Guilt

by Eliza

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, I do however claim all rights to Eliza and Lethes. Other then them, I don't own a thing but the story.

Read: This story takes place after Killed by Death and it deals with the thought that Angel has his soul back, but while he was a mean vampire Xander and Buffy hooked up. I know, I know, I hate the thought, but I needed a challenge. Also, Angel doesn't remember a thing that happened. You should know that Giles preformed the ritual, and Buffy doesn't want a thing to do with Angel any more. She wants to move on with Xander.

Part 1

Buffy walked alone in the cemetery. It was Friday night, and she was on her nightly sweep before heading to the Bronze. She wasn't even paying attention to her slaying, she was thinking, about her mom, her studies, her new boyfriend Xander, she smiled at that thought. She loved Xander, he was so cute and funny. She thought of him and her getting married, living in a little house in the country. Having children, and never having to slay again.

At that moment, Buffy bumped into something, and almost tripped over it. "Ouch." she said, immediately cursing herself for being so loud. She looked down, she had hit Jennifer Calenders gravestone. Her thought turned to Angel. There was a time when she had loved him so much. Then he was a monster, and now he was back to a soul filled vampire again. She had to move on. "Besides, I love Xander anyway" she said, as if she was trying to convince herself that it was true.

Buffy turned to walk to the Bronze when she saw him. She sighed dramaticly "Hello Angel" she said, in an annoyed tone. More like the tone she would have used when they first met, when he was annoying. "What do you want?" She said, more as a demand then a request.

"Nothing really, I was hoping I would run into you" he said, his voice was full of pain. After Giles had filled him in on what he had done when his curse was lifted, he was so angry with himself. He rushed to talk to Buffy, but she said she had moved on without him, and she was happy now, and for him to stay out of her life.

"Why is that?" she said, she wanted to get to the Bronze to be with Xander.

"I wanted to talk to you" Angel replied softly

"What could we possibly have to talk about?" Buffy shot back

"Buffy..." Angel said, taking a step toward her. "I'm very sorry about what I did, but it wasn't me, you know that" he was begging for her forgiveness with his eyes. "I know you can't forgive me, and you shouldn't, but I still love you, I always will. I need to know if you love me."

"Look Angel, I was really hurting after you changed, but now I've moved on, I have a great relationship with Xander, and we are very happy." she said, as-a- matter-of-factly. "So just leave me be."

She saw the hurt in his eyes, but breezed by him with devils speed out of the cemetery. Angel looked at Jenny's grave, took out a red rose from where he hid it in his pocket, nelt down, and placed it softly on her grave. Then he followed Buffy to the Bronze.

Part 2

Buffy walked into the Bronze, she would not let Angel ruin her evening. She quickly spotted Xander and Willows table, then she spotted Xander and Willow. They were out on the dance floor. Willow was off to the side a bit, slowly moving to the fast music, and Xander was showing off his unique style of dancing. Buffy smiled at the humorous site, and sat down at the table, never taking her eyes of the two. Xander spotted her, and the pair quickly made their way to the table.

"Hey Buff." Xander said as he gave her a quick kiss on the cheek. "Hey guys" Buffy said "Whats up?"

"Oh nothing, Oz is tied up tonight." Xander replied, a little to quick. Willow shot him an annoyed look, then said "And Cordelia has been giving Xander dirty looks all night" Then she gave him a smile that said *I can play too* "Ha ha." Xander replied. "She'll just never get over the good ol Xand- man he said, feeling very good about himself.

On the above stair case Angel watched the three talk and laugh, then he watched as Buffy led Xander out on the dance floor for a slow dance. He watched as they swayed to the music, wishing that she would dance with him like that, and at the same time holding himself back from not jumping down on the floor and ripping Xanders throat out. He couldn't take it anymore, and left.

As Buffy and Xander danced, Buffy saw a young girl, about thirteen approach them. She was wearing tight black leather pants, and a very nice wrap around white shirt. Not the usual clothes for a 13 year old. Her long blond hair was up in a beautiful French twist, and she had gorgeous violet eyes, that shone in the light, but held a dark and mysterious glow. She was probubly the most beautiful girl Buffy had ever seen.

The girl walked right up to them and said "Buffy." She said it more like she already knew the girl then asking if it was her. Xander and Buffy broke apart, and Buffy said "Yes?" Both Buffy and Xander were confused and had no clue what was going on. "I need to speak with you, it is important" This girls voice was very soft, but not weak. "Um okay, Xander?" Buffy faced her boyfriend. "Yeah, I'll go sit down Then he left.

Buffy follow the girl to a quite spot near the exit of the Bronze. The stood face to face. "Whats going on?" Buffy was very confused.

"I know who you are Buffy, I know your the slayer" she said. "Who are you?" Buffy replied, she was shocked.

"Maybe I should tell you my whole story." Buffy nodded.

"My name is Eliza. I'm not thirteen, as I look, I was born in 1770. I'm 228. I'm immortal, but I'm not a vampire. When I was 13 my brother was killed, well not really, he was changed, he was made a vampire. He killed our whole family, but not me, I guess he just forgot. I was so angry and upset and sad that I collapsed in the street, hoping that the black plague that was going around would kill me, but it didn't. I woke up in a house that had potions, orbs, bottles of this and that, and different books. I read the covers of the books, they were all about spells and demons. The person that had brought me there was an old women. She was a sorcerous and a shaman. Her name was Lethes. I told her my story and she took me in, and taught me spells and magic. One day I asked her if she could place a curse on my brother to make him human again. She said she did not know of such a curse but she made me immortal so that one day I could find the right spell. We worked on it for years while my brother killed and tortured people. One day while I was off in Paris for a mission, I got a letter from Lethes, she said she had the spell and to come home right away. When I got there I found her in the house dying, there was blood everywhere. I was about to make her immortal with a spell when she stopped me, and told me it was her time to die. Then she was gone. I fell to the floor crying, then I heard it. Uncontrollable laughing, I turned to see my brother standing there. He had found out about the spell and killed her. I let him go, but vowed that I would make the demon pay, but I would always protect my brother. I've spent my life looking for the spell, learning magic along the way. I guess I'm what you could call a witch, but not really. I'm like Lethes, I'm a sorcerous.

