"Rufus' Twin"
By Jen
Chapter Fourteen - Ghosts Of the Past
*****
Ya sure ya wanna do this? Its only seven in the mornin.
And it might be dangerous for ya ta go alone.
Aeris smiled at Barret. Thanks for the concern, but Ill be all
right. I wont be alone anyhow, Reeve will be with me.
Barret rolled his eyes. That damn Reeve is helpless without
Cait.
Oh Barret, give the poor man some credit, Elmyra said, her robe
wrapped tightly around her as she stood in the doorway.
Barret leaned his bulk against the side of the buggy and crossed his arms.
It wasnt that he didnt like Reeve, he was simply stating a fact.
Reeve was executive material, not fighting material. Without Cait Sith, he
wasnt much in the way of protection for Aeris. He had half a mind to
go with, but he couldnt leave the shop unattended. Besides that, everyone
else had jobs they had to get to as well.
Ya ought ta go with Spike.
Aeris shook her head. You know he cant fly a chopper, Barret.
Reeves pilot is sick with the flu, and hes the only other one
that can fly me there. This is really important.
Barret scratched his head. If ya say so. Well, ya ready?
She nodded, walking forward to give Elmyra a quick, fierce hug before heading
toward the buggy. Just as she was getting in, Marlene flew out of the house
and launched herself at Barret. He caught her in his enormous arms and squeezed
her tightly.
Bye Dad! Im not going to get to see you before I have to go to
school, so I came to give you a hug an kiss goodbye.
To prove her words, she leaned back and kissed him on the cheek. Barret ruffled
her hair and then held out his other arm for Elmyra. With a smile, she moved
away from the front porch and went to him. He hugged her softly, kissed her,
and then let both of his girls go, leaning down and climbing into the
buggy.
Elmyra and Marlene moved back and began to wave, as Barret started the buggy
and backed out of the driveway he had installed. As they started onto the
road, Aeris looked back, watching as the town of Kalm faded from view, and
her mother and sister became nothing more than soft blurs.
Oh, Barret said, reaching into his pocket and pulling something
out. Myra wanted you to have this for good luck.
Aeris took it, her breath catching when she realized what it was. She reached
up and fingered her throat just above her shirt, realizing that it wasnt
there. Staring down at the thin, black chain, she smiled softly. Ifalna had
given that to her shortly before they had escaped from the Shinra building.
Cloud must have taken it off of her before lowering her into the water, she
realized. Gripping it tightly, she thanked Barret and then reached up to
place it around her neck.
Howre ya feelin? he asked gruffly, as though it was
difficult for him to do so.
Mom made you ask that, didnt she?
Barret flushed slightly and scratched the back of his neck. Well...I
do care how yer doin, but yeah.
Aeris laughed. I thought so. But Im fine.
Barret lapsed into silence, concentrating on the road. He really wasnt
much of a conversationalist anyhow. The night before, out of worry, Elmyra
had accidentally blurted out Aeris problem. She looked so stricken
after that, that he had promised not to breathe a word to Aeris that he
knew.
He hadnt really understood the Cetra very well, or what it was exactly
that they heard, but he knew Aeris was a pretty level-headed girl. If she
thought this trip was important, then it must be. Besides that, she was thirty
years old, and could make her own decisions, even if she still looked like
a young girl.
Aeris leaned her head back to rest against the seat and recalled the atmosphere
and the beauty of the Ancient city. It had been over nine years since she
had been there, but she could still picture it as though it were yesterday.
But she wondered if it would feel the same when she arrived.
Before, she had heard the voices of her ancestors swirling around her, projecting
a comforting blanket meant to protect her from harm. They had warned her
of Sephiroth, but she had kept on anyhow. She knew that if she didnt
summon Holy, that the Planet would be in danger of dying.
She honestly hadnt expected to die, though if she thought back on it,
she had known that he was near. She could sense his presence the same way
she could another Ancient. The Jenova cells in him called out to her in dark
voices, trying to seduce her away from her goal and into the hands of danger.
But with the help of the Cetra that had come before, she had managed to ignore
her longtime nemesis and bring hope while kneeling on the altar.
At the cost of her life, she had helped to save the Planet. But looking at
all of her friends, so happy and full of life, she knew that it was worth
it. Though she would have liked to have been here with them the last nine
years, sharing their joy and their pain, she knew that it wasnt meant
to be.
Ya know what time yer gonna be back? Barret asked.
