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last night parkin and i found out that our friend mike passed away. it was horrible news to hear and i am completely heartbroken. mike and i weren't great friends, we weren't even that close, but he was a part of my life that i'll never forget. i met mike when i was a freshman at san jose state through my friend lance. oh geez, lance must be devasted right now. they were very good friends. i just saw mike at new years and like always, he was upbeat and personable. parkin had chatted with him last month when he heard that we were engaged. mike told us that a group of friends were getting together and we should join them... now i wish we had.
i'm not a person that deals well with death... i don't think that many people do, but for me, it's extremely hard. i haven't really dealt with friends dying and i don't wish this pain onto anyone out there. it just hurts so much... knowing that i will not see him or run into him at parties or get-togethers anymore. he always had this adorable smile on his face and he was always so full of life. it's so unfair. he was only 27...he was way too young to go.
mike was in the same fraternity as parkin and i know that a great deal of individuals are as heavy hearted as i am now, if not more. i just can't believe this. i'll miss him so much. |
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dana came over to parkin's house to watch fear factor and third watch. afterwards, we watched last week's thursday night tv. i watched part of it at jana's house, but missed most of it. dana stayed for friends then left to go pick up her boyfriend from work. parkin and i continued watching will &grace then er. from the first 15 minutes of er, i had already soaked up my tissue. the episode was such an emotional one and i could not stop the tears from flowing. as i watched dr green slowly slip to death, even tho he was a very young and lived a semi-full life, all i could think about was mike's tragic death and how everything was just taken from him in that one instant. it just happened... noone was prepared to hear about his passing and it is still a shock. in a sad and bitter way, i thought, 'at least dr green had some time to prepare for his death.' yes i know that er is just a television show, but i know how realistic it can be. death is very real, and the emotion and shock is there, no matter what the situation. my father battled cancer only one year ago and i am lucky to say that he beat it, but as i watched er, i also thought, 'that could have been my father.'
my eyes were very puffy and my face was all blotchy after the show. i went to my sleeping bag very sad, once again, and had another restless sleep. |
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