"Buffy, theres one more thing" Buffy looked at her, her story was so sad, but why was she here. "Whats that?" Buffy said, sympitheticly. "My brother is Angel"

Part 3

"He-He-Hes your what?" Buffy stammered, she couldn't believe what this girl was saying.

"He's my brother" Eliza replied crossing her arms.

"But how, Angel told me he killed his whole family" Buffy was totally confused, how come Angel never told her he had a sister that was still alive?

"Maybe he just put it out of his mind" Eliza said, so casually, you would think she was taking about the weather.

At that moment the bouncer came up to them, "I'm sorry miss, but your too young to be in this club"

Eliza turned to look at him, her eyes darkening. Then the bouncer walked away.

"What did you do to him" Buffy asked.

Eliza looked at her and said "I changed his mind"

"How do I know that your telling me the truth?" Buffy said. Eliza held up a hand, admiring the ring that she held with it. It was Angels claddagh ring.

"Where did you get that?" Buffy shouted, she tried to grab it from Eliza but she pulled her hand back.

"Well, after you totally blew off my brother in the cemetery, he decided to follow you. Then he saw you and Nancy boy over there dancing and went off and killed himself!" Eliza shot back, giving Buffy a sly look.

Buffy couldn't breath, she had told Angel to get out of her life but she could never imagen him dead. "Are you sure "she managed to get out.

"I went to his apartment and found a pile of dust and the ring in it." Eliza said.

Buffy then realized something, she still loved Angel. Xander?. What had she been thinking?

"I have to go" Buffy ran to her table grabbed her jacket and left, without saying a word to Xander or Willow.

Eliza put an evil smile on her face, and started toward the same way Buffy left. Xander grabbed her arm.

"What did you do to her" he said

"Don't touch me" Eliza said slowly, her eyes darkening once again. Xander let go of her. "I gave her some words of wisdom" Then Eliza left. "What was that about" Willow said "I don't know..." Xander replied "But I'm going to find out" Xander got up but Willow stopped him "Don't, let her go, we'll talk to her in the morning"

Part 4

Buffy ran at full speed. Her heart was beating faster then it had ever beaten in her life. She was more scared then she had ever been in her life, she couldn't imagen living without Angel. She thought about the way she had treated him. "Oh my God!" she yelled. What if hes dead, she thought. If he was she would just die.

She came to the door of his loft. She kicked it in. "Angel" she screamed. She saw him lying on the bed, he stood up. "Buffy" he said, he was shocked.

She ran to him and threw her arms around him. She held him, while crying hysterically.

"Oh Angel, I thought you were dead!" she said, in between sobs.

"I'm not dead, it's okay." Angel replied

Buffy broke away from him so they could face each other. She still had her arms around him. "Angel, I'm so sorry, for everything"

"It's okay" Angel was still confused.

"Angel, I don't know what was wrong with me, all those things I said. I still love you Angel, I always have." Buffy said

"I love you too Buffy."

They kissed.

"Oh, how sweet." A voice said from behind them, coming from the doorway. They turned to face the new occupant. It was Eliza.

"Hello Angel" she said

"Eliza?" Angel replied, he couldn't believe his eyes.

"Hey big bro." Eliza said while taking 2 steps toward them.

Angel ran to her, picked her up, and twirled her around while hugging her. He set her down.

"I thought you were dead." Angel was so happy that his baby sister was alive.

"I'm immortal, I can't die silly."

"What, when did you become immortal, how do I know your not a vampire?" Angel asked

"Oh please" Eliza shot back, then she walked over to a sword that Angel had hanging on the wall. She picked it up and plunged it into her stomach, then brought it out again. There was no blood, or wound.

"See" Eliza said, proving her point.

Then Eliza punched Angel with inhuman strength. Angel had to grab the side of the wall to not fall down. Buffy wanted to fight the little girl that just punched the man she loved but decided to stay out of it.

"What was that for?" Angel asked while holding his jaw.

"It was for Lethes." Eliza replied

"Oh, I'm so sorry Eliza." Angel said, with sadness in his voice.

"Don't worry about it" Eliza said with a smile

Buffy chose this time to jump into the conversation. "Why did you tell me Angel was dead?"

Angel gave Eliza a look. "Eliza has been a sneaking and annoying girl for as long as I can remember." Angel said

"Just call me the match maker" Eliza smiled

"What are you going to do about Xander?" Angel asked.

"Oh, I'll think of something" Buffy replied.

"Now that your here are you going to stay?" Buffy asked Eliza.

"Sure" she said back.

"Can you make Angel a human again?" Buffy asked

"If I feel like it" Eliza said with an evil smile

Angel tickled her until she screamed "Okay, okay, I'll think about it" She wasn't giving in that easily.

"Good" Angel said "Now I'm really happy"

"Me too" Buffy said

"And Eliza" Angel said

"Yes brother"

"What are you wearing?"

THE END