by Gayla Morse
In an instant, I was created and began to form as humans do
In the beginning, I looked no different Than any other, even you.
For within each tiny second of life I began to take shape and form
My brain developed more everyday places were made for my feet and arms.
As I grew, although still tiny, my hands began to move
Small fingers began to grow that my hands would later learn to use.
My eyes were shut and I was blind but I longed to see one day
My legs were small but were growing for me to run and play.
My ears were but tiny holes but in time I hoped to hear
Your voice that seems so distant yet, at the same time, seems very near.
I can suck my thumb for contentment while I'm away from you
I can wriggle my toes and move around while I'm growing inside of you.
I don't know much while tucked inside all I do is grow and grow
It's quiet here but yet I can still feel you and hear your heartbeat though.
Wait! I thought I heard you a small pitched beautiful voice
How I wish that I could see you if only I had a choice.
You see, I'm just like you we both started out much the same
Similar cells and the growing process similar forming body frame
There's one more thing that I was given while in your womb I grow
Just like you at the moment of conception God gave me my very own soul.
I became a human in that instant the very second I was conceived
Your love I felt by the warmth and nutrition I quickly began to receive.
But Wait! Something is happening! I can hardly take this pain
I'm being torn and taken from your body and nothing seems the same
My heart is beating so much faster for reasons I do not know
I feel cold, lost and unloved my heart is now beating too slow.
My eyes never got the chance to open does this mean I'll never see you?
I can't stop this thing that is happening and I don't know what I can do.
I have been ripped from the only life line that kept you and I together
I fear that this is my destiny to be away from you forever.
I have no power to change this and I wish that this was not so
I longed to continue growing and have an opportunity to know.
Life, as you know it well and the beauty that one day brings
A chance to see just a glimpse of your face and to hear your soft voice sing.
My body is now getting weaker I can no longer feel my hands
And my brain is still too premature for me to understand.
In an instant, I'll be gone just as quickly as I was made
It seems I'm returning to God's hands the very ones from which I came.
I feel lost in my new surroundings still now knowing what to do
As I go, always know in your heart that I loved you before you even knew.