Sunlight comes through the windows to my bed . "What a sunny day !" I think . I look at the clock on my desk , it's 6:00a.m. only but I don't want to sleep anymore . Something make me can't sleep well . When I close my eye , I will see Fujima and I will think about the things that Hanagata told me yesterday . Actually , I have a little bit worry about Fujima ...
"Good morning , everyone ! " I shout .
"Good morning !"
Everyone are fine today , I am sure their performance will be very good today . "Keep on , everybody . Be the champion in Kanagawa !!" I don't know why I say such thing . "Of course , we are the strongest !!"
All of us laugh , except him , except Kenji Fujima . He seems so serious , he even doesn't say anything this morning .
In the train , I look at the scenery out of the window but I can't keep calm , I am apprehended ...
Anyway , we have arrived the hall and then we went to our restroom . 20 minutes , after 20 minutes , our first match of IH will start . "Let's go ! Everybody !" Fujima shouts . "OK !!"
Team Shohoku has been there , they seems strong . When we walk into the hall , we can hear our schoolmates' voice , "Go ! Go ! Shoyo . We are the best !"
Finally , the game seems to start in short while but Fujima still sits here , why ? "Listen , Shohoku is strong but we are stronger . We will be the champion of Kanagawa this year , understand ?" Fujima said . Hanagata looks at Fujima and said : " OK , please believe us , please admire our performance la !"
Everyone's performance is good , I think their performance is even better than Shohoku members but there are many factors that affect the result of the competition . Maybe these factors in favour for Shohoku , we lose the game . I can't believe the truth , really can't . Except from the sadness to all the members , I feel apprehension for Fujima. Almost all the members are crying to accept this unkindly result . Fujima cries also ...
"Why ?..." I ask . It is unfair , they devote themselves fully to the competition , especially Fujima . He commits himself to basketball . Fujima doesn't say anything and does not willing to talk to the others ...
I can't help myself anymore , I wanna to cry . "Am , I go out to buy some drinks for you ..." I just walk out the room and my tear drops falling on the ground . After quite a long period of time , until I am able to control my emotion , I take the drinks back to the room .
"Please give me a can of Coca-Cola , I am thirsty ..." Hanagata said . "Fujima , do you want one ? " He asks . No response , Kenji keep on isolating himself to the others .
I take the drinks in front of Fujima "Ah , there are Coca-Cola , 7UP , Coffee ...etc , which one do you want ... " I ask .
Finally , the quiet breaks . "I don't want anything , please let me thinking !! I hate such a bothersome girl ! " Fujima scolds at me .
What ? Bothersome girl ? Me ? Maybe it is true , I am so troublesome ? I feel that there are something on my face , the tear drops is falling out of my control . I have never thought that I would cry before so many people . I pick up all my belongings , "... I want ... want ... to go home first . "
I run out the hall and keep on running . Running through the school , the park ,finally , I stop in front of a shop . I see myself in the mirror . So poor you are , you are just the one who brings only trouble to the others , why should you stay in the world ? There are no more space for your existence !
Yes , what is my meaning of life ? I ask myself . No , I don't think that my life is meaningful .At least , I don't have any contribution to the others . No one like me in the world , including my parents .
They always tell me that what they have done for me so that I have to understand their difficulties to spend more time to me . But what I want to say is that I don't need any good enjoyments !
I walk on the street , the leaves fall down . I am attracted by the scenery . "Such a beautiful scenery" someone said . "Yeah !" I reply .
"You ran away suddenly , we are worrying about you ... we decide to have our dinner in the Kiyota Restaurant tonight , they are waiting in the restaurant la ." Hanagata tells me .
"Why do you telling me that ? I won't go there . " I reply . He looks at me for a while , "I know why , because of the incident of this morning . What Fujima said isn't true , in fact ..."
"You don't need to say anything , you want to say that he doesn't hate me , huh ? Thank you for your lie but I don't want to anger him anymore so that I don't go there la . Believe me , I am ' all right . " I tell Hanagata .
"Then you go home early , it is dangerous for a girl walking alone in the street at night , see you tomorrow , sayonara !"
"Thank you , bye bye ." I say goodbye to him .
I look at my watch , it's 6:30 p.m. I then go to the McDonald to have my dinner . After having the dinner , I sit in the restaurant for one and a half hour before going home .
When I decide to go home , I observe that the weather is not so good . "Ah... I forgot to bring my umbrella this morning ... " I look at the sky .
But what can I do then ? Staying in the restaurant ? No , of course not . I take my bag and begin running to my house . I don't know that the way to home is so long until this moment .
The water drops begin falling , I rum as fast as I can . Consequently , someone is hit because of my careless .