Aeris shook her head. Im not sure. Please tell mom not to worry.
Ill be fine. It might end up taking nearly all day though.
Knowing Myra, shell worry.
Aeris smiled, watching as the enormous shape of Midgar came into view. From
here, she would have to enter the city herself, since Barrets buggy
wasnt licensed to drive there. But with the way things were so crowded,
it was just as well that everyone went by foot.
Pulling up as close as he was allowed, Barret leaned over and gave her a
piercing look. Ya be careful. And I hope ya find what yer lookin
for.
Thanks Barret, Aeris said, and leaned over and hugged him on
impulse.
Barret started when he felt her slender arms go around his neck, but he recovered
soon enough and hugged her so hard, he nearly cracked her ribs.
Pulling away, Aeris smiled again and said, Thanks.
Barret nodded, and watched as she climbed from the buggy and entered the
gate to sector one.
*****
She awoke with a start, lifting her head and looking about frantically. The
room was dark, save for the green and red lights on the machine next to her
bed. Her arms and her legs were held down by some kind of restraints, and
she found that she couldnt move, nor attempt to break them.
The small, thin tube was running from her arm to the lighted machine again,
and it glowed a faint neon green. She shifted slightly, and then winced as
pain radiated up her whole right side. They had been poking her with needles
again, and the strange looking instruments for which she had no name.
Closing her eyes, she bit back a sob and then blinked rapidly as tears slipped
from her eyes and ran down her face. She wanted so very much to be away from
here. It seemed the more time she spent here, the less she remembered of
her life before. Her life now, consisted of machines, tubes, and pristine
white rooms with the antiseptic smell of the hospital. Except, this was no
hospital, and he was no doctor.
All at once, the lights flickered on, and she closed her eyes tightly, trying
to stave off the sting. She was in the dark for long periods of time, and
any form of light after that caused her eyes to ache severely. When the pain
subsided enough for her to open them, she found herself staring at the back
of a white labcoat. Trailing her eyes up further, she found what she had
dreaded. They fell on a long, black ponytail, pulled haphazardly together
so that wisps of hair lay like strings against his back.
No more tests, she managed weakly, through dry, cracked lips.
He made no move that he had heard her, but simply continued to prepare the
shot in front of him. She watched with growing trepidation, and even though
she knew it was futile, she struggled against the restraints. Already, she
had rubbed her wrists and ankles raw. Crying out softly in pain, she lifted
her head as far as she could and tried to see what it was he was working
with.
Youll only harm yourself more if you struggle, he said
mildly.
No more tests. Please, no more tests, she pleaded, tears stinging
her eyes and slipping down her cheeks once again.
The tests are necessary, you know that, he replied calmly.
No! she screamed. No! I want to go home! I want to go back
to my Mother and my Father! I wasnt doing anything wrong! I was selling
my fruits, thats all. I didnt deserve this. I dont deserve
this. I hate you, I hate you! she whimpered.
He turned and smiled at her in approval. So strong, even after Ive
tried again and again to beat you down. Its good. It means you will
get to be part of the glory when it is time. But if you prove me wrong, you
will be discarded along with the rest, he added, his smile fading to
be replaced by a hard, cold expression.
She wast sure what being discarded meant, but she had a fairly good
idea that it might be death. Death would have been preferable to this torture,
if she were the kind to give up. But the will to fight was too strong, and
she wasnt going to let this man see her break. She still harbored the
hope that she would be able to escape.
He moved toward her, the needle held high in one hand. She didnt know
what was in it, and she didnt want to know. He and his assistants had
already given her so many shots now, that she had lost count. And asking
what they contained was futile. They wouldnt tell her.
He slipped the needle into the skin of her arm, and depressed the top. She
bit her lip to keep from crying out in pain. The liquid that was within the
cylinder burned as it was pumped not her veins. As it spread further, her
whole right side felt as though it were on fire. Closing her eyes, she felt
herself wavering in and out of consciousness. She hoped that darkness would
claim her, but fate wasnt that kind.
Finally, after the burning sensation spread to her throat, she screamed aloud,
pulling herself up and struggling against her restraints. It was strange,
but her fists were somehow free and they struck at the solid form that held
her down.
It is all right. Stop struggling, it was nothing but a nightmare. You
are safe now, a calm voice whispered in her ear.
