tuesday 4 february
	happy chinese new year!  or to be politically correct, happy lunar new year! man, i've been eating good these past couple of days.  out of town friends are here, we're going out, having fun, eating lots of food.  it's been a great couple of days.  and the best part about it all?  i've FINALLY weened myself from taking any aspirin, ibprofen, or painkillers for my gum/tooth and headaches and i've still enjoyed everything!  yay for me.  i thought i was going to get addicted to those things.  on average, i was taking AT LEAST 2-3 pills daily.  now, i'm almost headache free, but totally off the meds. real vs online personas recently i've been thinking about this site and how i portray myself.  is it the way i am in real life?  if i were to meet anyone reading this site that i have not met personally, is my personality any different from how i write myself to be or sound?  there are stigmas that i attach to writers of other sites.  i don't know if that is right or wrong to do, but i find myself thinking that if i were to meet, for example, evil wahine, i imagine her to be this really fun chick that i can talk to for hours about television and movies because from her site, she is a great source of news.  she's like my online version of entertainment weekly.  i had lunch with peggy and sonny the other day.  i've known peg for some time already, and even tho i've corresponded with sonny throughout the year, it was only the second time we've met.  he's exactly the cool guy that i've been chit chatting with, very conversational and witty.  a couple of people i would love to meet someday are dina, gg, aiyah, lan, and cyn.  but then i'm afraid that i'll be a bore and have nothing to say.  i think i'm still very new to this online world.  plus, i shy.  *blushing* it's hard being my brother's sister.  he's such a great guy.  i don't feel competitive as i use to, more like envious.  i strive to give myself a name next to his.  the reason this has got me started is that after my cousins opened the envelope to see their save the date cards from parkin and i, they exclaimed, "wow, this is really pretty!  did your brother design it?" and the same thing goes for the program that i have made a rough copy of, "wow, this is really nice.  did your brother design it?"  i dont' really blame them.  my brother is SUPER creative... an art director of his own right.  it's just hard being my brother's sister because it's hard making a name for myself.... if that makes any sense at all.  i can be creative too, at times.  i can be mature about it, at times.  oh who am i kidding, i'm still jealous.  haha. last thursday, i met up with some girl friends for a girl's night out.  we decided to meet for dinner at sushi sam's in san mateo.  the five of us, stacey, joyce, liz, may, and i had a blast.  it was funny because we hadn't seen each other in ages as a whole group, at least a year and a half when we went to hawaii together.  anyhow, we went around in a circle and told each other what we were up to.  we ran out of time before the discussion came to me.  good thing, cuz i was nervous about speaking.  hehe.  it was funny because i felt like i was in group therapy. ha! after dinner, we met up with another group of girls, peggy, wil, cindy, betty, and ivy so that everyone could say hi.  it was girls night out meets girls night out!  we met outside everyone's favorite store, target.  there we chatted in the dark cold (since the store already closed) and took some pictures.  it was a good night.
	parkin lives close by to a middle school, so when i leave to go to work every morning, there are kids milling around everywhere.  i've been noticing these past couple of days that these kids think they own the world.  of course people have the right of way when crossing the street, but man, these kids cross without giving any regard to the cars.  i remember when i was a young'un, i looked both ways before i crossed a streets and heed the cars and their drivers.  these kids today just pop out of their parents car and cross without even looking!  they cross the streets while conversating with their friends walking slow as hell, without minding the cars.  they don't care.  they think that they're invincible.  they have no respect for the rules or anybody but themselves.  main reason i'm penting about this?  they make me late for work. i have an uncle who's sick.  i grew up kind of afraid of him, but now i feel sorry for him and it's sad.  god didn't deal him a great set of cards.  i don't know how he got stereotyped as the dirty uncle (dirty as in un-clean) but when i was young, we'd run from him when he tried to touch us.  he liked to pat our heads.  he hasn't had an easy life.  he married a horrible woman that stole from him then left him.  she took his only daughter away from him.  he hasn't seen his daughter in at least 20 years.  that's a whole nother story, but basically he's sick and still lives with my grandmother where she still has to take care of him. =/  i'm not sure what sort of disease he has along with diabetes, but he shakes.  he came over for dinner the other night and his foot was constantly tapping, his hands never stopping.  he forgot to bring his medicine.  like i said, it's sad.  new developments here at work.  lots of changes happening.  i was planning to quit and work full time at nordstrom, but now i'm thinking about working some night shifts there for some extra cash flow.  since i haven't worked there for over 2 years, i have to go through the whole interviewing process.  i have an interview on friday.  the cockiness in me doesn't doubt that i could get the customer service position, but whether they will take me part time is another question. i'm just jumping around everywhere today huh.  so much on mind, but no real complete thoughts.  just babbling. how are you all doing? sign my g-book. =) ~
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