Finding yourself
All your life
you've reached out
only to find nothing
of substance
in your grasp
while unclasping
hopeful hands
Grew up too fast
a childhood lost
an innocence unknown
no truth, no trust
no stability
no loving light
to guide your way.
The things you lacked
were things you never
knew you needed
You've searched
and come up empty
time and time again
filling the spaces
with whatever was there
But nothing could fill
that hole inside you
that empty, aching void
that silently, helplessly
cried out for something
to avoid the nothing
that loomed inside.
You're older now,
sometimes wiser
you know more truths,
you know more lies,
but most of all,
you know more questions,
and fewer answers.
You walk with others,
yet you are alone
invisible by design
no love, no hate
the dullness comforts
and torments you
at the same time.
But deep inside you
some part of you
they never got to,
still struggles to be
and reminds you
that maybe, just maybe
there is hope here.
Hope to feel that life
is more than breathing
that love is more than
passion mixed with pain,
that you are more
than a hollow heart
and an aching void.
No heart is hollow
that cares like yours,
no life is empty
that touches others,
no void is unfillable
when it can be touched
by someone who cares.
There is life in you,
my cynical friend
you hide from it,
yet you long for it
and I will stand by you
while you unlock it
and throw away the key.
Laurie
3/27/97
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