Safe? At first she didnt believe him, and continued to push
away. But something cold clamped down on her wrists and held them tightly
together. Her eyes flew open, and she found herself staring into two blood
red orbs. Her heart leapt into her throat and throbbed there painfully, until
she realized that they were only eyes and that they belonged to Vincent.
I know, I am not a pleasant sight to wake up to after a
nightmare.
Her mouth fell open, but no words came out. She wondered if he was making
a jest, or if he was serious. His claw, which had been keeping her fists
from harming him any farther, let go of her wrists and fell to his side.
She found that his hand was wrapped around her waist, and that he was close
enough for her to smell the faint scent of peppermint. Odd, but that was
not something she had ever expected to associate with him.
Beneath that, was a darker smell, a masculine smell. One that she knew was
his, and his alone. Instead of frightening her, or repulsing her, it caused
a faint tingling sensation at the back of her neck. Without thinking, she
reached back and rubbed there.
Are you hurt? he asked, not even a flicker of emotion crossing
his face.
She shook her head, but her dreamed returned with vivid clarity, and she
knew it was another memory. There had been so much pain in that nightmare,
that it had felt real. She had to resist the urge to look at her wrists and
ankles just to see if there were marks.
Vincent watched the myriad of emotions crossing her face. She was so expressive,
and to someone who was used to looking for signs of another persons
thoughts in their eyes and face, she was open for him to read easily. He
wasnt certain of the nightmare she had, had, but when her screams had
woken him, he had come to her room to find her thrashing in her bed, her
face twisted up in such a look of intense agony, that he had felt the immediate
need to soothe her. The only way he knew to do that, was to awaken her. Though
he knew she wasnt afraid of him, her expression upon awakening had
most certainly been one of fright. And for a brief second, it had bothered
him, until he remembered it was better for her to think him a monster.
He sat on the edge of her bed now, her small from tucked safely between his
knees and almost resting against his chest. Her blows earlier hadnt
hurt him, but they had startled him in their urgency. It was as though she
were trying to escape from the very devil himself. She had been putting all
of her strength behind each strike of her fist, and the look on her face
was frantic with the need to get away from whatever it was that was holding
her down.
It reminded him of the time when he had felt the same.
It was dark. And if it were at all possible, he was freezing and burning
up all at once. His lids felt too heavy to move, so he couldnt use
his eyes to discern his surroundings. As he struggled weakly to move his
arms and legs, he realized they were being held down my something.
The air around him was musty and stale, the scent of old books in the air.
He had spent a great deal of time in the extensive libraries of Shinra, so
he could identify that smell easily enough. The others were sharp, and tangy,
almost antiseptic in the way they invaded his nostrils and increased his
grogginess. He knew he was in the basement of the Nibelheim mansion, and
the reasons why rushed back to him with vivid clarity.
He had come down here to confront Hojo. Though it hurt him deeply, he had
respected Lucrecias wish to marry Hojo and become his wife in more
than name only. As the months drug on, he realized that she was pregnant
with Hojos child. Just recently, he had overheard she and Hojo discussing
plans when they thought he wasnt listening. It appeared that Hojo wanted
to inject her with some kind of cells, even knowing that it might kill her
and the baby.
Meekly, she had agreed, and then brushed past his hiding spot, to walk from
the room, her head bent low. It seemed that impending motherhood should be
something she wore like a badge of honor, something that left her skin glowing
and her eyes sparkling. But each day, she only seemed to grow more distant,
until he thought she would simply fade away.
He had followed her to the inn, and tried to talk to her, but she had refused
to see him. He stood at the door for a long time, just listening to her softly
pace the floor. He knew that he could break down the door and force her to
talk to him if he wanted to, but he couldnt treat her that way. He
cared for her too much. So instead, he had stood there, hoping that she would
relent and let him in, even though a part of him knew she wouldnt.
After some time had passed, he heard a crash and a cry. Turning, he grasped
the knob and wrenched it. But she had locked it, and he couldnt get
in. Pounding furiously on it, he called, Lucrecia?! Are you all right?!
Open up!
Go away, Vincent. I dont want you to see my like this.
Was that her voice, so drained and meek? Anger rose up in him, ripe and hot,
erasing all his usual composure and cool. If this was what Hojo did to what
he claimed to love, then he had a lot to learn. And because she had asked
him to leave her, he would. But he would go straight to Hojo and force the
bastard to leave her. No matter what Lucrecia thought, Vincent planned to
take her far away from Hojo, so that he could never find her to harm again.
