Chapter 41- An End To The Game
Kate starred aimlessly at the piece of paper.
“How does this all fit?” she sighed, confused.
She placed the article aside, the very thought of Brandon bringing up all the repressed feelings and emotions about the accident. Running her fingers through her hair she thought quickly about what to do about the OTHER situation, Brian and Felicia. She had to get her off her back, but how? And how is that possible without hurting Brian. She heaved loudly, copping an annoyed look from the older women down the other end of the table. She gathered her stuff together. Friend or not she knew she couldn’t let someone else try and destroy what she had.
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
I muttered to myself quietly as I tapped away at the computer, my mind a rush of thoughts. I didn’t know what I was doing here, this whole thing – The New York Times – it wasn’t exactly my scene, and deep down I knew it wasn’t my job.
Kaylee walked past the booth, smiling proudly, like she had the world in her tiny, perfectly pedicured hands, what did she know? Of course she did have this thought that I was here because of her, that she’d done something of a service and that I was her puppy dog trained in the art of annoying and tormenting Kate. Perhaps I was, then again, I was always a good actress. Sure I knew she was simply using me, but that suited me fine, I was doing the same thing.
My heartbeat quickened as I thought fully about what I was actually doing – I was testing him. Making him choose between Kate and I, deep down I knew whom he would choose, but I guess for my own sanity I needed to know. Anger still ran hot through my blood, but even though I refused to admit it, I was more hurt than angry…whatever I was feeling, it didn’t matter – I had a plan, and sticking to it was the biggest priority.
~ 2 HOURS LATER ~
Mind numbing hours passed Kate quickly by as her fingers skidded across the keyboard at the library, there had to be something, anything, Felicia had to have a past. She clicked on the ‘Birth’s Death’s and Marriages’ page. Sudden something came to her, she didn’t know that faintest thing about Felicia, where she was from? What she did before she met Brian? She quickly dialed Nick’s cell and waited for him to answer.
“Hello?” he announced
“Nick, it’s Kate. Where did Felicia come from? Where was she born? Where was she before she met Brian?”
“Whoa Kate honey, slow it down. First off, why?”
“I just need to know, come on”
“I think she’s originally from some other country, I don’t know which one, came here with her parents I think, they moved to um-“ he paused thinking back “Toronto I think, Canada, yeah I'm sure, then I don’t know, she lived in Florida after that, I think”
“Do you know what year she was born?”
“Why all the questions Kate?”
“Nick, please”
“Okay fine, she’s 24 so you do the math. Look I really gotta go okay”
“Okay thanks Nick”
His answers weren’t particularly useful, but there should be some sort of schooling record she could get hold of, that would just mean digging, and digging she would.
She hadn’t called Jack for ages, she hadn’t really needed to, but now she did!
“Hello?” the calm male voice said answering the phone
“Jack its Kate McBride”
“No way, Kate, really? Huh, long time no hear from”
“Yeah well, how’s my favorite hacker doing?”
“That’s researcher remember”
“Yeah whatever, look I need you to find me someone, and quick”
~ THAT NIGHT ~
“Hey Lecia” Brian smiled as I strolled into the hotel room
I’d gone back to the cramped apartment and got changed, as I was there Brian had rung, inviting me over, of course I couldn’t decline.
I smiled quickly at him as I shut the door behind me. As I looked at the sheerness in his eyes, I just wanted to melt, but I had to remain strong, that was one thing I’d learnt over the past – no matter how much it hurt, never ever let them see you show it.
“I was thinking maybe we could go out somewhere, just us, we haven’t really been out for a while” He stated quietly
Staying away from the subject – that was him.
“I don’t know, could we, um” I looked up at him, flashing my long eyelashes “Stay in” I smiled seductively.
“I'm always up for a bit of ‘Staying in’” he laughed embracing my waist tightly
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
Kate sat sipping away at the coffee in her hand, she’d been luckily enough to catch Jack on a boring day with nothing to do, so he was itching at the chance about finding something out about someone.
He strolled into the café and sat down on the seat opposite Kate.
“Here you go milady” he winked playing with his thin goatee and handing her a plain brown folder
“Hot chick, might I just say” he laughed as the waitress came up to the table
“Coffee, white 2 sugars” he smiled as Kate opened the folder and began to read
There were multitudes of pages. First of an a4 size picture, as Jack always had. Next an up-to date profile, social security number, hair color, eye color, height weight, past jobs etc.
