Name: JuLiE Nicknames: LaMbChOpS, JuL, JuLez, *sAiLoR-VeNuS*, just CaLL me whatever you want. AIM Screen Names: AznBeBi823, dRaGoNBeBi29 Location: ~aLL 'bOuT tHe BaYaReA, WeStCoAsT~ fRiScO, CaLi ~4~1~5~ !!BaBy!!
DOB: 1st mOntH oF tHe YeaR **AqUaRiUs** ~!~*c/o 2001*~!~ Height: 5'4 Weight: 107 lbs. Marital Status: *~Do yOu wAnnA LoVe meEh?~* Occupation: FuLLtime student @ RaouL WaLLenberg TraditionaL High School Hobbies: meeh LiKe ceRtaiN stuFFs, JuSt name ne*thing and i'LL let ya KnOw, OkiE DokiE?
Did You Love Me?
If you had love me, you would not have left it the way, as if it were all meant to be. If you had care, you would not have walked off, without a reassuring stare. If what I felt mattered, you would not have kept me out there when my heart shattered. With or without me, did it matter to you? Bluntly, I stand tall, next to you, hoping I wouldn't fall. Listening to all words, even to those that were literally un-heard. Standing there, hoping today is the day. Thinking that he will know, that he will find out. What I am doing is worth it, without a doubt. Yep, today will be the day, where he will know. Then our love will be, as it once was, with a golden glow.
If You Didn't Walk Away, maybe..
Along the shore, looking across the clear blue sea. Love is grand, how is it here, that I come to be? Chasing one's lie up until the last. I'll take a step, will I fall in fast? Searching, as darkness falls. In his eyes, stretching far and beyond eerie stars. Where are you? Where am I? Pulling me with trust, am I left here to die? He stayed awhile and waited. Not knowing that I am there, standing in the rain. Looked into his eyes, where I was not seen. As his sight shuts with despair, having no knowledge of me awaiting afar. Departing slowly with a sigh. Darling, please don't leave. If only, you'd open your senses, then you would have sought. I've been here all along. With a feeling, greater than what you would've thought. But you didn't see it, and now you are gone. In darkness I will stay. Maybe next time, you will see when you come along your way.
~ A Blink GooD-ByE ~
Would you be true with full honesty? Won't you make sure that I feel and know you are and will always be near? That this feeling is no lie, that it is there true and strong...? Or maybe, I must have been wrong. For you are the one that does not talk. Drowning yourself behind bricks, like barriers locking everyone out. If you are true to me and care about me, would you have not taken me into your barriers, into your thoughts and into your arms? How can it be that one step can cause such pain? With one touch causing such flame? Leaving a mark without a word. As if they were the last whispers I will ever hear. Blinking away tears, walking away with a sigh. Feeling as if another step, will be, forever good-bye.
~ * Lost Touch In The Mist * ~
Deep in a dream, I thought I saw him. Heaving along, with emotions, greater than what I ever longed. Countless nights, hearing his voice, talking so very often. A day of depression, just one touch, causing my heart to soften. Looking up into an open sky, just staring off, wishing, where will this all lie. Then a star, with a glistening shine, comes into my very sight. Darling, where are you? You've already played a part in my soul. That night, we were intertwined in each other's arms, as we danced. The evening was great next to a devouring lake. It was as if we were floating on clouds, beneathe the stars with nothing else, but charms. Engulfed by your breath-taking stares, heart skipping twice it's beat, with no hate nor fear. A dream, so great, yet a life, so empty. Wondering, can that ever be me? Even though, you're someone, present in my dreams, one day, you'll come along, not a phase, but very true. As for now, wishing upon a star, I'll see him, and it won't be just dreams, from afar.
...Can You?...
Can you keep a promise of a love with no despair? Giving me a feeling that you will always care? Hearing you say "I Love You" seems so empty and cold. Can I really believe your words when I am shivering in folds? How can it be, that yesterday's kiss, happened to be our very last? Everything is over, with one tick in the hour-glass. Leaving a trail of heartbeats crowding in a line. Waiting, one by one, to use in a target-practice, ready to die. Mend my broken-heart, as you had once said. Yet all there is, is leaving this open soul unfed. Marking every footstep, with endless kisses. Now you tell me, that it was just a game we played and about me, you didn't feel that way. Departing with blows of cold mist, letting me know, it never existed.
