JULY 2001
Summary from the 12th to the 31st
-ok..if u actually do come often 2 my page and read my stuff....u kno i gotten lazy again....so here's a summary from the last time when i updated till now.....BTW..if u don't kno...my mom and sis are back already...bummers...my sis got a lip ring by the way.....
-ok....here we go...WEMF wkend.....if u didn't know the wk b/4 WEMF(world electronic music festival...aka 3 day 2 nite camp rave thing), i called in sick twice..once on monday and then on wednesday...well monday i could've went but on the wkend, we played at my frd's place w/ a BIG group of ppl (so fun!) so on monday i was still tired...so i went..nah...not going...then wednesday i was REALLY sick and didn't go....and friday i had to leave early for WEMF...so i was inched by ppl at work how i got a good wk....anyhow...i couldn't really concentrate...2 excited for WEMf......so we left T.O. around 7-ish.....big traffic jam...got lost....since the damn map was actually like a scavenger hunt map more...w/ insturctions instead of directions.....made it there b/c of well...me...(haha!)...it was 10-11-ish now.....guess what.....road to parking blocked off by the OPP (yah..u know me...hm...this was a joke from lining up)...so got out of car....walked in PURE DARKNESS (i'm telling u...we should've brought a flashlight JIMMY) for half an hour (the road looked like this 
......couldn't see ANYTHING nevertheless to FIND ppl....so talked loudly in cantonese and HEY....we found the rest of the group!...walked by to the car.....had 2 go 2 the washroom SO BAD......so what 2 do when there AREN'T no WASHROOM?(i'll let your imagination run wild on dis one....so did i go? or didn't i go?)...waiting and waiting....hey....the police not blocking anymore....parked in the FIELD for TWENTY BUCKS....then had to join the rest of grp thats lining up now......yes walk back the 1.5 KM road now WITH ALL OUR STUFF...thats coolers, sleeping bags, luggage and so on.....it was very heavy....anyways...finally got there..bud in 2 join our group...this was how the line up look like: 
....we were on teh inside on the line up.....so very crowded with all our stuff....and guess what...we waited 5 FUCKING HOURS!!!!!!!!!!! yes we got in at 5 in the morning...and i was the first to get in b/c i kept on budding up.....i can hardly wait in parties normally when line up longer than half an hour....but this fuckin' line up was a test of my patience i'm telling u.....now lining up for anything isn't really that long anymore....y so long?? they had 4 ppl...searching at a time..when 3000+ waiting outside....makes sense? i didn't think so...but after i got thru that gate that separates the outside and in...it was a different world.....i was the first 2 get in so i ended up waiting for my frds for half an hour at least inside...but is different when u're not lining up......anyhow....first nite wasted....we should've just got the 2day tickets..cheaper 2....we wanted 2 go 3day b/c some headliners are on fri nite.. but of coz we missed it.....my RAY KEITH and SKIBA!!!!! so we set up tent....walked around a bit then i was so tired i had 2 sleep.....(btw...our tent was a 10ppl tent..my frds were laffing @ my tent b/4 we went but we got so many compliments on it...coz is so big and roomy)anyhow..our location...RITE besides happy hardcore tent...near jungle, psychedlic trance and teckno tents.....so when i slept..it was VERY loud and i can feel the bass thumping PLUS ppl building a tent RITE beside us aka laffing/talking/hammering...but i slept for 2 hours......then got up only coz our tent became a steamed oven....
so our little cycle began....prepared food, sat down, ate, smoke, watch ppl walk back and forth....we much hv repeated this cycle at least 3 times when the storm arrived......how the tent still stood after 2 hours of a thunderstorm and only leak a little day after is still mind puzzling 2 me.....storm finally stopped b/c of my teru-teru-botsu doll(hehehe)....went out and found others....musik started....partytime.....only cut short coz i threw up 3 million times....then k holed 3 million times......then found out i didn't hv energy 2 dance....so hid in someone else's tent.....then morning dawned...jungle tent is the best..time 2 go.....pack up.....hauled the heavy stuff back out the 1.5 KM road...got in car and left....talked all the way home....dunno y i always hv som much htings 2 say after i high.....hm...and thats my summary of WEMF....it was a memorable experience that i'll nvr 4get....
-my frd, janet came and gone.....going 2 miss her..it was so fun w/ her here...
-another frd going back 2 hk for good...my high skool frd nancy.....it was hard not 2 cry at WEMf but i didn't wanna make WEMf a sad thing....i'm gonna miss u 2....