“Now you may notice there’s nothing before 1995, now I wondered why that would be” jack said with a cheeky grin “Then bingo, go figure, she changed her name, died her hair, thought she’d left that life a way back in Denver” he chuckled obviously amused “Yeah like that will ever happen” he winked.
Kate looked up to smile briefly; Jack was always a lover of well, himself. He was good – and he knew it. She skimmed through the rest of the pages eager to find where Felicia was so anxious to leave Denver, and why the name change? Her eye caught site of something and at once she was sucked into it. Her mouth gaped in disbelief; she was reading something she never thought would be possible.
“This can’t be” she mouthed quietly
“Oh, but it is. Who is this lady anyway?”
Kate looked up, shock still plastered across her face.
“Just someone” she muttered standing up ‘I owe you one” she winked, that was something she had said each time he’d come through for her.
“How about paying for lunch? You know you always seem to owe me one”
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
His arm was draped lazily around me, as we sat snuggled on the couch, our eyes drawn to – but not really watching – some TV program
“I’ve really missed you Lecia, you know that don’t you?”
“Of course” I lied pathetically. Sometimes my lying abilities were about convincing as a slap with a wet fish.
“You don’t really sound convinced of that” Brian sighed his eyes studding me closely, as my eyes remained ‘glued’ to the TV, scared to meet his glare.
“Of course I do, I know that Bri”
“Do you also know I love you? I know that things happened between us-“
‘Things? You kissed someone else, someone who was meant to be a friend’ I muttered in my head
“- but I want to get through this, there is nothing in this world I want more, than to be with you. I made the mistake Felicia, and all I'm asking from you is that you tell me what I can do to make things like they were”
‘Turn back time? Erase that past’ my mind announced
“We’ll work through this” I replied simply. It was a cagey reply, but it would do for now.
Brian looked away, confusion obviously present on his face. I knew this was a cruel game to play, but I needed to know, I just needed that security of knowing.
“Felicia, I think we need to talk” he said solemnly
“About?”
“About us. What’s happening here? I mean when I saw you standing at that door, when you came back, everything just seemed so perfect, everything seemed as amazing as it was the day I first laid eyes on you, but something’s changed Lecia, your eyes are distant, you don’t smile like you used to, we’re not like we were. I just want to know if your hearts really in this?”
For the first time that night, my eyes met with his, in clear understand and pure love, I knew my game was over – I couldn’t bare to live without Brian in my life, and in all honesty I couldn’t understand why I didn’t realize that before.
“Brian, I’m –I’m sorry” I sniffed my green eyes forming a thin layer of tears
“Please talk to me, tell me what’s wrong”
“I'm scared Brian, is that so hard to see? I'm petrified that you don’t love me, and that I'm not the one you want”
“You’re the only one I want”
“Sometimes I wonder” I sniffed turning away
“About?”
“About what happened, the heat of the moment brings out the passion, I'm not stupid, I know what that is”
“Is this about Kate?”
“Who else would it be about? Of course it is”
“But I told you, it meant nothing”
“Actions and words are two different things”
“Please Felicia, you have to believe me, look at me” he said softly, as he gently touched my cheek moving my head to look at him
“There is nothing in this world that I want more than you. I know what I did was wrong and I will say that a thousand times over if that’s what you need to hear. You’re the only one Felicia, the only one, just tell me what I need to do to prove that to you”
“I don’t think there is anything you can do” I cried softly “I think I just need to feel that, and in time I will”
His hand gently moved across my leg, and up to my waist, holding me as though I was about to collapse.
“I understand” he whispered, his other hand wiping away a stray tear from my cheek.
“Brian?” I breathed quietly
He looked across at me, our faces practically meeting, yet not touching.
“Can I tell you a secret?” I continued
He nodded slowly as I leant in close to his ear.
“I love you” I whispered quietly into his ear
I pulled away to see his strong blue eyes smiling softly.
“I love you too” he smiled, his arms quickly racing to embrace me
As his arms held me softly, I knew there was, nor would be anything I wanted more. Kate still played on the back of my mind, no matter how hard I struggled to repress the vision of his lips on hers, it was there, in my head, taunting me. Maybe I still wasn’t sure, maybe I’d never be sure again.
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
Kate slammed the hotel door behind her, as Nick looked up from the couch.
“Something wrong?” he inquired standing up
“No, just got a few things on my mind that’s all” she smiled chucking her bag onto the table
“About?”
