i've been feeling a bit of seperation anxiety with parkin. it's strange. this past week i've stayed over at his house everyday. i haven't gone home for awhile now, and even tho i see him in the morning, go to the gym with him, watch tv with him, go to bed with him, i still miss him.
i miss my mom too. because i've been at parkin's all week and weekend, i've only seen my mom a couple of times. i talked to her today, and she sounded stressed. i miss sleeping in my bed at home. i miss chit chatting with my mom while she's watching her chinese soap operas and recorded episodes of days of our lives. i miss my mom's back scratching. she's got the best nails. i don't miss the chinese soup tho. hehe. i miss my brother and pappy too.
i miss hawaii, i miss going to the beach, walking along the strip, playing in the sand. i miss the costco hot dogs there. yum, instead of regular hot dog buns, they use hawaiian bread buns. mmmm... i wanna learn how to surf the next time i go. i miss zippy's chili dog plate.
i miss my grandma. we had lunch with her over the weekend, and she's so cute. i miss seeing her every weekend like i did when i was a kid.
i miss my friends. i miss hanging out with my rb girls. the last time i went to hawaii, i went with these girls and we had a blast. that was probably the last time we were all together. i miss hanging out with ivy. last year around this time, i helped with her wedding plans and i saw her almost everyday! it was so much fun being unemployed. i would say that i miss peg too, but i was lucky enough to hang out with her over the weekend, and plan to see her again this weekend. but when she goes back to la, i'm gonna miss her too.
i miss my cousin dana. she went back to the airlines this past week and is stationed in jersey. well, she's already back in town, but i haven't seen her yet. i dont' know when i'll get to see her again cuz she's so busy. we used to always go to the bar over the weekends, have a couple of drinks and just hang out. we haven't done that for a long time.
i miss my college friends. i dont' miss college, just the people i hung out with when i was in school, and my job back then. i loved my job. i miss my office at sjsu, i miss my apartment in san jose.
what else do i miss.... i miss my turtles. i had these baby turtles that parkin gave to me years ago, but they were really hard to take care of, and they passed. they were my first pets ever, and i cried and cried when the first one died. their names were po and sting. rest in peace little guys.
i miss being a kid. doesn't it seem like time moves so quickly these days? it's already october, it's alreay tuesday, the weekend is just around the corner.
you know what it is? it's this work thing! the commute takes 2 hours of my days, back and forth, i have to wake up early in the morn to get ready for work, i have to go to bed early to have enough energy to work the next day, i can't hang out with my unemployed friends because i have to work. i can't vacation because i have to work. i can't hang out with my parents and family because i have to work. boo. work sucks. there are just not enough hours in a day. there are not enough weekend days during a week. if only i was a billionaire.
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