June 7, 2002

so i've been reprimanded here at work.  i guess that to the boss, i dont' have enough knowledge in the accounting/quickbooks program as he wants me to have.  he didnt' tell me himself, but asked my co-worker talk to me about it.  i know that i dont' have the accounting knowledge, i have no background whatsoever in business or accounting, and he knew that from the beginning.  i am getting quite knowledgable in quickbooks and get myself around the program, but i guess my problem is the main accounting foundation.  i dont' have it.  i'm not sure where i'm going in the company. i enjoy my job, i love the people i work with, it pays fairly well for a position that i stepped into, but i told my co-worker that if rob, my boss, can find someone with an accounting background, that he feels is more capable of the work, i dont' mind stepping down.  i dunno.  i can't help it if i dont' have the passion for the job, and i know that i dont' have much business sense, he does and thinks that with the past couple of months of working, i should be more equipped to handle every and all situations.  i feel really bad.  we'll see how things go in the next couple of months. in the last couple of days, i figured out that my 'bridesmaid' problem isn't that i dont' know who to ask, but there are too many girls that i want to ask and it's just been hard for me to figure out who out of the vast group i want to ask.   yeah, i still haven't figured it out, but my wedding checklist allots me a couple more months.  hehee.  that's the problem i have with not being a part of a super close knit of girlfriends.  i'm a group-hopper.  haha know what i liked about the movie ya-ya sisters?  the 4 girls that became the ya-ya sisters were close throughout growing up, childhood to adulthood to late adulthood.  no matter what they said or did to each other, they had each other's backs.  they yelled at each other, bitched at each other, threw huge bashes for each other, celebrated the good, mourned together through the bad.  it was a nice taste of what i hope to have one day with my girlfriends even tho i dont' necessariy have a 'sisterhood' or a real close childhood friend, i hope that the close friendships that i've delevoped through my college, pre and post, they are a tiny bit as strong as the ones in ya-ya.  i know that it's only a movie, but i am almost certain that there are really friendships like that out there, that there are older women like that, that have deep friendships like that of the movie.  it made me wish that i actually held on to the friendships that i had in the past and became blood sisters with them - cut my hands and rubbed my blood with them. haha, yah right!  i can't stand the sight of blood, and the thought of my blood rubbing with someone elses... *blaaaah*   i'm really happy with my life right now, no regrets.  i couldnt' have asked for more.  well, if i could, i would have asked for..... hehee i had my first taste of soul food today.  for lunch, we found a small little joint nearby and ordered some soul food to eat in the office.  i have to admit that it's some mighty tasty stuff!  i just had a rib sammich with side of spaghetti, but lordy lord, the flavors were emmaculate, bursting around every taste bud in my mouth.  the spaghetti wasn't no plain ole side of pasta, but it's sauce had some soul in it and the ribs were excellent, with the meat dripping off of the bone.  i thoroughly enjoyed my lunch today.  my co-worker on the other hand saw how the man was serving everything up and didn't partake in the soul food.  we stopped over at popeye's for her and i also ordered a side of mash potatos there.  popeyes has the best mash potaters and gravy.  it's really just the gravy that makes it soo good.  it's a cajun gravy with bits of celery, onions, and meat in every bite.  hella good.  i love me some mash potaters.  i have some sitting right here next to me and i'm scooping it up like ice cream. mmm... yum.  i'd definately choose mashers over ice-cream anytime, especially popeye's mashers.  yuuuuuuuu-mmers.  not much doing tonight.  dinner with the family, maybe rent a movie, and a restful night sleep with no worry about waking up early to start the commute across the bridge to work.  hope everyone has a safe friday!

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