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| i've decided to change my attitude about work. it's a chore still, don't get me wrong. i'd quit if i could afford to, but i can't right now. i need an income, i need this job. as much as i hate it, i need to have a different outlook on it. everyday i would come into the office dreading the day. i've decided that i need to come into the office with a smile on my face. forced as it may be, it's a living and i need to deal with my situation. i have to be myself, the way i am with my friends because essentially, i am working with friends. get done with what needs to be done, and socialize with them when we can get a laugh out of things. i have to make a good thing of the bad. i need to be more understanding of what life has given to me. i am lucky to be where i am. i am lucky to be working. positives at LoMark: i need to be at work on time, but as long as i get in before my co-workers, i'm ok! :) boss buys lunch when he's in the office. we're spoiled. *oink* spare time to work on my website spare time to research wedding stuff as long as i finish my projects, i have spare time to chat online. hehe learning business aspects of the company allowed to play/listen to music that i choose a huge desk all to myself my own parking space lots of bathroom/pee/poo breaks since i eat and drink so much throughout the day working with friends yes there are still many negative aspects of this job but i prefer to look at the positives. i need to grow up and deal with what i have on my plate. be responsible and mature about the situation. i hate being a grump at work and so i'm going to try to keep my head up and turn that frown upside down! am i scared to leave? sort of. i know that i can get another job if i look. i guess with the wedding coming up, i just don't want to stress over anything else. there's still a bit of leanency i like from this job. after the wedding, if this company is not as accomplished as a business, i will leave for something more stable and in my area of expertise... whatever that may be. dinner last night at todai was fun. parkin couldn't make it at the last minute. he had a work thing that he wasn't planning to go, but his father was giving him hell for it. that's the problem working with family. youre not only working with them from 8-5, you are working for them 24/7. i feel really bad for him and his brother sometimes. their parents are the sweetest coolest parents, but they have high expectations, as do many chinese parents do for their children. i think that sometimes the pressure is also on because they are both boys. i wonder how they would treat a daughter. they're really sweet to me tho sometimes i think that they have high hopes for me too. i really am JOINING the family. i'm a really lucky girl, tho. you hear stories about in laws tho, you know? there was that movie with gwenneth paltrow, i forget what it was called, but there was a pyscho mom in it wasn't there? anyways, back to dinner, todai is yummy! i'd never been there and tho it was sort of expensive, it was definately worth the experience and company! my favorites were the fresh sushi (tho i don't eat raw), udon, and dessert bar! oh, and i can't forget the bacon and scallop on a stick! happy birthday to ivy, mayu, and matty! and to the inquiring minds, the little yellow animated cartoon that is the representative for todai is a lighthouse. (not a condom, matty) hehe. tonight, parkin are leaving for a weekend trip to the south bay. not san jose, but la. i'll be staying with peggy and we have plans to meet up with winnie one night! i'm really excited. she'll be the 2nd web-friend to meet live, first being sonny. (hey you, stop hiatusing!!!) again, i am a bit apprehensive because i don't want win to think i'm a dud, (low self esteem problems *wink*) but i think that it'll be fun. i have a feeling i'll run into an evil girl someday tho... she seems to be all around the city at some of my hang outs! oh! sidenote: big thank you to queen hedgie cyn for the purtiest homeade love card! *muah* after work, i plan to go straight to sleep for a couple of hours. i still have to pack, but i think i'll be able to do that quick and easily. just gotta plan it out throughout the day, then pack it up later. easy. parkin doesn't want to drive, so more than likely, i will be driving the whole way there. our romantic valentine's dinner will be at in&out or jack in the box when we stop for gas. so lomantic! yum. <3 it will be a fun valentine's weekend get away for me and my lub. |
| friday 14 febrauary happy valentine's day |