-i'm seriously considering going back to hk...but there's so much things 2 worry about like the most important one...can i adjust to HK style living after all these years in canada?????? but my future in canada is looking grim..i'm getting so lonely..everyone leaving me.....*sigh*
-around 6 years ago i was unhappy most of the time..and one of the thing i used 2 do alot is cry in bed....i hvn't done this for awhile..and lately i'm starting 2 again
-should i be happy to see that maybe you hv changed? or should i be sad that i wasn't the one to change u?...but did u really change is my question
-the wkend after WEMf i acutally stayed home on sat and sun nite..havn't done that for awhile....talked 3+ hours on long d on sat nite....is how funny we don't talk often but once we talk we hv so much things 2 say....and dunno y w/ other ppl i get scared that i've nothing 2 say when i hvn't been talking to them for awhile....but w/ u i don't hv that feeling....
-u kno how chinese ppl say good ppl get good outcomes?? how come is not true? i mean....all the ppl that've hurt me in the past...all hv good outcomes..but me...the one that did nothing 2 ppl gets shit loads happening....what did i do wrong 2 deserve it? Fate is working in a funny way...and its pushing me towards that line where i'm just about to hv it and go start hurtin' others 2 get my way soon
11th
- a week and couple of days..WEMF...3 day rave camp...shit...i'm kinda getting scared of this....dunno y.....just scared of being dirty and stuff fwah..i dunno....but anyways...i'm gonna quit raves after this.....yah i kno i've said it millions of time but i'm really gonna try this time....but the thing i'm scared of most after quitting....is that i'll be bored....and prolly have no friends....but i hv 2 quit...coz is not good for me....and i'm wasting 2 much $$ on it...
-just a thought....if i died in my house now...probably no one will notice except ppl at work....i mean..no one's at home....rarely ppl call....isn't that sad?? i can die and i won't be missed.....sigh....i think this can get anyone depressed
-dunno y ...lately i luv going 2 the supermarket....but i hv all this food in my house and no one eats it..just sits in the fridge....i go out and buy(coz it looks good) but i don't eat it...hm..so if u wanna help me clean my house of food that is....come over..
-i thought i would be partying like crazy when my mom is not here...but i'm staying home more than going out when she's here...maybe i just like to stay home when she's not around...so she can't nag at me...
-someone said this to me b/4.....when they saw me smoking....the person said it hurts to see me smoke...since they knew me for so long and i was a good girl b/4...i didn't think anything of it b/4...but now thinking back...i nvr knew ppl cared like that about me....
- ok...don't say i didn't tell u guys...if u read this in time...BIG SALE..and i mean mega sale at XXXY across from the eaton centre.....closing sale...50% off all inventory...and i'm talking about Triple 5 Soul, Diesel, DKNY and so on....i got my Triple 5 soul hoodie...originally priced $115...now i got it for $46 including tax and stuff....so there...i anounced it...ppl don't bug me when i tell u i bought cheap stuff and u guys complain i didn't tell u 2 go...alrite?
-just watched tv..talking about those 2 lai's in china...damn..they wake up late everyday then eat then shopping or play mj and then go 2 k or disco.....fuck....that's the life i want!!! maybe i should start acting dumb and actually be nice 2 guys......but that's so LOW...i don't stoop that low for money....i mean rely on a guy..ha...that'll be the day....yeah...i'm becoming more and more anti-male.....nvr trust a guy..they just screw u over
10th
-i definitely have gain weight since last summer..this dress i had last summer was kind lose on me..now it fits perfect......dunno if its good or bad...
-but i guess is ok....can u believe there are actually ppl out there who wants to be anorexic?..i got this email with these pics and is so disgusting....and these pics were from a club kinda thing.....scary how ppl who wants to look like this:
i wanna be thin but not like this...i remember at the beginning of yr 2000 i was so skinny that u can see my ribs ...and i thought that was disgusting...yah yah i kno i'm contradicting myself when i say i'm fat and all...
-i saw scary movie 2....not as good as first one..but still pretty funny i thought...i like the part when the marijauna monster rolled shortie into a joint and smoked him..haha....
-fuckin' c lai at commerce gate stole my fuckin' parking spot...fuck was i pissed off....she's lucky i was wearing a dress...otherwise i would've gotten out of the car and swore at her....i didn't coz i was wearing a dress....i hv 2 act "c mun" mah...notice the word...ACT...
9th
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bummers...back 2 work 2day......well at least i was early......
