I had to come to one of the darkest hours in my life, and except the fact that all I had done and planned as a man was worthless. It is in these darkest hours that we learn to understand that all things work for good, for those who love the Lord. We don't see the good when the pain and agony is pilled all around us. We make such mistakes in our lives that we think there is no possible way to recover, just to see Him reach down and touch our souls in the mist of hell, and ask "do you love me now as I have loved you from the beginning? You are my child, and no matter what hell Satan piles against you, I am your Father, and I will never forsake you no matter what you may do - I ask only that you truly love me too". Thank you Lord for loving me first!