The long awaited #3 in the “MELISSA ETHERIDGE” saga, that’s what I’ve decided to do, I’m going to do as many as I can using Melissa Etheridge songs. It’s the sequel of ‘Watching You’ and ‘Don’t You Need’. The song is ‘I Want You’ by the same artist that sang the first two. Cath’s POV whole way through.

I Want You.
by Barnaby

It’s like there’s this everlasting pain in me now. We gave into our feelings just the other night in some seedy bar just of the Strip. We were dancing to a song that one of the girls used to dance to at that place I used to dance. I think it was by some woman who later turned out to be a lesbian. Funny that. Sara and I dancing to a song by a lesbian rocker, we’re both female.

I can see your darkened eyes
Across the room turn into lies and laughter
And asking for my name again
Then introduced as just a friend
Well it was no fantasy the passion burned
You touched me and the evening turned to midnight
I can’t forget the naked trust
One quenchless night of shaking lust and fire

We were just dancing. You know two friends out having a good time together and then bam Sara kissed me. It was the most exhilarating but the most frightening experience of my life. I was finally happy that she’d kissed me and that was also what scared me. I had let myself have so many failed relationships that I was afraid that I’d push her away.

I want you
I want you
I want you
I want you

The kiss was like no kiss I’d ever had. And I’ve had a lot, let me tell ya. It was gentle but kind of, I don’t know… hesitant. It was almost as if she was afraid to let herself get lost in the kiss and finally give in to her feelings (whatever they were) for me. I couldn’t believe how tentative she was being. I think she thought I’d break off the kiss and yell at her or something. I guess that’s what I usually do, right? I mean act and then yell. God I wish things could have been different between us.

Since that night I’m not the same
Desire breeds an ugly stain inside me
Satisfaction never comes
It’s always dark and yet still I run
Even when I close my eyes
You torture me with shameless sighs of seduction
Waking in a chilling sweat
Pounding heart inside my chest I’m screaming

But I guess now’s our chance. I have the opportunity to make things right between her and I. I might fuck this up but I’m not going to let it scare me into not giving this thing a go. Anyway back to the story. We were dancing, she kissed me and we ended up back at her apartment.

I want you
I want you
I want you
I want you

It didn’t last long though. She and I argued first thing the next morning. I don’t know why it has affected us so badly I mean it’s not like we are telling the world about us, I mean it’s only the guys. Okay so Grissom might have a problem with it but I know for a fact that Nick, Warrick and Greg, especially Greg, wont have a problem with it.

With your heart in your fist
You laugh at my situation
Tell me is it blood that you want
Then take me strip me cut me see I’m bleeding

All I want is her. I mean I don’t care who knows and who doesn’t well that is exactly what the argument was. She doesn’t want to tell anyone because she thinks that will alienate her away from the group, like they’re going to hold it over our heads that we’re together.

I want you
I want you
I want you
I want you

I really don’t care Sara Sidle who knows about us. I just want you.

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