tuesday, november 12
	one more day, just one more day.  7 days of the diet is fine, but 9 is hard.  i find myself thinking of food ALL the time now and it's driving me crazy.  i even dreamt about tom welling and gummy candy.  why tom welling?  because he's yummy.  why gummy candy?  probably because lan mentioned buying a bag of gummies and sours yesterday and i wasn't craving it until she mentioned it.  i cheated yesterday tho.  parkin made a bowl of udon and spam and i was just standing there smelling it while he was washing his dishes.  i poked around and saw the tiniest piece floating around, small as in the size of an ant.  i pinched it out of the bowl and popped it in my mouth.  it was sooo good, but as soon as i swallowed, i felt a wave of guilt wash over me.  damn spam.  damn spam and it's salty processed goodness.  was it worth the guilt, even tho it was the smallest piece ever?  no way because i felt so bad all night and you know what?  i weighed in at 130 this morning!!!  i weighed 129 on monday morning but this morning, i seem to have gained a pound already!  damn that spam.  i'd never cheated before so what made me do it this time?  it's because i feel like i'm doing extra credit with these extra two days, so if i stray off a little, it's ok because i already finished my 7 days time.  stupid me.  weird me, actually.  hehe. i looked at my credit card statement online and my wedding gown has already been charged.  did i mention?  i was talking to my mom the other day and she was asking me if i was going gown shopping anymore.  i told her that i had already purchased it online and she said that she wanted to pay for my dress! i was so surprised, and so touched that she offered to.  i won't let her of course, but it meant so much to me that she wanted to do that for me.  she's the bestest. my dad also wanted to buy wedding favors for us.  he has a friend that makes homemade scented candles so he wanted to buy them as wedding favors.  although he thinks that it is a great deal, it's not.  $4 per candle.... at 500 guests?!  no way do i want him to spend that much on wedding favors!  besides, we already ordered our favors and we love em, but it was so sweet of him to offer too.  he's the cutest. look how cute babygirl is!!!
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