The Finale





I think back to the day when I heard that saying “Time can change the seasons and time can change the day – but there are some things that time cannot erase..” and now more than then, I truly understand the message in those words.

Everyone goes through life wondering what time hold for it, for some it hold sorrow, for others happiness, for some its pain, for others it pleasure – but whatever it is if you face that thing with the people that time cant erase, with the feelings it cant change, then nothing is impossible, no goal is unreachable and corner is unbearable.

We find our strength in love, we find it in friendship and we find it in ourselves, with those three things we conquer and we win.

I don’t know what life holds for Tatum, I don’t know how many movies she’ll make, I don’t know if she’ll ever find the love she craves for, and I don’t know where life will lead her, but I do know that wherever she goes and whatever she does, she’ll always be the best at it.

I don’t know if Chastity will ever truly settle down, I don’t know if her and AJ will be together forever, and I don’t know if she’ll ever find true stability, but I know that whatever she does she do it with a smile, and she’ll do her best, and she’ll curse and she’ll laugh, and she’ll be everything she can be.

I don’t know how Bianca will cope with been a mother, and I don’t where time will take her, and I don’t know how many oceans she’ll cross, but what I do know is that she love Kaitlyn-Rose with her whole heart and her whole soul, and I do know that she build a home for that child, where she’ll safe, and warm, and I do know that whatever distance she travels, she’ll always be my best friend.

I don’t know what will happen to me either, I don’t know how many bridges I’ll cross through life, and I don’t know how many tears I’ll cry, but I know that have the strength and love in Brian and I know that I’ll have the might and power in friends, and I know that wherever we go, whatever we do, whatever changes, nothing can take that from me.

As we speak, Tatum is working on another movie, she rings a lot and smiles a lot more. I don’t think her and Kevin were ever really meant to be, they were two different people, with two very different lives, I know she still thinks about him, as I'm sure she thinks about Howie, but there is no love in there, and I think knowing that has made her stronger. Sometimes we look for love, simply because we think that’s what we need, but before you can truly find that kind of love, you need to be able to love yourself, and with that comes one of the hardest things to learn, but with everything – you will learn.

Chastity and AJ are still together, and very much like a couple. Many people never though it would last, that the two were too unsettled for each other, but I think that they’re proving everyone wrong. I think they have a bond that isn’t as clear cut as love, its something more, something that no one could even try to explain, its like trying to explain what color the wind is, we cant see it, we don’t know, but we do know its there.

Bianca and Kaitlyn-Rose and doing beautifully, Nick and Bianca have set a day to get married, and I know that they will. Kaitlyn is the spitting image of her mother and father, and it brings a tear to my eye to see her simply because she’s the personification of innocence and purity. I cant help but wonder sometimes what might have been if Nick and I had created that child of innocence, I sometimes wonder what life it would be then, but I don’t long for it. Bianca and Nick belong together, they need each other, and they’ll have each other, I did love Nick as any person loves someone they care about, but I know deep down, it was never the same love as he has for Bianca and as I have for Brian.

As for me, I don’t know how to even imagine trying to explain what’s happening inside of me. Truth is, it’s all so new. Brian and I have been married for only a few months, and we live in villa in the backroads of Tampa. Over two years we’ve shared everything from love, to lust, from passion to sadness, from caring to crying and from pain to happiness and I know that in the many years to come, we’ll experience so much more, and for that I am truly thank you.

So finally I say that time can change the seasons but there are just sometimes that it cant ever, ever erase – those things, whatever they be, are forever forged in our memories.



THANK YOUS

I know I thanked most of the same people at the end of "Vixen" but I feel the need to do it again, so bare with me :-)

Wow, where do I even imagine trying to start. There are so many people that without them, I couldn't have gotten as far as I did. Firstly I want to thank the real Vixen girls, Spice; your madness and constant TXT messages not only have the ability to make me smile but they always provided that support I needed, I truly do wish you and EB the best, I only pray he can live with the looming obsession of "Monkey Man" and you latest obsession with the white trailer trash Marshall Mathers. RL, thank you for the constant phone calls, you're a treasure, and don't worry, I'm always going to be your friend, good luck on your own novel, I'm only a phone call away. PuffBarney (God, remember me calling you that - what was I on?) No matter the distance, you'll always be my first Backstreet Bitch and despite the looming phone bill, I'll call you soon, I miss you!. Miss Red Shoes, sorry we never really got to know each other before I left, and I know that sometimes we don't really "Click" but I'll always know you as a friend - Thank you.

Nextly, Megan, I don’t ever think words could tell you how much I'm thankful to you, you taught me so much and I treasure that with everything I am, you showed me the Beauty of Nick's Butt and the wonderful world of "wa-wa", thank you, thank you, thank you for the late nights you stayed to talk, for the emails you never failed to send, and for simply understanding me, when I don’t think I even understood myself, XOXO - August Baby!

To all of you reading this, THANKS. The instant messages, G-book entries and continuous emails bought a silent strength to me, and made it all worthwhile - thank you! Special thanks to my Book report chicky :-)

Wow, I suppose this to me is like the end of an era. Vixen was one of the first fan fictions I ever wrote, in fact take away the silly concoction I created for Puff and it was the first, and many of the readers have been there since the beginning and that brings me so much honor to know that I created something you actually like to read......

.....and then came "Time" the sequel I wasn't intending on writing, but you got anyway (the 300+ votes, sealed my mind) I think in all honesty "Time" was proof that as a writer I grew with myself, and I'm ecstatic you were all there to (hopefully) see it, as the saying goes "you get better with Time" lol, no pun intended :-)

So, goodbye and goodnight and most of all...

Thank you





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