so i weighed myself this morning and i'm still 129lbs. grrr... the reason behind staying on the diet for a couple of extra days was to hopefully lose another pound, but no such luck. i blame it all on the the miniscule piece of spam. damn spam.
but then it also makes me wonder, maybe 129-130lbs is the lowest i can get? you know how people have their comfort weights, and it's just not possible for them to get any skinnier? i weighed 115-120 before... but my body frame has gotten larger since then. hmm... well seeing how my thighs jiggle, i think that i can stand to lose pound or two more, but prolly not thru dieting. damn, i'll have to exercise.
i haven't noticed too much of a difference, but parkin actually complimented me. he said i looked skinnier! parkin's never said that to me... i mean since we've started working out. it meant a lot, for parkin to actually think i looked skinnier? wow. if you know parkin, you'll know that he's a pretty blunt guy, straight up and to the point. he doesn't lie or anything, maybe a little fib for fun, but he'll always be honest with you. so when he says something like i actually look skinnier, it's a big fat compliment.
the bad thing about working out after dinner is that we get home so late and i hate showering at night because it takes forever to blow dry my hair. the good thing about working out late and then showering at night is that i get to sleep in 10 minutes longer in the morning. then the bad thing about that is that i dont' get a morning wake up shower. *yawn* so shleppy this morning.
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i'm turning 25 soon. you know what that means? i'll be in the next bracket. you know, when you do surveys or sign documents and have to tell your age, 18-24 is one bracket, then 25-30something is another? i'm moving on to the next box! it's a bittersweet move. sometimes i wish that i had more friends my age. i wonder if they are in the same mindset as i am. a lot of my college friends are just finishing up with school this year, but i also know that some of them are already working on their career paths, which then makes me sad because i haven't found my path yet. i dont' have a passion, i am not sure what i want to do, work wise. right now, the wedding is occupying my time and working here is just for the money, it's not a career that i want to continue after i marry. it's a means to an end. i miss the feeling i had during college when i thought i wanted to teach. the security of knowing what i wanted to do with my life. without that, i feel lost. my path has been compromised and i don't know which way to go anymore. carpe diem. i want to seize more moments, i want to learn more things. (without going to school) i want to see friends and hang out with my family more. i feel like the odd and end jobs i will end up working will suck the life out of me, that hours will be spent on the computer and not enjoying the great outdoors. not that i go out and enjoy them often... and that's a problem! i should. the minutes and hours are just passing me by.
i think i'm going through my quarter-life crisis. HELP!
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oooo! my friend just offered me tickets to tonight's warrior's game. she works for southwest, so they have a suite this year too. wow! she's luring me with the "free food, free drinks" shbeel. like i can resist that! i haven't been to a warriors game since my friend chris took me for my birfday 2 years ago. that was my first game ever and it was so much fun! we sat pretty far, but it was a good time still. i'm suppose to meet my friend dave for dinner tonight, so hopefully i can reschedule with him. so much to do, so many people i want to see before i head out to hong kong. :) lucky i'm off the diet!
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t minus 5 days til hong kong