“Just about Kaylee that’s all” she replied, semi-lying.
“Don’t worry yourself about her, she’s not worth it”
“Yeah I know”
She sighed quietly and sunk down into the comfort of the couch. Nick’s hands quickly began massaging her shoulders gently.
“Everything will be okay Kate, I promise” he whispered quickly before kissing her neck tenderly.
She knew he meant well, but she also knew he was probably so wrong. She had this information, and she knew of at least one person who had the right to know. Deep down she knew it wasn’t her secret to tell, but she also knew it was a kill or be killed kinda world, and Katilyn McBride was one that was not going down – not for anyone, not ever again.
“Where’s Brian’s room?” Kate questioned quietly
“And why would you want to know that?” Nick inquired with a smile
“I have something to give him, that’s all” Kate replied, laughing slightly to ease any tension in the room
“206, just down the hall, but I wouldn’t recommend going in there now?”
“Why?”
“I saw Felicia go in there”
“Oh” she sighed, too quietly for Nick to hear
“You know I really hope they work things out, I’ve always seen those two together, they deserve a happy ever after” Nick rambled
“You agree don’t you?” Nick inquired noticing Kate had gone abnormally quite
“I believe Brian deserves all the happiness in the world” she smiled looking up at Nick.
“You deserve that too Kate” Nick whispered his hands moving down her body from his position behind her “I’d like to give that to you” he added his lips nuzzling at her neck
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
We parted from the embrace, the room around us deathly silent. My lips were pursed into an unknown emotion – perhaps confusion at myself. I knew what I wanted, what I craved, and he was sitting right there in front of me.
“Could I tell you another secret?” I questioned weakly
Without waiting for an answer I leant in close to his ear, summoning ever ounce of strength I had.
“I want to make love to you” I whispered – barely even auditable
I pulled away – scared of the words that came from my mouth, unsure how Brian would react.
“I'm sorry, I shouldn’t have said that” I muttered as his face showed signs of unreadable shock
“Don’t be sorry Lecia, you said what you felt. Now can I tell you a secret?” he inquired his hands brushing the hair back from my face.
“I wanna make love to you too” he whispered his lips nearing mine.
I was sure my mouth gaped, I knew what this meant to him, I knew what waiting meant to him, I sat poised ready for the “but” to follow, however none came.
“But what about everything?” I said stumbling across the words, I knew it was what I wanted but I never assumed he felt the same.
“I believe when two people love each other, they should show it. I love you Felicia, I want to spend the rest of my life with you, I want us to be together. We have that love don’t we?”
I nodded slowly.
“Then marriage is just a piece of paper, one that we’ll get soon. But we should be able to show our love now”
I was beyond taken-aback. This was all new to me, we were sharing things we, in the past, shied over in the past.
“Do you really mean that?” I inquired, my lips quivering at the prospect of the depth of his love for me.
I knew deep down what I was doing. Subconsciously I was trying to figure out if Brian loved me enough to risk what he believed in, to test him beyond what I was already doing. It all came back to my little game – my challenge – and no matter how hard I wanted to stop it, to tell him not to answer that question, I knew more than anything I wanted to hear his answer.
“Yes” he replied
As simple as that.
“I do mean it Felicia, I love you more than I think I could ever express, and there is nothing more I want to do than hold you in my arms and make love to you”
That was it – that was all I needed to hear.
Tears streamed from my eyes, as I was unable to hold them back, as I rushed forward embracing him tightly, knowing I never ever wanted to let go.
His lips caressed mine gently, yet with an underlying engulfing passion. His hands held me tightly in place, our faces so close – our lips so taken. He slowly stood, taking me with him, our lips barely parting from one another – locked in passion – sealed in lust.
We parted lips, our gazes still stumbling together, as he led me to the bed. Lightly he placed me down on the soft bed. I melted away as his lips moved across my neck, as his hands slowly removed my top. My eyes flicked open, in the realization of what we were actually doing.
“Brian/” I said softly, catching him mid-kiss
He looked up at me, his eyes filled with a kind love I knew so well.
“Are you sure?” was all I managed, unsure if I wanted to hear the answer
“More than I’ve been about anything else in my life” he smiled stroking my face
His lips met with mine again in a tender love, which proceeded to encase us in passion. The world around and everything in my mind floated away as we slowly removed clothing, throwing it carelessly onto the floor.
Pushing the blankets away, we lay poised on the silky sheets, our eyes locked, our bodies so close.
