MORE THOUGHTS ON RELIGION

(These are two emails I sent to one of my friends)

Date: 98-05-17 16:09:26 EDT

hey... i never knew you were so gung-ho christianity.. thats cool i guess... but i don't think people chose to accept God's love or not.. people didn't choose their creation and people naturally love and hate. both, sometimes at the same time. love makes hate stronger and vice-versa. I was just toying with some concepts from the bible... but i just can't accept the "truth" that it offers because i know my life is different than what it says... you can't even say anything because sex is bad, and smoking and drinking and everything else you and your friends do is bad. But i still think you're a really good person. I think that it's human to be aware of the outer realms.. and have the ability to choose where we go in our life. Like chimps don't have religion.. but in the bible God created them too... who the fuck knows. But I don't think god is a female.. i don't think god is God... like i said. Man created this God... to have an explanation for something that is incomprehensible to them. You ever wonder why all over the world their are similar stories to explain creation but they all have their uniqueness and cultural differences... all created independantly of one another at a time when jesus didn't exist... but it makes me think that humans all have the same psychological needs in life and religion is how they are met.

Date: 98-05-18 20:21:23 EDT

I guess it's hard for me to accept what you say because of something i thought of last night... Truth is never the same for two people, ever. Because although we accept science theories, and we all have the same perception, these are based on physical things while whats inside us can't be "proven". I know you are smart and you have time to learn more about the world, life, and yourself. I don't like christianity for the most part because it limits and segregates... it creates a hierarchy of who's right and wrong. Of course nature is in charge, but... when another human being tells me i'm sinning i want to kick their ass because what right do they have to "cast the first stone", if u will.

I don't buy into the stories of the bible because they are just like the greek, roman, norse, and south american/mexican myths i have learned about. If the ancient Mayas had the technology that the romans lead to, we'd all be worshipping the Popul Vuh instead of the Bible... you know that? Oh well.

When you decide to join something and claim to be of a group that limits you. And people judge you in a certain way. People don't know what to think of me because I do not claim a religion, one music style, a particular philosophy, one group of friends, i'm not a member of any organizations, I am not completely feminine or masculine, I'm not completely normal or abnormal.... I'm just this nerd that is trying to be something new. And I know that I won't find a place to fit in-unless I create it myself.

I can't help doubting that any religion is right. Don't forget I started out going to catholic church too. So, i'm not totally foreign to it. I've been to catholic, lutheran, and christian churches. Same bullshit, different methods. I'm harsh, but you know i love you. i don't want you to close your mind from other ideas just because your being told what is right and wrong. Authority doesn't know any better than you.. hehe...

luv , Annie