Rain

 

Note: Sequel to Through the Rain to Get to You. Needless to say, it’s sad as well. Lyrics from Even in Death, by Evanescence.

 

It’s raining again. A non -stopping cold rain that insists on falling from above, freezing our bones. Angry tears straight to our souls. Dark clouds gathered from nowhere, turning everything into gray. Colorless.

 

Color had been drown out of my life the moment I knew you were gone. There’s no red, green, orange. Just gray and black. I’ll never have blue again.

 

I kissed your cold lips, hoping for a miracle, for the nightmare to end. For a fairy tale ending. But fairy tales endings never were for me.

 

I close my eyes, trying to remember how color was, how it was all over you, but the rain is so cold and washes my memories and color fades away even in my memories.

 

I hear the words people are saying to me, trying to comfort me. But what comfort can I find when I have lost sunshine? I stare the dark horizon, knowing that there won’t be glorious sunsets anymore. Just the rain.

 

I feel Doug’s hand on my shoulder and I’m surprised I can still feel anything. And without any word I know it’s time. We walk in the rain, and while I see them taking your lifeless body away from me. And I thank the rain, the same rain I blame for taking you away from me. The same rain that is mixed with my tears now.

 

Someone offers me an umbrella and I refuse. I need the cold rain falling on my shoulders. How can I feel warm when you’re left there, in the freezing ground?

 

I watch the earth slowly covering you, like in a slow motion movie. People pass through me again, and I’m not able to mumble a single word. They want to take me away from here, but I don’t wanna leave. Not yet.

 

I walk slowly to you, kneeling in the humid ground of your grave, trying to find my way back to you, trying to gain hope that rain will stop someday.

 

“You’ll always be here with me,” I whisper, touching the soaked soil, trying to get closer to you. “I’ll remember everything.” I touch my stomach and touch the earth again. “And he will know everything.”

 

I raise my head, noticing that through the dark clouds, a timid ray of light is trying to beat them. I close my eyes, feeling for the first time that nothing could stop you from helping me. Not even the rain.

 

 

Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home

I'll stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on

Some say I'm crazy for my love, oh my love
But no bonds can hold me from your side, oh my love
They don't know you can't leave me
They don't hear you singing to me

I'll stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on

And I can't love you anymore than I do

Evanescence- Even in Death.