WHOLE AT LAST

God gave me this message on October 3, 2001.

1.Rom. 1:1-20>Impartation
2.Rom. 1:21-32>Imagination
3.Rom. 2;1-29>Self-Justification
4.Rom. 3:1-31>Propitiation
5.Rom. 4:1-25>Imputation
6.Rom. 5:1-21>Reconciliation
7.Rom. 6:1-23>Resurrection
8.Rom. 7:1-25>Emancipation
9.Rom. 8:1-11>Condemnation
10.Rom. 8:12-15>Direction
11.Rom. 8:16-25>Redemption
12.Rom. 8:26-28>Intercession
13.Rom. 8:29,30>Predestination
14.Rom. 8:31-34>Protection
15.Rom. 8:35-39>Separation
16.Rom. 9:1-13>Adoption
17.Rom. 9:14-24>Compassion
18.Rom. 9:25-33>Election
19.Rom. 10:1-7>Salvation
20.Rom. 10:8-13>Confession
21.Rom. 10:14-21>Profession
22.Rom. 11:1-10>Reservation
23.Rom. 11:11-36>Provocation
24.Rom. 12:1-9>Sanctification
25.Rom. 12:10-21>Dedication
26.Rom. 13:1-8>Ordination
27.Rom. 13:9-14>Affection
28.Rom. 14:1-23>Justification
29.Rom. 15:1-24>Edification
30.Rom. 15:25-33>Ministration
31.Rom. 16:1-24>Commendation
32.Rom. 16:25-27>Manifestation

GOD'S WORD REVEALED

On October 3, 2001, the Word of God came to me. I had only been out of the hospital for three days at the time. I had undergone genital reconstructive surgery. Pain had woken me at 2 a.m., or so I thought. I have only had the Lord speak to me, in the night, twice before. The first time, about six years ago, Jesus gave me words and music to two songs. My ability to write music is poor and they remain only words! The second time was on September 1, 1997. This time there was an even greater decision to be made. I had been singing tenor in a gospel quartet, for three years, at the time. I had belonged to a large Southern Baptist congregation for five years. The decision I had to make was whether I was willing to take the chance of losing all family, friends, and possibly my job, in order achieve wholeness. Wholeness, to me, meant to have surgery to correct the way I was born so my body would match the inner person. You will recall that Jesus once asked a man, who had an infirmity for thirty-eight years, the same question. (John 5:1-9) The man replied that he had no one to take him to the pool of Bethesda so he might be healed. Jesus told him to"take up his bed and walk." Once he obeyed the command, he walked away whole. The decision that I was faced with was the very same. For forty-two years, I had lived with my infirmity. I had trusted my religion, family. music, and leisure activities to make me whole. The entire time, it had been up to me to make the decision to be made whole.(It seems that the longer you live with infirmity, the more accustomed you become to it!) On this day, I could deny it no longer. God gave me great peace on that day in September and it carried me through living as a female for four years! I have suffered loss from my decision. My parents died before I could make the decision. My siblings refuse to see me. My oldest child has rejected my love. Many co-workers have even stopped speaking to me. But, despite all of the adversity, I have come out victorious through the power of Christ!

This time I was awakened because the Lord wanted to reveal my reason for being born! That reason is contained in God's Handbook found above. What He revealed is that the Bible contains three elements, just like the Trinity. The first, and foremost, is the Word of God. The second element, History, is used so we may correctly interpret the past in the light of the Word. The third element, which many religions use as a guide for living, is actually Commentary. Problems will always arise when people use Commentary in place of, or in addition to, the Word. Commentary may be likened to the political response you will hear after the President makes an address to the nation. The politicians will try to tell you what he really meant by what he said! Every human being will slant God's Word, according to their personal situation. To follow a man's interpretation is a horrible error in judgement. We see that man's way's are not God's ways. (refer to Imaginations, above) According to the Word, man's way also has three elements. They are, in order: Refusal to give God due glory, Refusal to be thankful, and Professing to be wise. If we indulge ourselves to blend man's way with God's, we are destined for destruction.

What the Lord revealed to me is that many people in gay lifestyles are actually transsexuals who live in fear of losing what they have, should they accept the truth. It becomes easy for people born in the wrong body to deny their feelings. I know because I did for forty-two years. Some of us were victims of a birth defect which created us in the wrong body. God does not condemn people who insist on denying this to be true, however they will never be whole. God always desires for us to achieve wholeness. He asks "Wilt thou be made whole?" God gives us the choice. We may either combat our fear of loss and decide to be complete persons, or continue to cling to what we have and miss out on all He has to offer.

I cannot say that it has been easy, but God has given me strength to endure the hatred and fear for five years. He told me that I would serve as an example for others. I will ask those reading this the same question that Jesus asked the man at Bethesda: "Wilt thou be made whole?" It is what we must each decide for ourselves. It is not easy, but is worth anything that you may lose in the process. Since my surgery, I feel closer to my Creator than I have ever felt. Look deep inside yourself and do not let the body you were born in hinder you from God's fullness. Don't wait until your lives are half over. Are you willing to obey Christ's command to pick up your bed and walk? I pray that you are!