Elizabeth lay motionless on the ground. Pain coursed through her body as she tried to sit up. THe littlest movement made her head spin and her vision to turn blurry.
She was laying in the trees at the edge of the graveyard. She was hidden from the immediate view from the road. Nobody would see her to come to her aid. Lucky's tombstone was just feet from hte trees.
Her clothes were ripped and tossed over her in an attempt to cover her up. Liz remembered nothign after her assailant had knocked her unconsious. From the way her clothes ahd been dealt with, and the fact they were off, she suspected she had been raped.
Compared to last time, this time was nothing as bad. She had been unconsious through the whole thing thank God. THere were no memories of him taking her. Nothing had been as bad as remembering waht that monster did to her that last time.
WHy was this happening to her? Not many people had to go through the horror of rape once, she had to do it twice. Lucky wouldn't be able to be here for her this time, she would be on her own.
Her arm was aching as she tried to pull it from beneath her. She coughed adn tasted blood in her mouth. She licked her dry lips.
When would the sunrise come? She needed help, she couldn't move on her own.
She ahd never even gotten a look at the bastard who did this too her. SHe knew it wasn't TOm, he was still locked up in prison. HOw the F--k was she supposed to get somebody to pay for this if she had no idea who did it.
Elizabeth saw a figure approaching. She prayed it wasn't the rapist, coming back for more. She couldn't fight him, she couldn't even move.
Liz saw that it was Luke coming. He held a clump of flowers, obviously coming to visit Lucky's grave.
AS he knelt at the tombstone, Liz tried to call out to him; but nothing came. She was hidden in the shrubbage and Luke couldn't see her. She felt so helpless as Luke touched his sons tombstone.
"Luke," she managed to rasp out, not even sure if he could hear it.
HIs head flew around, "Who's there?"
SHe managed to say his naem again an move her ahdn out into the open.
Luke walked over and saw her laying there, barely consious.
"My God, Elizabeth," he breathed, kneeling down, "What happened to you?"
She tried to answer, but the words would not come. Her eyes teared. She wasn't sure whether she couldn't talk becasue of a physical reason, or an emotional one.
"It's all right honey," Luke said soothingly, stroking her hair, "It's all right. I'm going to get you some help."
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Lucky lay on the bed, thinking about Elizabeth. How could Helena be that horrible? What went through that bitches mind?
What would motivate her to hurt an innocent girl like Elizabeth? Liz had never done anything to Helena, and it's not like Lucky was a threat to her in any way. Why put her through the torture of rape, what possible reason could there be?
Lucky wanted to be there with Elizabeth, but there was no way he could be. WHo was going to help her through this. Last time he had been pretty much the only one there for her. Deep down he guess he knew she now knew Laura now, and Nikolas would be there too. But he wanted to be there to help her, like he was before.
WOuld she be able to survive this time? It was bad enough the first time.
He was shocked when Julius walked into the room carrying somehitnf that looked like a television.
"What do you want?" Lucky asked, wondering what abd news Julius had now.
"Don't take that tone with me Mr.Spencer, I have decided to show some mercy on you. In light of this cruelty of Helena, we have decided to be kind to you. THere is a surveillance camera set up in Miss Webbers hospital room. WE have decided to let you look in on her for the duration of her stay," Julius snapped, 'THat is what this is for. It is hooked up to the camera in Port Charles."
Lucky didn't know waht to say. WHy were they being so nice? HTe only reason he could think of was that tney wanted him to understand what could happen if he disobeyed.
After Julius left, Lucky quickly turned on the monitor, dying to see a glimpse of his Elizabeth.
She lay on the hospital bed all alone. Her body seemed tiny and frail as it rested between all the mahcines. ELizabeth was covered in bruises from her head to her feet. Lucky couldn't see waht was under the gown of course, but he could imagine the bruises there.
Lucky put his hand to the monitor, wihing all the while it was her face he was stroking. When he murmered words of comfort, he wanted her to be able to hear them. He wanted to be in that hospital room with her, holding her ahdn adn making it all better.
He wanted to reassure her, take the pain away adn wipe her tears.
Dearest...
Dry your eyes now
Don't you cry
It's all right
Lie back
Leave the light on
It's all right, dear
I'll be here through the night
With you till the first signs of light
Say the word and I'll come tonight
It's all right now
Don't you cry now
Hush...Wipe your tears away
There's never a forever thing
All through the night
I'll try so hard to be there somehow
With you till the first signs of light
Say the word and I'll come
Tonight
Darling, don't you
Cry.