8th
-happy
b-day 2 my frd, gokou.....hope your wishes come true!! hm...lets
say somethin' sentimental here....we're not as tight as b/4 but
nevertheless i still think of u as one of my good
friends.....when u hv time...call me out lah...i kno your
busy....w/ your girl and all.....anyways....hope u hv a really
good b-day...what u want 4 present? and HEY where's
mine?????hehehe
First
wk of July
-oh
my NY trip is sooooo good......there's lots of stories....here's
an example.....shopping for cigarettes, we got ditched by our
tour guide......i had 2 call him 2 diu him......took tax to 5th
ave by ourselves=>taxi driver is satan worshipper?!?!.....we did our own tour thing==>subway(is so
dirty!), maps, soho, back to NJ via train....soho was the
best.....thundershower/got wet......vivienne westwood
store=>keep the change, Bar 89....see through washroom doors/
20%tip?!?!?!?!...can smoke and eat!!......Times
Square..........breakers on street........rushing to board train
at Penn Station then almost falling down the escalator coz is
going the wrong way!!!!........waking up at 6:24AM when the bus
suppose to leave at 6:30AM====> 4 ppl gettin ready and out the
hotel room in 8 min.........tour guide acting like a "dead
dog" in front of us.......smuggling cigarettes.......THIS TRIP WAS SOOOOOOO
FUN!!!!!!!!
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back in toronto........time 2 relax and sleep......
-since
my mom is gone..i've moved into my frd's house.....so fun........
-kinda
like living on my own shit.......
-oh
if u didn't kno..my comp has virus...i think i mentioned
b/4.....so yah...send me an icq msg...coz i prolly don't hv u on
my list......
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......couldn't see ANYTHING nevertheless to FIND ppl....so talked loudly in cantonese and HEY....we found the rest of the group!...walked by to the car.....had 2 go 2 the washroom SO BAD......so what 2 do when there AREN'T no WASHROOM?(i'll let your imagination run wild on dis one....so did i go? or didn't i go?)...waiting and waiting....hey....the police not blocking anymore....parked in the FIELD for TWENTY BUCKS....then had to join the rest of grp thats lining up now......yes walk back the 1.5 KM road now WITH ALL OUR STUFF...thats coolers, sleeping bags, luggage and so on.....it was very heavy....anyways...finally got there..bud in 2 join our group...this was how the line up look like: 
....we were on teh inside on the line up.....so very crowded with all our stuff....and guess what...we waited 5 FUCKING HOURS!!!!!!!!!!! yes we got in at 5 in the morning...and i was the first to get in b/c i kept on budding up.....i can hardly wait in parties normally when line up longer than half an hour....but this fuckin' line up was a test of my patience i'm telling u.....now lining up for anything isn't really that long anymore....y so long?? they had 4 ppl...searching at a time..when 3000+ waiting outside....makes sense? i didn't think so...but after i got thru that gate that separates the outside and in...it was a different world.....i was the first 2 get in so i ended up waiting for my frds for half an hour at least inside...but is different when u're not lining up......anyhow....first nite wasted....we should've just got the 2day tickets..cheaper 2....we wanted 2 go 3day b/c some headliners are on fri nite.. but of coz we missed it.....my RAY KEITH and SKIBA!!!!! so we set up tent....walked around a bit then i was so tired i had 2 sleep.....(btw...our tent was a 10ppl tent..my frds were laffing @ my tent b/4 we went but we got so many compliments on it...coz is so big and roomy)anyhow..our location...RITE besides happy hardcore tent...near jungle, psychedlic trance and teckno tents.....so when i slept..it was VERY loud and i can feel the bass thumping PLUS ppl building a tent RITE beside us aka laffing/talking/hammering...but i slept for 2 hours......then got up only coz our tent became a steamed oven....
so our little cycle began....prepared food, sat down, ate, smoke, watch ppl walk back and forth....we much hv repeated this cycle at least 3 times when the storm arrived......how the tent still stood after 2 hours of a thunderstorm and only leak a little day after is still mind puzzling 2 me.....storm finally stopped b/c of my teru-teru-botsu doll(hehehe)....went out and found others....musik started....partytime.....only cut short coz i threw up 3 million times....then k holed 3 million times......then found out i didn't hv energy 2 dance....so hid in someone else's tent.....then morning dawned...jungle tent is the best..time 2 go.....pack up.....hauled the heavy stuff back out the 1.5 KM road...got in car and left....talked all the way home....dunno y i always hv som much htings 2 say after i high.....hm...and thats my summary of WEMF....it was a memorable experience that i'll nvr 4get....