Prolog


I guess you could say it’s been a year of change, of learning perhaps. It’s been one year since Tatum decided to leave the band, she’s doing great now, on the cover of magazines, we watch her religiously every Thursday night, 7:30 pm, the show she’s on has had great success, it’s what I would call a cross between "Sex In The City" & "Dawson’s Creek", younger than "Sex In The City", but more “mature” than "Dawson’s Creek". We talk all the time still, nothing in that respect has changed. I don’t know what happened between her and Kevin, but as far as I'm aware, there’s no longer anything there, I think maybe he was upset she decided to move on, she’s now living in LA.

Chastity hasn’t been able to decide what color hair she likes, she’s been blond, brown, right now she’s at a deep auburn stage, who knows how that will last. Her and AJ have been seeing each other on and off, I think the space between them has gradually gotten bigger – time corrodes such things.

Bianca, aside from gaining a year has hardly changed at all. She’s forever on the phone to Nick, from what I gather they are desperately trying to hold onto what they have, I pray that they will be able to, because I have never seen two people so in love before. A few months ago Bianca was also offered a modeling job, to be the new spokesperson for L'Oreal, I swear if I hear her say “because I'm worth it” one more time I’ll scream.

Vixen, the band are what I would call a success, it’s been one year since we released the album, the sales were phenomenal, of course we’re forever been asked if we will be auditioning for another member, we decided not to, no one could ever replace Tatum, and we never would want any one to, personally I still consider Tatum part of Vixen, because she is, and because she always will be. As we speak we’re slowly putting together a second album, new singles will soon be flying around the air waves. I think it was good for us all to just take a breather over the past year, I think it was really something we needed, for a time we each went our separate ways, just coming to terms with what was going to happen if we took the full record deal. We each decided that if we, in our hearts, didn’t think it was the right move, then the others would accept that – none of us did, and after time we were itching to get back into the studio.

Jive soon asked us if we would re-locate to Orlando, none of us had any objections, my father not long after the contracts were signed, sold his shares in Jive, and told me that was it, after that he essentially wanted no more to do with me if I continue with Vixen – who knows maybe one day he’ll come around, though I doubt it – stuck in his ways, that’s my father. Bianca and I share an apartment now, on the beach, in Tampa, Chastity did once live with us too, but seeing as she hate anything that isn’t human she decided to move out into her own place as Bianca got a small pug dig she called Dallas, he’s the cutest little thing, always with her, usually you’ll find her carrying him in her handbag. A boxer was more my style, she’s the most adorable little thing, only just a year old, Delilah is my little baby, though she’s getting so big. Bianca did spend a short time living with Nick, but soon decided that if they lived together for much longer they would most probably end up hating each other. Chastity though living by herself, as far as I'm aware, has the company of AJ most nights, still hanging on, still trying to be strong…..or something like that, like Bianca and Nick I wish them every bit of luck.

We see Alika on and off now, last I heard she was had gotten a job on set with Tatum, some behind the scenes thing. She’s doing well as far as I know, her relationship with Drew has all but subsided, mind you I think they both knew that a long time ago.

And as for me, the once hopeless romantic…..Arora…..One year ago, everything I cherished was ripped away with from me, I haven’t seen Brian since then, I figure he has moved on, much like I should be. I still care very deeply for him, but I know I will never ever forgive him for hurting me like that, I still wish I knew why, but I guess that’s something I will never learn the answer to. Sometimes I lay awake at night, and wonder what he’s doing, has he found someone else? Does he still think of me? A year on and I still cant shake these feeling, I wish somehow I could, so now I just lock them away, because I don’t know what else to do with them. Last night I found myself crying, I dreamed that we were still together, that he still cared for me, it just seemed so real, like he was really there. I woke up, hoping to find him there, next to me, but all I found was an empty space. I think that maybe he avoids me on purpose, not that I entirely blame him – I avoid him too.

So that’s it, a year in the life of Vixen, easily and simple summed up. I heard something on the radio last night that I think will stay with me forever……and even though the person wasn’t saying it to me, in my own mind he was……

Things move on, lives change……but there are some things time can never erase



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