~*~Sad News~*~

I found out that I will probably have to do a 5th year of high school!
I found out I only have ONE credit for last year!!!
This has made me such a wreck! Let me explain. Last year I
had many things happen in my life that made it impossible
for me to concentrate at school (including bi-polar
and O.C.D) last year was a nightmare and a half to say the least.
Now this year I am trying so hard and making good grades but
after finding this out I kind of feel defeated.
There is an alternitive to going a fifth year...
Along with my other homework (and I am taking major hmwk classes!!!)
I can take extra work home for the next three years. Just
thinking about it is draining. but I am considering it.
I want to get out of school!!!
I was really scared that my mother would be mad at me, I talked to her and
she told me that she isn't and she never will br as long as I
FINISH. That has helped some. I will probably try ans see
how I do with all the hmwk and if it is to much than I guess
I will thinkabout just waiting and doing the fifth year.

Well on the good side of school I am 7 days away from the end of the term!
I really think I did well! Next trimester I have
Beginning Journalism and Accounting I have been looking
forward to these!

November 16th, 1999. Tuesday (4.33pm)

Well lets see what there is to say...ummm I didn't go to school today
I know shame on me right? Well I was really sick last night
and this morning. It has gotten better though.

~*~More sad news~*~

I decided I would work harder than I ever have before (doing the packets
along with other school work) so I went to the director
of the program and she told me that I have to go to this
class EVERY Tuesday, Wendsday, and Thursday. That is IMPOSSIBLE
why you ask? I live like 10 miles away from the school!
And my mother can't pick me up after because she works till
late. Every night. Do you know what this means?!?!
Can you even try to guess?!?!
I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO DO A FIFTH YEAR!!!
I am so upset about this. I could just cry! This makes me just want to
give up on school. I have to do a 5th year heck why not just
do 6th?! Sorry for all my yelling I am just so upset about this.
That lady won't even try to work with me on this! I guess
No one has ever helped her out so she feels that she shouldn't
need to help anyone else It just makes my blood boil!

Off that subject I got one of my grades! it is an A!!!! my first A in like
forever!!! (except for midterms) I have a 97.4 complete
in that class. I am so proud of myself for that. My dad said
he will pay be 20.00 for EACH A I bring home YIPPY!!!!!
If I make an A in every class wahoo that is 100.00!!!
yippy skippy for me!
Well I think that is all for now. Hope to update tomorrow. Luvs yas alls.
Ashee

November 22, 1999. Monday (8:28pm)

Okay I am ready to scream! Geocities I swear!!! It has erased the
last 2 entries that I have made. *SCREAMING* It's all your fault
Andrea :-) Everything was fine till I told you geocities
loves me.

Okay now that, that episode is over...
Life for me is hectic! all I did in all my classes except one was
study for their final (I have "3" tomarrow!) YUCKY!!! at least
I know I will pass them all. Just think about it. 3 tests
all in one day. Just enough to make you want to stay home
tomorrow doesn't it? I can't wait for my new classes to start!
I am so excited! I have decided to start a website about miracles
It will be totally about miracles. Nothing else.
But there is a ? about that. Heartland says that YOU can only
have one site. I will just have to see. Or take it somewhere
else which I REALLY don't want to do. I will update you
later on that. But I am so excited about it!!
Over the week-end my psp5 just quit working for no reason what so ever.
I could figure out what to do with it. but being the genious(sp?)
that I am, I FIXED it!!! YEA!!! I can't live with out my psp5!!!
I think that is about it for now.

December 20th, 1999. Monday (1:30pm)

Wow it seems like forever since I wrote in here! and there is so much to
tell! Have you noticed my 2 new additions? Aren't they adorable!?!?
I love them to death! If you don't know who I am
talking about. They are my little angels. Johnathan and Kaelyn.
They are such sweeti-pies! I love them so much. Both of them
have made my life a lot brighter since they came into my life.
Johnathan is a typical boy *in my eyes* very curious!
and Kaelyn is my litte luv bug! She is all smiles all the time! I guess
you could say the typical girl lol.

~*~TERRIBLE NEWS~*~
To say the least...My "Papa" passed away December 5th. This will be my
first Cristmas without him. I think about him all the time now.
I constantly wonder if he is around me. Or if he is with my
future children, If I am making him proud.
Talking about this
is bringing tears to my eyes *smile* He was and is a great man!
When I build up enough courage I plan to make him a memorial
So watch for the link to appear!

I recieved my grades finally! THREE count them 1 2 3...A'S!!! 1 B and 1 C!!!
I know Papa is proud of them! He has pestered me for 4 years
telling me I could do better. Now I am. I wish I could have
showed him. So bad I wish I could!!!
I LOVE YOU PAPA!!!
I will see you again, someday!

December 28th, 1999. Tuesday (9:17pm)

Oh boy! What a day! I have had a very bad day!!! but I won't go there.
About a week a go my main speaker for hte computer feel and part
of it got stuck in the hole :-( I had to spend a WHOLE WEEK
with out sound!!! Talk about torture!!! But my uncle came down
Sunday night and made it to where there I can get sound out
its just not very loud. better some sound than none right?

I have to write a sports artical for journalism UGH!!! BEFORE Christmas break
is over. I don't know anything about sports! I hate them.
I will still do it but man I am totally cringing!

GREAT NEWS!!!
I met this woman through a girl that a sort of know.
Her name is courtnee. She and I have decided that we are going
to become partners and make websites...Personal and Prfessional!
She already has a domain for the business and is going to let
me add stuff to it! See I told you it was great.

Christmas was fine got some games and a sega...also a disc man
Well I think that is all for right now bysie bye

January 4th, 1999. Tuesday (7:07pm)

We are all still here!!! I have offically made it through the last mellenium
with only minor injuries. (Mostly IN the head).

Okay you all want to hear something totally upsetting, horrifing, emberassing
anddisgusting all at the same time? You do...okay
In 5th period (my journalism period) I went ot sit in my chair
and I couldn't fit. Okay her desk are incredibly
small to begin with but I have always been able to fit into
them...until now that is. I didn't know what to do. I mean
what could I do?!?! (at that very moment, not after I go home)
I finally got up and walked by the door way so no one
could see me. Than when the teacher came over, I asked if I
could change classes she flat out told me no. So I told her why
She told me to sit at the back. It may just be me but if I
did that, it would be painfully noticable WHY I was sitting
back there. She finally let me go but when I went to the
cousellors office to change my schedule no one would help me. They
said it was to late to change them. (I missed the deadline
by ONE stupid little day!!! I don't know what I can do know.
I didn't go to school today because of that. I may go in and try
to talk my second period teacher into letting me take her class
5th period. I will let you know how that goes.

I got a doll in the mail today! She is really sweet. although she kind of
reminds me of someone dead...I know that sounds terrible
but its true she is made of a porcelain that is very pale
She is 18" in length. She came in bad clothes so I put her in
an outfit that is by the Lee Middleton company. If you are
any type of doll collector you will know who I am talking about.
That is it for now bye bye.

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