DOLCE VITA --- ep16

   

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After reading her mail, i felt as if i had juz
experienced a roller-coaster ride which almost
derailed. she had shown me the other side of her, soft
and sensitive.

For a couple of mths, i was trying to hypnotise
myself, to suppress my feelings whenever i started to
think abt her again. Perpetually i was teling myself,
she is juz one virtual character that flys and dance
in the net, but never in the real world. I became a
fugitive, escaping from my PC, escaping from the
internet and anythng that has to do wih coffe. Hide
myself behind the piles of lecture notes, behind the
crowd of pple, trying to get rid of this thought of
missing something in life.
But i failed.

I found out that its not that i dun miss her, its juz
that i had forgotten the passion that always comes
along when u r having something hanging on ur mind all
the time. its like i cannot not breath, its juz that i
had forgotten the fact that i have been breathing in
and out for the past 19 years. i can hold my breath
for a while, but not forever. 
i haf to find her.

*to be continued*