What... a fool... I was... he muttered aloud, a bitter laugh
escaping his lips. Should... have known... better...
He had rushed through the mansion so quickly, that the scenery had been a
blur. His one goal had been to reach the basement and Hojo. With each step
he had taken, his fury had burned brighter, and he could all but feel
Hojos scrawny neck between his hands, could almost see his eyes bulge
with fear, and could imagine the way that he would struggle as his life ebbed
away.
Vincent, Hojo had said, as he walked in, almost as if the man
had expected him.
What have you done to Lucrecia, Hojo? he demanded.
Hojo had smiled then, and odd, twisted smile, his eyes bright and alive with
some secret knowledge. Now, Vincent knew he should have been wary, but at
the time, anger and concern for Lucrecia had caused all instincts to flee.
So when Hojo raised the gun and fired, catching Vincent just below the joint
in his left elbow, he had been unprepared. Collapsing to his knees in pain,
he wrapped his hand around the wound and stared up at Hojo in hatred.
It doesnt matter what you do now, Vincent, Hojo had told
him, I have won.
Vincents hand left his wound and closed around the butt of his gun,
but Hojo raised his and fired again. There was a sharp flash of pain, and
then thankfully, blackness.
He had no idea how long he had been out since then, his disorientation destroying
all hopes of regaining his bearings or a sense of equilibrium. He didnt
know if it was night, day, or even months from the moment Hojo had shot him.
For all he knew, Hojo had left him alone in the basement to die a terrible
death from starvation.
Youre awake, Vincent, dont try to deny it. Youre
breathing isnt as even as it was before.
Hojo! he hissed, ashamed when it came out as a mere squeak.
Hojo laughed. What? Did you think I had left you? No, no, Vincent.
Death is too great for you. I want you alive and suffering an endless torture.
I want you remembering every year of your miserable life how she chose me
over you. You are pathetic, weak, and only half a man. I dont ever
want you to forget that.
Vincent again struggled weakly against his restraints, the need to strike
out at Hojo far greater than the need to keep himself from any further pain.
But it was useless, and Hojos laugh as he moved closer to him proved
that. He wished that he was strong enough to at least open his eyes, for
he wanted Hojo to see the hate burning there like acid, and wanted the other
man to feel the searing heat of his gaze.
When you awaken Vincent, nothing will be as it was. You will be a monster,
a freak, and no one will ever want you, least of all your precious Lucrecia.
That is... if you ever awaken, he added harshly.
For you see, I plan to give you the ultimate punishment. A life condemned
to hellish nightmares, and remembrance of your failure. Youll be locked
within a prison of your own making. And it wont even take me to put
you there, he said, laughing.
Visions of darkness and dreams of Lucrecia as she had looked when she rejected
his proposal for Hojos, rose up and threatened to choke them with their
vividness. An inhuman wail rose from his throat and he battled against the
restraints, not caring when they tore into his flesh and cut nearly to the
bone. All he cared about was getting away from the sense of emptiness within
and Hojos triumphant laughter.
But the ghosts of the past didnt show in his eyes as he looked down
at Morgan, noting that a bit more color had returned to her cheeks and that
she was no longer struggling to breath. Instead, she was staring at him with
her clear, green eyes, as though she were trying to see deeper into his.
He nearly warned her to give up her efforts, for she didnt want to
see into the dark reaches, where he kept all of his pain and his rage hidden.
It was something he had to keep a tight reign on, so that he wouldnt
change. The last thing he wanted to do, even in his quest to keep
her wary of him, was to frighten her with his inner demons.
In a move that was as unlike him as it was motherly, he reached up and smoothed
her damp hair away from her forehead. Then realizing that he still held her
in his arms, he gently moved her away and lay her back against her pillows.
All the while, she said nothing, only stared up at him. Though he knew there
was strength in her, she seemed so young and fragile, even more delicate
than Lucrecia had appeared to him. Lucrecia, who had bonded with science,
and who had been as untouched and as pure as the lifestream.
Are you hungry? he asked.
She touched her stomach as if she needed to test the question, and then nodded,
rising to a sitting position. Vincent rose suddenly, and left the room, to
return moments later with a clean set of clothing.
I picked these up yesterday. I hope that they are your size. While
you clean up and change, I will fix you something to eat, he told her,
setting the articles at her feet.
Thank you, she told him, getting only a brief nod in return before
he turned and exited the room, leaving peppermint in his wake.
Until then, thanks for reading!