Chapter TwentyThree: Rendezvous


"You're saying I can't go?" Brian cried as the guy gathered in the hall
"Sorry Rok, but the conditions are-" Kevin began
"10 meters away from where she is" Brian spoke in disbelief "I know that but for god sake she is lying in a hospital after she tried to kill herself and I cant even go and see her" he choked
"Sorry man" Kevin sighed patting his back
"We'll call you as soon as we know" Belle offered
Brian dropped his head to his chest.

~ THE NEXT MORNING ~
I awoke to a morning sun shining into the unfamiliar window, there was a nurse in white beside me checking some machine that was attached to my arm. I said nothing to her, just closed my eyes and prayed that this was what death was like. I remembered what I had done, and I still wanted it all over - I didn't regret it, I only regretted it didn't work.

Marco came in, looking worn and tired. He ran up to the bed and hugged me tightly. I pulled away from him, and flipped over so only my back was facing him.
"Why did you do that? They had to pump your stomach, oh Riyan, I wont forgive this Brian for doing this to you"
I ignored him, he wasn't worth a response.
"I know it was an accident, that's all you just needed some sleep, it was an accident"
"No Papa" I began as I flipped back over "I wanted to die, and I still do, because there isn't a point in living when you cant smile" I finished before turning back over.

That was the truth, I'd lost everything, I'd lost Brian, I'd lost my mama, and Papa was dead to me, and I'd lost Belle, the one true friend that I had - I had nothing more to live for.

~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
Alleah and the others paced back and forth down the hall, they all knew exactly what had happened, she'd taken and overdose of sleeping pills and was rushed to the emergency ward where she promptly had he stomach pumped. Nick, Kevin and Howie had returned to the hotel, leaving only Belle, AJ and Alleah there.

"This is my fault" Alleah sniffed as she slumped against the wall
"It's not your fault, you didn't know that's what she was doing in the bathroom" AJ smiled, hugging her softly
"No, you don't get it, this is my fault. It's my fault she can't see Brian and that's why she wanted to die," she cried loudly
"What do you mean?" Belle questioned, spinning around to face her
"I - I wad the one that wrote the letter to Uncle Marco" she spoke softly, dropping her head in shame
"You? You wrote that letter, how could you? Why?" Belle snapped, staring at her in disgust
"I don't know"
"You don't know? Like fuck you don't know, why the hell did you do it?"
"I was jealous okay? God Riyan had everything, she had everyone's undying attention, she had talent and she obviously had someone that loved her, I was jealous of that" Alleah screamed back
"So you just thought you'd ruin her life? You don't deserve to know her" Belle spat as she stormed away
AJ looked on disappointed.
"You need to tell her, let her know she still has a friend in Belle"
"What about us?"
"There isn't any us anymore Alleah. Tell her or I will," he announced walking the same direction Belle had gone

~ A DAY LATER ~
They finally let me out of the hospital, but I think I was put on "watch" and given no form of medication, fuck them - you cant keep a person alive that doesn't have the will to live. This whole incident would quickly be buried I'm sure of it, Marco would say nothing to me about it, I cant believe he actually thought this may have been an accident, was he that blind to see I had no will to live? I had seen the guys at the hospital, of course missing Brian, I wasn't angry though, I could still feel him there, I knew that he would be there if he was given the choice.

I'm now back on the bus traveling to another place of lies, where I portray to the world a happy and free girl, if only they knew that I was breaking up on the inside.

I placed my pen down as Alleah approached me. I looked up and her, asking her what she wanted with my eyes.
"I wrote that letter," she abruptly announced, her head still held high
"You what?" I questioned, standing
"I wrote that letter to you father, get over it" she snapped, still as arrogant as ever
"How could you do that?"
"I read your journal, and I thought he should know" she smirked
I clutched my journal in my hands.
"You bitch" I scathed
"What can you do?" she shrugged
I shook my head in disgust as I dropped one hand beside me. I drew it back in anger and sapped it back, hard against the side of Alleah's face.
"For that, we are no longer blood. And I will do everything in my power to make sure you suffer as you made me. I hate you Alleah, with every ounce of power in my system, I hate you" I hissed before running to the bedroom and slamming the door behind me

As soon as the bus stopped at the next venue I ran from it to Belle and Nick's bus. I banged frantically on the door and waited for their answer. Belle opened the door and I practically feel into her arms.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for not believing you" I sniffed as I looked up at her
"It's okay Riyan, it's okay" she smiled, embracing me and silently telling me she'd always be there.

~ THAT NIGHT ~
My eyes adjusted to the dark of the room, I was tired, but like the many nights before I couldn't sleep. Papa was in the room next to me, we'd hardly spoken since the day in court, I could tell he was angry with me, but I was angry with him too. I'd told him I wanted Alleah to leave, he shrugged me off and that was it. I would make it my mission to make her life hell.

~ AT THE SAME TIME ~
"You sure you can do that? I thought you were scared of heights?" Nick laughed as he poked his head out the open window of his and Belle's room.
"I know Nick, but I have to, I just have to see her, I have to tell her how I feel and I have to do it to her face" Brian sighed, as he prepared to go out onto the ledge
"I think it's so romantic, Nick would never climb out a ten story window and across a ledge to see me" Belle smiled as she patted Brian's back
"If Kevin knew, he'd flip" Nick smirked
"Well he's not going to find out" Brian smirked back as he stepped out onto the ledge "Luck Rok, just don't go falling, I'm not scraping you up" Nick laughed, copping a slap on the arm from Belle.

~ 5 MINUTES LATER ~
I heard the soft tap of something on my window, and slipped out of my covers to investigate. I pulled back the curtain to reveal Brian's smiling, but petrified looking face. I hurriedly opened the window and he scrambled inside. His face lit up, as did mine, we were finally standing face to face.
"What are you doing here?" I whispered
"I needed to see you, I climbed around from Nick's room" he smiled
A gleeful smile flew across my face as I hugged him tightly.
"I thought you hated heights?"
"I do, but anything was worth just holding you" he sniffed through the darkness
"What they said in the courtroom wasn't true Brian, you never made me feel that way, you never pushed me into it" I rambled, destined to make him know how I felt
"I know baby, I know," he whispered, running his hands gently through my hair
"I've missed you so much"
"Do you still have that ring?"
I nodded, it still hung around my neck.
"Then I'm always with you Riyan"
"Will we still be together?"
"We'll always be together, no rules or boundaries can ever change what I feel in my heart"
"Brian?" I whispered
"Yes?"
"I know its against the rules, but I cant stop thinking about you, in, well, that way, and" I stumbled over the words "Could you, could we, be together tonight?" I paused then shook my head "I'm sorry, I shouldn't ask you that, you risked enough coming here and -"
He stopped my words with a kiss.
"If you'd have me, I'd love to make love to you" he whispered into my ear

My hands trailed down his body, undoing each button with slow precision, savoring the moment we have together, so I could remember it forever. He lay me down gently onto the bed, his right hand rubbing up my leg with the warmest touch. His lips melted into my skin, as I felt the amazing sensation of something I'd dreamt about for a thousand nights.

We made love that night, and into the hours of the morning, it was almost dawn when Brian kissed my forehead and told me he would have to go. I smiled up at him as he dressed in front of me. I clutched the sheet around me as I followed him to the window.
"Could we do this again?" I whispered, stealing one last kiss
"I'll come as often as I can Riyan, I promise you that" he smiled as he disappeared out the window again.

I smiled with complete happiness for the first time in what seemed an eternity. He still loved me as much as I loved him, just knowing that made me believe everything would be okay.

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