Why does it feel like I am so alone
Even with all of the support some have shown?
I feel so much pain I can barely get by,
But, no one seems to see it; I can only ask,'Why?'
I'm supposed to be strong and help others along the way;
Helping others is what I do each day.
Some are not comfortable with me because I'm shy;
It is because I don't want to be a burden-that's the reason why.
They may recognize that something isn't right, but tell me that I'm strong;
I wish I could tell them that they are wrong.
I never feel as though I'm important enough to share;
I have a hard time believing that anyone would care.
In my own way I sometimes ask for help, but no one seems to know it;
What can I do if I don't know how to show it?
I guess I need to learn to become more open with my heart-not just to others, but to myself as well.
It is because of this and hating myself that I live in my very own hell.
I give my love, but, maybe too much;
I seem to push people away. They must feel fear and such.
I don't want to live this way, but I know of no way out;
Will anyone hear me with this pain I shout?

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