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I've always known that I was different, even from an early age. One of the first things I remember is that I was attracted to both boys and girls. I had crushes on my male high school teachers as well as the female ones. I know it is common for young girls to have these crushes on female teachers, but mine lasted long after the crushes my friends had. We all discovered boys around the same time but I always wondered what it was like to kiss boys and girls! When I was 14 I experimented with another 14 year old girl. We kissed and touched each other, and we denied our attraction to each other saying that we were "practicing" for being with boys!As I got older I tried to deny thsse feelings, even though I would smuggle _both_ Playboy AND Playgirl into my room at the time! Through reading these magazines I discovered that there was a word for what I am - BISEXUAL! I denied these feelings through high school, college and most of my life.
I met a wonderful man, who I later married, and I finally got the courage up and told him how I felt. I didn't know what to expect but he thought that these feelings were natural and told me that if I felt like experiencing what I witheld all of these years I should. I have a very good relationship with my husband and we have a great marriage. He is one of the kindest and most understanding people I know.
I started to look around at other women I knew and I finally met someone who I really clicked with and I was surprised when she admited to me that she was bisexual, also. We became lovers and the affair lasted for about 8 months. I really cared for her, but unfortunately she ended the relationship because she thought that she wasn't a primary person in my life. I learned through this relationship that it is hard to juggle relationships with two people at once, but it is possible.
However, life isn't always what you want and you can't always get what you want. Most people couldn't handle or repsect my lifestyle. However, I do want people to know what I am really like and the bottom line is that I am a loving, caring and generous woman and none of that stops with my sexuality. I love my husband very much and at this time in my life he is the primary person in my life. It is possoble to be bisexual and married.
