Abby starred
out into the darkness, she couldn’t sleep, she rarely could.
Her mind had been played with so many times before she wondered
if she would ever be normal. A friend told her that it was
over and soon she would be normal, she would become Abigail Reid,
normal 21 year old, without the voices in her head and without
the curdling smell that sometimes filled her noise. She
hated her mind, sometimes she wished she could throw it away.
She wondered why she wasn’t strong enough to take it, the
others had, they had been able to cope, they had been able to
sleep – but not Abby. He said it was because her mind
was too weak, a friend told her it was simply because she was too
young. She didn’t know who to believe anymore, she
wasn’t sure even if she believed herself.
She shook a
little, cupping her knees up to her chest.
“Try and be strong Abigail, I know you can be”
“No, I
don’t want to be strong”
“You
must, I need to know, what happened”
“I
cant, I cant do it”
“Abby,
you trust me don’t you?”
“Yes,
but the voices, they wont go away, they wont leave, you’ll
make it worse”
“For a
time. But I swear on my grave I’ll help you”
“You
cant, you cant give me a new brain”
“I can
rid you of memories, but first I need to know some things”
“Please
no”
“Please
Abby, I need your help”
“Please Abby I need your help” Abby
whispered to herself as she rocked back in forth
She rammed her
hands onto her head and swung it back. Why would the
visions not leave her?
“Their still here, in my head”
“I
know Abby I'm sorry, I'm trying, I'm not as good”
“Get
them out, you promised”
“I'm
trying, I promise you”
Abby cried to
herself as more memories flooded into her head, which she
squished between her hands, maybe hoping to squeeze them out.
“Have you been a bad girl Abby”
“No, no please leave me alone”
“What did you do Abby?”
“Nothing”
“What
did you do Abby?”
“Nothing”
“I can
read your mind, do you want me to do that?”
“No,
please, I didn’t do anything”
“I don’t
believe you”
“I
didn’t”
“It’s
your fault you know”
“No,
no its not”
“Yes
it is Abigail, you made the mistake”
“No,
Jessica did”
“No,
you did. You weren’t strong enough”
“Let
me go”
“I
will haunt your mind all yours days Abby”
She screamed
again, tears rapidly streaming down her face. The voice was
right, her mind was haunted. Haunted by visions and memories that
wouldn’t leave her. she struggled to remember
something, anything that would help her. her mind flashed
to a young girl, smiling brightly as she swung on a swing hung on
a large oak tree.
“Higher” she laughed playfully
A voice
laughed behind her and two hands came down lightly against her
back, pushing her higher as she’d requested.
It was
blurry but she could see people everywhere, laughing and playing.
Smiles were everywhere and voices were all around, but the young
eyes concentrated on nothing but the sky above her, dreaming to
touch it one day.
“I
want to touch it one day, the sky, do you think I will?” she
questioned, the smile on her face making it obvious she’d
lost her front baby tooth
“You
will Abby”
“You
promise”
“One
day Abby I promise to let you touch the sky”
Another flash,
skipped her forward in time, the laughing and the smiles had
gone, there was nothing left. People were packing up and
leaving, everyone was sad, people were crying. She didn’t
understand, she ran away into the trees hiding in the bushes.
“Abby, it’s time to go”
“No,
Papa, I don’t want to go”
“Abby you need to come with me”
She cried a
little but followed. In front of her stood two others,
holding bags. There was a man there, a tall man in a black
suit. He took one of the others, she didn’t cry or
object, but she was scared. Abby called out, then called to
the man. She called to everyone, but no one listened to
her.
Another flash,
A tent, a
large tent with a roof that looked as though it reached all the
way to heaven. It was dark and cold, no light, no people.
She was sitting on a chair, her little hands hugging her little
body. Someone entered, smiling. Why? Why were they
smiling, Abby wasn’t happy.
“Abby, look at me” a voice commanded with a booming deepness
Abby looked
up, her tiny eyes squinting.
“You
need to be strong Abby, can you do that?”
She nodded.
“Are
you a strong little girl?”
She nodded
again.
“Look
at me Abby”
She looked
up.
“Be
strong, I trust you”
She nodded
slowly.
“Relax
Abby, you’ve seen this done before, I need you to relax”
She nodded.
“Okay,
lets begin”
Abby dropped
her head onto her knees, all she ever wanted was for the memories
to go away.
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