you know that feeling when you just can't move when you're asleep? well last night, i was getting a little freaked out when at my brother's house, a light in his living room turned off and then came back on suddenly. now if you know me, i get scared really easily and automatically think ghosts. well i couldn't shake the feeling all night, and even tho my brother said it was the wiring, i still had these chills of a frightening nature. anyways, that may be why i woke up with a cold sweat, prolly freaked myself out with nightmares. so as i put my head down on my desk this morning, during the time of half consciousness, i tried so hard to open my eyes and lift my head, but i felt like someone kept my head down, i could not lift it up. then i head these voices, i forced my eyes open, still couldn't move my head, looked around the office, but no one was there. i heard men and women's voices whispering things to me, around me, but couldn't see anyone. i tried to lift my arms, but couldn't, they felt like they were strapped down in my lap. i felt so helpless, and so tired, i surrendered to the slumber and went back to sleep. i tried so hard to wake up during those 3 hours, but could not do it. suddenly my cell phone rang around 11am, and i was forced to wake.
i felt horrible all day, headachy, dizzy, i put my head down again many times and napped, but no more voices, thank goodness. i made a can of soup for lunch and had some fruit, but still felt weak and tired. parkin called and told me to leave work early, since i wasn't doing much anyhow. at 4:15 after one more head rest, i left work and went to parkin's house. i changed and fell into his bed from 5 to 7:15 pm. geez. i knew that i could sleep longer but i was waiting for a call, so i finally got up and showered. i am still exhausted and when parkin came home, he said i looked like i had just thrown up 5 times. then park came into the room and asked me what was wrong. i must look horrible... *(look in the mirror)* yeah, i do.
what's wrong with me?
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