Why Do I Bother?

It bends me of nothing
My wrongdoing, and I
Retain my self,
All on my time

Sweeping up those missing links 
That could have saddened
Whatever heaved us apart 
Rendering more than your wrongdoing

You asked me if I would forgive
Simply agreed, contained in my existence 
Stretch apart the mortal casing
So you might recognize what's left 

Possibly untimely said
Underneath all this refuse
That should be shed 
To let you all observe 

Come again? I missed a beat
Compromise your earlier defeat
Never mind the voice inside
That's not truly what you crave

Craft your own laws and abide
It's otherwise just useless breathing
Don't even bother to recover

I thought you had gone
I understood to an extent
Now the outlook of your anxiety 
Is slowly plummeting into me again

Quite possibly so, I never did know
Donations of understanding, 
Were always welcome
And essentially expected

You already knew, so why am I questioned
 I keep trying, though wearisome
And every time, it ends up unchanged 
So why do I bother?




 



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