August17th, 1999

August 20th...*sighs* Brian is gone. I was hoping that maybe he cared about me too much to be able to forget about me but I guess not. I guess it was too much to hope for. I haven't talked to him in over two weeks and everyday seems like an eternity but I think I am doing a good job of hiding it. I have been trying to keep myself busy and constantly moving because I know that once I have some free time I will start to realize how much I miss having that ickle stringbean around lol.
I am signing my life away for the next five years. I am going car shopping tomorrow which means....CAR PAYMENTS!!!! Oh nOOoooO lol Scary thought yeah? I went to the salvage yard today to get my check for Bonnie, aka my old car, and when I was leaving I started bawling. It was horrible. I get way too attached to things...but I am not going to think about that now.
Right now, I am looking at a 1998 Mitshubishi Eclispe. It is well nice looking but I don't know if that is what I will end up getting...I have always been a Mustang kinda gal lol. I don't know what I am going to get but I WILL have a new car by this time tomorrow daggonit! hehehe



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