with Willow in his arms and tears coming down his face. He laid her down and Giles checked her pulse...she was dead.

*****

Buffy paced the floor of the room she was in. " I'm hungry, I say we go to the Bronze. They won't expect that." She said as she motioned for Dru to come.

"What about me?" Spike said limping over to them.

"I only need you when I want to make Angel jealous...its quite entertaining. Besides Dru filled me in on how mean you were to her. And I don't trust you, I know you'll betray me because you hopped at the chance to betray my Angel." She said as she and Dru left with the other vampires.

"Dru I want to find someone special to be my first meal." Buffy said as they passed the Bronze.

"I thought we were going to the Bronze." Drusilla said as the gang walked on.

"I just told Spike that, he's on his way to betraying me right about now." She said with a smile.

"Clever, so who's first?" She said anxiously.

"My dear mother."

"Oh goodie." She said as she smiled and licked her lips. Once they got to Buffy's house Buffy walked in and turned. "I invite you and any other vampire into my home." She said just as her mother walked in.

"Buffy? No your a vampire. Giles told me you were." She said backing away.

"I never should have told you I was the slayer, it's just such a pain." She said as she grabbed her by the hair.

"Buffy why are you doing this?" She said as she tried to get free.

"Oh just shut up and die." Then she put her game face on and bit her neck sucking her dry.

When she was done she dropped her to the floor and they left. "Giles will try to curse me again, and Spike will help him. Let's get going." She said as they ran off to the library, again.

Buffy walked in and the first face she saw was sure enough Giles, Then the rest of the gang behind him.

Buffy's attire was different. She was wearing a sleazy purple haulter top with black short shorts, black shinny boots that came up to her thigh, and a huge black trench coat. Her make up was thick and dark with black lip stick and an evil smile to top it off.

"I'm your worst nightmare. A vamp that knows your every move, and is ten times stronger than any other." She said as she approached.

"So tell me where's Spike? At the Bronze wondering where we are?" She said laughing.

"Your clever Buffy but not clever enough, you forgot something." Angel said as he stepped from the shadows.

"And that would be?" She asked as she pulled out a pistol from her trench coat.

"That we would have a counter plan." He said as pulled out the orb of thesis.

"You know you won't be able to finish the curse before we kill you." She said as she stepped forward about two feet away from him into a circle of black powder she didn't see. "Then you'll all die just like dear mom." She said as she laughed a little.

Angel's face went stern and he shook his head at her attitude. "You don't realize what you've done."

"Saved myself from being grounded?" She said solemnly.

"You'll see." He said as he threw the orb to Giles. Giles then said a few brief words in latin.

"Ohh scary, so what's that a spell do, turn me into a frog." She said as she turned to him. She then tried to run and attack him but slammed into something and staggared backwards. There was an invisisble force field where the black powder had been laid.

Angel took her arms and looked into her eyes. "I made you, but you ruined her. She'll be broken." He said as he stepped back.

"No!" Buffy yelled as she heard Giles start to chant. The other vampires had fled when they saw that they could restore souls in thier kind. Buffy saw she was alone and grabbed Angel and began to kick him to get out her anger, she had him on the ground when she saw a stake in his trench coat. She took it out and was about to stake him when he kicked her off and rolled out of the circle.

She got up and pounded on the misty force field. Then she fell to her knees as her soul came into her body. As she felt it enter her she screamed and fought to keep it away but it was too late.

Angel watched with tears in his eyes as he saw her fall to the floor. Then slowly she looked around and wiped away her tears. She was confused as she saw Angel, but not bad Angel like she remembered but her Angel. "Giles take out the force field." Angel said as he saw her looking around with a confused look on her face.

Buffy tried to reach out to him but felt something stopping her. She was thinking of what happend when her memory started to kick in. Flashes of Willow, her mother, and the fight came to her mind.

Slowly the whole story came back and she realized she had killed Willow and her mom. Tears began to come and she looked at Giles as he tried to find something in a book.

She began to sob at the thought of how mean she'd been to her friends. But the people she killed were gone forever.

"Giles now would be a good time." Angel said as he saw that he had left his stake inside the circle.

"I'm trying!" Giles said as he flipped through the book.

Buffy noticed the stake too. She reached down and picked it up.

"Giles!" Angel screamed as he saw her look up and say 'I love you'.

"Ok here it is." He said as he began to read the words.

Buffy had the stake out and closed her eyes.

"Buffy No!" Angel screamed as he pounded the invisible wall as tears streamed down her face. He knew once he exited the circle he couldn't go back in and it killed him to see her in a cage trying to kill herself from guilt. Then the force field went down and Angel shot in and pulled the stake away just as she drove it in. She had stabbed her self but it wasn't deep enough. Blood came down her stomach and she cried out at how much it hurt. Angel craddled her in his arms as Giles gave him a clothe to put on the wound. In a matter of minutes the blood stopped and the stab wound began to heal. She was crying and kept appologizing repeatedly. She felt so terible that she welcomed death but she knew Angel wouldn't allow it. Were the others so forgiving? She stopped after about ten minutes and looked up at Angel. "I killed them." She whispered.

Angel kissed the top of her head and rested his cheek on her head. "It wasn't you." He said as he rocked her. "If its anyone's fault its mine, I did this to you." He said quietly.

"I guess we weren't ourselves were we?" She said as more of a statment than a question.

"Yah," was his reply.

Later that night she, Giles, and Angel were talking in the library.

"So since it wasn't the gypsies who cursed you then there are no ties, it cannot be broken. There isn't even a counter spell." Giles said as he closed the book he was reading from.

"What about Xander, he left as soon as the curse was done." Buffy said, hoping that he would somehow forgive her...but didn't blame him if he didn't.

Angel looked down at his hands as he looked for the words to answer her.

"He and I argued about that...but...He doesn't know if he would forgive you or not, but I'm out of the question." He said quietly.

"I don't blame him." She said through blood shot eyes.

"It'll be ok, he's just grieving." Angel said as he wrapped his arms around her.

After a long pause she shed another tear. "I'll never see the sun again."

She just sat for a moment then Angel recomend that they leave so they could get to his old apartment before sun up. She agreed and they left.

They walked under the moon and thought of how different things would be from now on. But they were together, love would see them through.

'Is it any wonder I can't sleep
All I have is all you gave to me,
Is it any wonder I found peace
through you?'

"The Begining is the end is the Begining",
Smashing Pumpkins

The End.......
for now.

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