“Lecia, I'm – I'm not sure how to” Brian muttered quietly, as if shying away from his own words.
“Just do what you feel” I replied running my hand down his naked chest.
His lips felt warm against my body, sending a tingle up my spine, and throughout my body. His touch was like velvet, his breath gentle against my skin, as we moved closer together. My hands skidded across his body, knowing what I wanted, yet exciting at the way he felt. I pulled his head up, pushing his lips onto mine. I could feel him growing above me, hovering, just waiting for the time, and in an instant, my hands guided him down, his body becoming one with mine.
The sensation was amazing, one I’d not felt for so long, one I wondered if I’d ever actually felt. The words he whispered in my ears were lost in the heated feel of his breath, and the tempting pleasure of his kisses.
It seemed like hundreds of years we lay there, moving together, exploring, enchanting. Encased, hidden from the world by our love.
Tiny beads of sweat had formed above his brow, as he, satisfied, dropped down next to me, his arms never dropping from an embrace. He held me close and I hovered in next to him – nothing needed to be said – we both knew.
~ THE NEXT MORNING ~
Brian awoke to the crisp early sun, bounding in through the windows. He looked across at Felicia, her small body still enveloped in his arms, her eyes locked tight in slumber. Gently he bushed back her hair, and smiled to himself – there before him lay everything he’d ever wanted. He kissed her softly, then slid out from the bed. He slid the blinds down, banning the sun from the room, then proceeded to quietly get dressed.
He watched her sleep, just wondering what she was thinking. He kissed her forehead again, then walked over to the door. Like a mouse he opened it and walked out, just clicking the door behind him.
“Hey Rok” Nick called from down the hall
Brian spun around to see Nick and Kate approaching.
“Whatc-ha doin’? You’re standing there staring at a door” Nick laughed, mocking his best friend.
“Sssh, she’s sleeping” Brian muttered as he gestured for them to walk down the hall
“Who’s sleeping huh?” Nick inquired nudging Brian quickly
A smile formed on Brian’s face in remembrance of last night.
“Felicia” he replied quietly
“So you two made up?” Nick inquired
“You could say that” Brian winked “I would say we did” he finished
Katilyn sighed to herself, this was going to get harder by the minute.
‘But Brian deserves to know, he has a right to know’ she reminded herself
Brian darted out of the elevator into the lobby.
“Brian wait” Kate called
“What is it?” Brian inquired hurriedly
“I need to tell you something”
“Could it wait? It’s just I want to get back up there before she wakes up”
Kate sighed again, then shrugged.
“I guess it could wait”
“Great, I’ll talk to you later” he smiled before running off
“What is it you wanted to tell him?” Nick inquired from behind
“Just something” Kate shrugged
“Katilyn, do you still think Felicia’s involved with this whole thing?”
Kate weighed up her options quickly, she could tell Nick the truth – that she was sure Felicia had something to do with it, then jeopardize everything, knowing that Nick wouldn’t forgive her for purposely going out of her way to tell Brian what she knew – she couldn’t risk loosing Nick. OR lie, tell him she only said that in the heat of the moment, and that she didn’t believe Felicia was involved in Kaylee’s little plan (whatever it was) at all. She opted for the second.
“No of course I don’t, I guess I was wrong” she smiled taking Nick’s hand
“Okay good, because I've known Felicia for a while now, and I don’t think that’s her style”
‘We’ll see’ Kate muttered in her head as she patted the contents of her shoulder bag.
~ 10 MINUTES LATER ~
Brian strolled back into the room, just as my eyes began to flutter open. I yawned silently as I pulled myself up from the bed, wrapped in one of the silk sheets.
“Sorry did I wake you?” Brian smiled as he sat down onto the bed next to me
“No” I purred dropping my head onto his inviting shoulder
“Hot chocolate?” he winked handing me the steaming cup “I remembered you don’t like coffee, only hot chocolate, with 2 sugars” he added with a smile
“Bingo” I laughed taking the cup from his hands
“And this” he announced pulling something from his pocket.
He handed me the small black box, and without opening I knew what it was.
“I thought maybe you should have it back now” he said softly as I opened the box
Inside lay the ring he’d given me what seemed like an eternity ago. The beautiful sapphire encased in an intricate claw of tiny roses and a gold band with the inscription “Forever” inside it. Taking it into my fingers I looked up at him, then smiled.
“Would you?” I questioned holding out my hand
He took the ring from my right hand and slipped it onto my wedding finger.
