I have had the desire to dress in women's clothes for
over fourty years but because of religious convictions I suppressed my
need for the feminine expression of my being.

My name is Glenn. It is March 17th 1998 and I feel that I must
tell my story. I think it is important that whatever happens to me, that
I leave a record of my thoughts, my trials, my victories, and the events
which have transpired in my life.

I hope that whoever reads this will come to an understanding of
what is like to be born into this world as a man and discover that
dressing in clothing of the opposite gender is a need which must have
fulfilment regardless of the costs. Mine has been a journey from
evangelical religiosity to the total transgender experience. I will be
speaking mostly from an Evangelical Christian frame of reference due to
the fact that I have been practising Christian since the age of seven
years old at which time I had a religious experience which is described a
being "BORN AGAIN."

I have just gone through one of the most difficult years of my
entire life. It has been a time of sadness, turmoil and intense soul
searching. A time of the challenge of emotional highs and lows. A time in
which I have had to evaluate the reality of my past religious experience
pitted against my life-long and unending desire to dress as a woman. A
time when I was forced to make the choice between being a husband and a
father or being a crossdresser. It has been and contines to be very
difficult journey to say the least.

I have made the choice which allows me the freedom to be who I am, and
not be forced to live a life of sadness perpetuated by the fact that I am
unable to express the female feelings which mainline Christianity, my
family and society condemns me for. Certainly I also have hurts as a
result of my decision to live as a crossdresser. Leaving R___, (my wife
of twenty years), and my beautiful children A___ and J___ has been a
very devastating and very hurtful process for me. This cannot be denied
or minimised. But I am a person who has needs which must be expressed
whether they are accepted by others or not and I will try as best as I
can to relate what has taken place and the continuing experience of my
Journey Into Femininity.