Chastity







~ 2 MONTHS ON ~

“Right over there” I smiled as I directed the beefy mover guy as to where to place the lava lamp with the dragon on top.
He placed it down as AJ wandered in behind me.
We’d made the decision to move in together, neither of us were sure how this would effect the way things would work, or if it WOULD even work, I suppose it was like a test to see how strong our love was – that was a silent test of course, neither of us wanting to come to terms with the “What if..” of the situation.

Tatum rung last night, overjoyed with how the movie was going. I was happy for her, I think she’d found what she loved and that was one of the things that really matter in life. As a band, Vixen has decided to remain together, we really have no reason to split. There are the occasional Newspaper reports that we’ve been having arguments, but what the fuck do they know? If anything, now, we’re closer than we ever were. Sometimes the media really knows how to piss me off.

I'm not sure what will happen when Bianca “pops” I suppose it’s a matter of crossing that bridge when we get to it, I wish her the best. I heard yesterday that Arora finally patched things up with her father, I'm not exactly positive how it happened, but I think that was something she really needed to do.

I scooped up a piece of paper and chucked it square into the waste paper bin before slumping down against the wall behind me.
“Something wrong?” AJ queried
I shook my head as I dropped it onto his welcoming shoulder.
“Everything’s going to be okay, isn’t it?” I questioned, like a frightened girl. I knew AJ could never promise me that things would be okay, I knew he couldn’t promise me what he had no control over and I wasn’t really asking him to, all I was asking is for him to comfort me, I suppose I just wanted him to say what I wanted to hear, un-promisable or not, I wanted him to tell me everything would always be okay.
“Always” he smiled, as if reading my mind
I sighed my contentment, life was good. Why worry about a future that would happen no matter what we did?

I didn’t exactly believe in fate, rather I understood that everything happens for a reason, and there is no point worrying or struggling to understand what’s to come because it will come one way or another, and it will knock us down or build us up – but in the end, despite everything and despite everyone – the truth is, it will only ever make us stronger! The hard part is seeing that and understand that. I was always taught to let time work things out, in the end that was the only way to really live – so, that’s what I would do. If time kept AJ and I together, then we would be together.

I closed my eyes softly, breathing deeply in the scent of AJ’s cologne. It was right then I knew deep down that I was safe in my decision, that no matter that I couldn’t promise myself I would be happy, something told me I would be. No matter what, no matter where........I would be, and something told me AJ would be standing there right next to me along with the three other girls that I would be part of the rest of my life.

With every door that closes another opens, and every day that passes gives way to a new one.



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