~ 20 MINUTES LATER ~
Katilyn had made up her mind, she would tell Brian this morning, and nothing or no one would get in her way, she had to do this – didn’t she? Nick had talked all breakfast and well she occasionally caught what he’d said all in all her mind was elsewhere.
They strolled into the elevator, Kate more eager to see Brian than anything else. She just prayed that he would understand, and above all that Nick would understand.
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
I hurriedly finished drying my hair, as Brian waited patiently for me. We’d decided that it might be a good idea just to ‘get out’ for a while, and that’s what we were determined to do, just to spend sometime together like we used to.
“Okay all done” I announced, quickly brushing my long hair one last time
Brian took my hand and led me to the door.
“You look beautiful, as you always do” he smiled as he opened the door.
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
The doors to the elevator opened, and Nick and Kate stepped out. Kate looked into the distance and saw Brian stepping out into the hall.
“No sign of Felicia” she muttered to herself
~AT THE SAME TIME~
“Oh hold on a sec I forgot my phone” I remarked dropping Brian’s hand as he stepped out into the hall.
“I’ll be out in a sec” I smiled darting across the lounge into the bedroom
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
Kate quickened her pace, and before she knew it she called out Brian’s name.
“Oh hey Kate” Brian replied, a 10 foot smile on his face
“I need to tell you something” Kate announced quickly
“Oh right, but I'm just about to head out, could it wait?”
“No it can’t wait, I need to tell you and show you something right now”
“It sounds urgent”
“It is. Brian you know I care for you as a friend and I honestly think you deserve to be happy, and that’s why I'm doing this, that’s why I have to do this, so please understand that”
Nick turned to look at Kate, but she was focused on Brian.
“Okay” Brian said hesitantly.
Kate quickly pulled out a folder from her shoulder bag.
“I know you care about Felicia, but there is something you need to know”
Nick’s mouth gaped, he’d thought she was over all of that, now she was going to make a fool of herself, telling Brian what she’d told him, that Kaylee and Felicia had ganged up on her.
“Kate don’t do anything stupid” Nick muttered into her ear, but she was ignoring him
“Katilyn, both Felicia have done things, and I'm sure when she said what she said to you, she didn’t mean it, and I know about her taking your job, but –“
“No Brian that’s not it”
“Kate it’s okay she doesn’t hate you”
“No Brian listen to me this has nothing to do with me, but has everything to do with you”
“Kate let’s just go” Nick said tugging on her arm
“No, I'm not finished, I have to say this”
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
“Got ya” I announced picking myself up off the floor after finding my blue cell phone
I strolled back out into the lounge, I could hear voices, ones I recognized. Katilyn’s and Brian’s and Nick’s
That was another thing I had to do, after I quite the New York Times, which I would do this morning I would have to apologize for been such a bitch to Kate, I was out of line, I knew that now. I just hoped she would understand.
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
“Say what Kate?” Brian questioned
“Felicia’s already married” Kate announced, the words bursting through her lips
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
I dropped the phone in horror as I heard the words fly from her mouth. This couldn’t be happening? She couldn’t have just said that, could she?
“What?” Brian choked back, struck hard by her words
“She’s already married to some guy in Denver, it’s all in there” Kate remarked pointing to the folder in Brian’s hands
Brian opened the folder.
“No Brian, please don’t read that” I pleaded running out the door
I must have shocked Kate, as she stepped back in fright.
I slammed the folder shut, my eyes darting around the hall in horror, but I was too late, I could tell by the look on Brian’s face, he’d seen all he needed to.
“It’s true?” he mumbled
I wanted to scream and yell, tell him everything, but I couldn’t, the gift of speech seemed to have been taken away from me.
Brian dropped the folder and looked at me, disgust written all over his face. Before he stormed away angrily.
I turned my attention to Kate, my eyes narrowing in on hers.
“How could you?” I spat
“The same way you tried to ruin me” Kate replied harshly
I wanted then and there to curl up and die, Brian knew the one thing I’d kept hidden from so many people the one thing I never wanted to accept.
I darted down the hallway, as I saw Brian disappear down the stairwell.
“Brian please” I called, as I ran through the door
“Don’t Felicia, don’t try and explain this one, I don’t want to hear it” Brian hissed spinning around to face me
“Just answer me this, is it true?” he questioned, his voice softening
“Yes, yes it is” I cried
“Then that’s all I need to hear” he replied before scurrying down the stairs.