Lucky wiped away his own tears as he watched his beloved in pain.
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Liz lay in her hospital bed, drugged up on the medications they ahd given to her. Luke ahd brought ehr to General Hospital which was where she was right now. Luke was outside telling Bobbie how he ahd found her.
Nikolas entered the room, "What's wrong Elizabeth? I heard you were brought in."
Liz didn't want to go through this with him, not now. Best friend or not, the pain was too raw. "I was attacked in the graveyard."
"Liz," Nik said gently, "Please tell me."
Liz was too weak to hit him, so she said, "You want the details? I was visiting Lucky's grave when I was attacked from behind. He knocked me unconsious before raping me."
"I'm so sorry ELizabeth," Nik said sympathetically.
Liz shrugged, "What you going to do?" It hadn't sunk in yet, she was still numb.
Nik started to say somehting when Bobbie entered the room.
"Hello Nikolas," she said cordially, "I dodn't realize you were here."
"I was visiting Father here when I heard Liz had been brought in. Is she going to be okay?"
Bobbie smiled, "She's going to survive. Now if you wouldn't mind leaving, there's a couple things I have to talk to ELizbaeth about, alone."
Nik squeezed Liz's hand in support before leaving the room, "I'll see you later ELizabeth."
Bobbie waited for him to leave before coming to sit beside ELizbaeth.
"We did the tests," Bobbie said, "and I have some conflicting news."
She continued, "THe good news is, you tested negative for HIV. You don't have aids Elizabeth."
Liz sighed in relief, "That's great."
"Also, we have a way to ind your rapist. SInce you didn't take a shower or anyhting, there was some semen left behind. Hopefully this bastard ahs been treated here at one time one antoher so we can match it with him."
Liz sighed. AS good news as this was, she was reminded of alst time. If she hadn't taken a shower they could ahve caught ehr rapist so easily.
Bobbie turned serious, "I'm afraid there's also some bad news."
Liz looked surprised, "What is it Bobbie?"
"I'm afraid you're pregnant." Bobbie told her gently.
{AUhtors note: I know pregnancy can't be noticed that early, but..}
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Lucky was shocked as he heard the news. Liz was pregnant. He had an even stronger urge to kill Helena, and of course the bastard who actually raped her.
Not only would she ahve to deal with the horrors of hte rape, but she would be a young single mother. Lucky hoped Audrey would be more accepting of Elizabeth, God knows she was going to need somebody's help. HOw was a person supposed to support a baby and themselves on waitressing wages.
His heart ached at the thought of ehr going through this, without him. Liz had been dealt so much in her short life to deal with, none of it she deserved.
Lucky heard voices outside the door. He turned down the volume on hte monitor so he cold hear waht they were saying. It was Julius, talking to one of his henchmen.
"YOu talked to Mrs.Cassadine?" the henchman asked.
"Yes. That bitch is really a piece of work. Not that we are saints, but that womans pure evil. Do you want to know why she had that girl raped? It was just to make our jobs harder. SHe knew that with the trip coming up, and if Lucky knew of Liz's rape, he would stop at no lengths to escape us." Julius sounded disgusted.
THe henchman didn't seem all that impressed with Helena either, "HOw will you stop him from escaping. You know we can't leave him here with our imcompitent underlings while we go on the trip."
Julius sighed, "We'll do our best to gaurd him, and hope for the best. That's basically the reason for the monitor in his room, keep him happier and maybe if he' informed of her he won't feel the same desperate need to see her/"
"Aren't we giving this kid a little too much credit. After all, he's only 21, and it's been 4 years since he's done any fighhting or lock-picking."
"Never underestimate a Spencer. His aprents taught him well, that kind of training doesn't go away."
Lucky heard another man approaching. THey whispered, and Lucky could hear nothing no matter how hard he strained to hear. He didn't ahve to worry though.
"Shi!t," Julius swore, "What other bad news will we get today."
"Come on sir," the henchman replied, "it could be worse. Her being pregnant isn;t the end of the world. DOn't underestimate us. Our men will keep that kid gaurded 24 hours a day, he will never escape."
"YOu better be right," Julius warned the man.
AS lucky heard the door opening he quickly turned up the volume on the monitor and flopped on the bed. Julius walked in.
