to leave you was the hardest thing for me to do

but i couldn't just stand there

in the puddle of hurt that dripped from my eyes

i didn't want you to see me like this

though its because of you

that these tears stain the rocky cliffs

i turned away to walk away

but i couldn't get far

my heart flooded down with the barren weight of sadness

my soul broken, bleeding, desperately needing your help

but what can you do other than ignore me

since that is how its been lately

were you like this to all the others before me

or is there something about me that reels in turmoil

how can i be in love with you when you do the things you do

i want to run away

but i don't know where to go

no other arms to hold me the way you do

to chase the pain away that seems to be all caused by you

and every time i try to break free

to get away from your strangling embrace

i am pulled back into this miserable miserable place

i pray to a god that i don't believe in

to take me away from all of this

and don't let me come back again

but my prayers are silent and so is the miracles

so i live in the hurt that stings my heart so violent

each day hoping, praying, wishing

that i had the courage to break free from you

to leave was the hardest thing

i could never do...