I wanted to follow him, but knew it would do no good.
~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
“How could you do that Kate?” Nick questioned his hand flinging her around to face him
“Do what? Tell Brian something he deserves to know?” Kate replied sarcastically
“No Kate, ruin two peoples lives, hurt two people like that”
“Don’t you understand Nick, he need to know”
“He needed to know? Or YOU needed to tell him?”
He turned and walked away, his mind overflowing with mixed emotions and feelings, none of which he could control.
~ 2 HOURS LATER ~
I spent countless time trying to get hold of Brian, but nothing seemed to work. I could understand why he was so angry, God I was that angry with myself. Nothing seemed to matter anymore, I didn’t care about anything else. I’d had what I wanted, but as soon as I got it, it let it slip right out of my hands.
I stayed in the hotel room, contemplating what to do next, wondering if this was really the end to it all.
I mindlessly scribbled a note across a piece of paper.
I'm sorry, I wish there was more I could say. But please believe me when I say that I never meant to hurt you, and if you’re willing to listen I promise I will tell you everything, if not – I’ll understand.
Felicia.
I placed the ring from my finger onto the note, knowing I didn’t deserve it’s beauty, or it’s meaning.
I grabbed up my bag and walked out the door, closing it softly behind me. I turned to walk down the hall, but first there was something I needed to do.
I knocked on Kate’s and Nick’s room, my eyes red, my face emotionless.
The door creaked open, as Kate appeared on the other side.
“I think this belongs to you” I announced handing her the folder Brian had dropped.
She took it from my hands.
“You know I had to tell him” she muttered simply
“Why Katilyn? Why?”
“Why did you bring Victor back in my life?”
“What? I had nothing to do with that”
“Didn’t you?”
“No”
“Then I suppose Kaylee was making it up”
“You mean you believed someone who would stop at nothing to make your life miserable, you actually believed what she said, do you actually think I would do that Kate?”
“You took my job didn’t you?”
“And was it so hard for you to see why. I didn’t want that job, I never did, I just anted to know that if it came down to it Brian would choose me over you, that’s what I wanted Kate and that is the truth of it, it was a test for my own fucking sanity I just needed to hear Brian choose me over you, that he would, no matter how wrong, or how much of a bitch I was about it, support me, and not you, that’s what I needed to know, that’s what I need to hear. So what’s your excuse Katilyn? Why does anything between me and Brian matter to you”
“Because I care, and because he had the right to know”
“Really? Let me ask you this, did your research package there tell you that I got married when I was 16 to someone 10 years my senior? Did it tell you that I did it so I could escape and slut for a mother, and the different fucker she bought home every night? Did it tell you all I was looking for was someone who would supply some sort of stability in my life, that I needed a father figure? Tell me Kate did it fucking tell you that I found none of that? Did you know that when he wasn’t screwing some bar slut behind my back, he was getting wasted, then taking out every little problem he had on me? Did it tell you I got pregnant when I was 18, but after an extreme beating I lost that kid? Did it tell you that Kate? You want all the deep down dirt, then get a pad bitch because there is more where that came. If you’re going to dig, dig deep and fucking well get it all. Then maybe you’d know the only reason why I cant divorce him is because I'm scared shitless of ever seeing him again, and that I don’t even know where he is. I cant find him, thus that shitty piece of paper still binds us until the 5 year period has past”
“I didn’t know” she muttered
“No Kate you didn’t know. You also didn’t know that when I met Brian I realized that there was such a thing as been happy, he’s the one that made me realize there’s a life out there for me, without him I would be nothing, and now, that’s what I am, nothing. What I did to you was wrong Kate, I know that, but surely you could understand that I just needed to know he loved me, and I would do anything if it meant holding onto him”
Tears were streaming down my face, my voice quivered as everything I felt came pouring out. I spun around, knowing I’d already said too much, this wasn’t Kate’s problem – it was mine.
“Felicia?” a soft voice said from behind the door.
From behind Kate appeared Brian his eyes red and sad.
Had he heard?
“I heard everything” he said softly as Nick came from the room, touching Kate’s shoulder gently.
The two of them backed away, leaving just me and Brian.
“I guess I should go” I muttered weakly
“Please don’t Felicia, I don’t care about your past as long as I can be your future”
We feel together in an embrace, my tears soaking through his shirt, moistening his skin underneath. For once in my life I’d done it, let it all out, and there was nothing that felt better. My little game was over, and it was one I swore I would never play again.