Julius looked uncomfortable, "I have some news. We're going on little trip."
"Where?" Lucky wanted to know. After seing nothing but the inside of this room for four years, he wanted to know why they were leaving.
"Unfortunately, I will not be able to disclose the location to you, but you will be joining us. All my mai men will be going with me, and I don't dare leave you alone with the rookies gaurding this place."
"Come on Julius, a big man like you afraid of a little kid like me?" Lucky taunted.
Julius motioned to a man outside the door, who brought in a suitcase. "Just decide what you want to take along. We depart 5 days from today."
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Liz was shocked, "What!"
"You're pregnant," Bobbie replied.
Liz's eyes teared, "No, you've got to be wrong. I can't be pregnant."
"I'm afraid there's no mistake Liz, you're pregnant."
LIz shook her head and said emphatically, "No, this can't be right. I can't have a baby, like this especially, I just can't!"
Bobbie sighed, "If you feel that way Liz I can give you the name of some local abortion clinics. THey are discreet and cheap. Plus this hospital had an adoption program if you choose to go that way."
Liz was appalled, "I could never do that to a baby Bobbie. I just can't believe it though. Why does a child have to come out of something so horible."
"I understand Liz," Bobbie said soothingly, "I feel for you. But this is the way it is, and no way to change it."
Liz collapsed against the pillows, "I'm going to have a baby."
Liz had another thought though, "My God, Bobbie. I'm going to have to get another job. Plus, waht if after the baby's born I can't stand to look at it? It will be a constant reminder of the rape."
Bobbie took her ahnd, "I'm not saying it will be easy Liz, but ou'll be okay. Don't think of the baby as reminder of your rape, think of your child as something good that came from somehting so horrible. You'll have to ask yourself if you can deal with this now, because that little baby deserves so much. If you can't handle it, we'll find someone who can. I don't meant to sound cruel, but these are decisions you'll have to make."
Liz's eyes watered. Bobbie said, "I'll leave you alone now? Do you want me to send Nikolas in?"
Liz shook her head, "No I just want to be alone."
AS Bobbie left, Lis wrapped her arms round ehrself. That was a lie, she didn't want to be alone rihgt now. However, the one person she wanted here was dead. Out of her life for good.
Whenever she ahd thought babies before, she had automatically included Lucky in that picture. Now, here she was. Pregnant, unmarried and getting to somewhere near poverty. RIght now, it seemed the actual rape was on the back burner. This pregnancy was the first and foremost thing in her mind.
Her hand went automatically to the necklace with the subway token that usually always hung around her neck, only to find it was gone.
Her hands roamed hte bedspread, trying to find it. When she came to the conclusion it wasn't there, she panicked. She hadn't noticed it lying anywhere near her in the graveyard. SHe could have lost the necklace, it was her last link to Lucky. It was the sole reminder of their plans and dreams for a future together.
Liz just placed her ahdn on her neck, not knowing what to do iwth it. That necklace was like her safety blanket, now it was gone. She didn't know what to do with ehr ahnd. SHe was so used to clasping the necklace tightly in her hand.
Liz sobbed. For herself, for her baby, and for the happiness she would never know.
I never asked for this feeling,
I never thought I would fall
I never knew how I felt till the day you were gone
I was lost, I never asked for it, roses
I wasn't looking for love
Somehow I let my emotions take hold
And guess what, all at once I'm in love.
Chorus:
Oh I miss you so much, I long for your love
It scares me 'cause my heart gets so weak
That I can't even breathe
How can you take things so easily
Baby, why aren't you missin' me
Why did I act like you mattered,
It was silly of me to believe
That if I just opened my heart
Things would come naturally
Joke's on me, yeah
I did not ask for love letters
so why did you give them to me (to me)
How could I let your intentions get over me
So in love, so naive ooh baby
(Chorus)
And oh how I hate what you have done
Made me fall so deep in love
God knows you're the only one I want,
that I love, oh baby
Oh I miss you so much, year, I long for your love
I scares me 'cause my heart gets so weak (so weak)
That I can't even breathe (can't even breathe)
How can you take things so easily
Baby, why aren't you missin' me
Baby, why aren't you missin' me ooh
Baby, why aren't you missin' me.
Liz sighed. As much as Lucky was gone, adn her heart with him, she would never trade a momnet with him for anyhting. She wanted him here. How could she have a baby without him? She could never have a family without him.
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