~~Tony~~

October 6,1946 - April 7,2002

No one on the face of this earth will know the pain I suffer everyday without my beloved brother in my life. I absolutely cannot still believe I lost my baby sister first and the pain and sorrow my brother and I endured over her loss. Who would ever have believed that HE would be gone 18 months after her? The last time I saw him was in an airport saying goodbye to him after we had buried my sister. How sad! I am still so mad, I can barely stand it! Both of my siblings gone AND I AM THE OLDEST! ... how wrong is that? I feel deserted and alone. I have no one to share my memories with anymore.

My brother was the sweetest person you might ever meet. Had I only known, I would have done so many things differently. I never visited him in California, he always came east. I never got a chance to see him before he died. I will miss him for the rest of my life. My only consolation is knowing that it won't be too long before I join he and my sister and my mother.

*MY BROTHER*

My brother, "How I love you!"
are words I've said before~
But I think that you should know
I've never meant them more.

I hear the silent strength
in the gentle way you speak~
I can feel the love within
that makes you so unique.

You've always made me laugh
like no one that I know~
You re-create the child in me

that I somehow can't outgrow.

And if I see you hurting
and you need to be alone~
I'll walk away, but cry for you,
your pain is like my own.

I feel that we were lucky
to have grown up with each other~
I surely know that I was blessed
when God gave me you for a brother!


~WHAT SISTER REMEMBERS~

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