Closed Gates
There are times I just can't see
What the others mean to me.
My friends, my foes, my loves, my hates
They get pushed out my self-made gates.
Through the curtians I seem to spy
Them creeping up like samauri
TO take my dreams, to kill my heart
To pull my sanity apart
To push me down upon my knees
Expose my vulnerabilities.
I hide my cracks, I hide my flaws
Behind my nails, my swiping claws.
Afraid of life, I hide down low
Closing my eyes of indigo
Against the world. I tend to fight
Reality with all my might.
Worlds so dear I always make -
A glass-cut stone, a pretty fake.
From the others, I do hide here
Afraid, always, to let them near.
Sometimes they cannot see, I know
How much I truly love them so.
How I long to let them see
The secrets deep inside of me.
Touch me slowly, learn my mind
I will try to respond in kind.
With time, with love, with patience long,
You'll understand my secret song.
I'll sing my melody so sweet
And if with harmony you'll meet -
A magic song of lovers true
I'll breathe my music into you.
--Amanda
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